ZOMBIE

~ To the people who have gone through hell and lived to tell ~

ZOMBIE by the Cranberries

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me,
it's not my family
In your head, in your head
they are fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns

In your head,
in your head,
they are crying...

(Chorus )
In your head,
in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie
What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?


Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken

It's the same old theme
since nineteen-sixteen
In your head, in your head
they're still fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns.
In your head,
in your head,
they are dying...

(Chorus)

End of the song...



There are a lot of reasons for us to keep fighting forever.. only one pathetic one for us to stop.
How many countries will survive when the dust settles and we finally resolve our differences?
How many when we realise that we can't?

Lebanon: ????- 2006

PRoCRaSTINATION

YESSS I'm a real procrastinator... so much tt I've decided 2 talk abt last wknd right now.. :P
First things first. Friday.. Kenneth's birthday!! Kenneth as usual invited a lot of shunyans 2 come...( no lah just kidding :P) anw he invited practically all the fairfield ppl i still rmb, so haha good 4 him man! We had fun just talking n stuff, pity auga n gang din come man, they r just damn funny guys, n i wld haf liked 2 talk 2 them there. But anw like I said, so many shunyan, also dun tink they will come...haha..
Anw we had a barbeque at Kenneth's super-shunyan condo... and then the real dinner. And after tt we gathered 2 sing his bday song, cut the cake... and throw kenneth in the pool!! haha wooohoooo so fun!! :)

Saturday even more fun! 4C class outing... as usual a lot of shunyans dun wan 2 come... but dunno dun care!! Haha... oh btw Diana came along. I haven seen her since sec schl man!!! She looks.... erm, cant say, I reli cant place her face liaoz. :P
Anw we went sentosa 2 play on the beach... we planned 4 a breakfast b4 tt but ended up eating lunch.. and then it rained!! Hahaha wah lau.. thot cant go sentosa liaoz.. but luckily it ended ard 1pm, n we went 2 sentosa ard 1+, n started playing ard 2 I think. Aiyah dun care timing lah, we play means we play lor~
So we played captain's ball, cos the class wan 2 practise 4 Past v Present this sat..
so long never play but damn fun siah!! Chiong here chiong there and anyhow score goals!!! Hahaha.. initially my team got advantage, then we started to lose like siao. But we dun care, we fight until we almost equalise man!!! ( I think)

" COME ON GUYS ONLY 7 MORE GOALS 2 WIN!!!!" HHAHAHHAhahaahah woooohooooooo

So fun so fun... after tt we play ultimate frisbee, n then we go even crazier. Start calling our team Geylang Warriors, n anyhow hantum.. then Shawn start doing his stupid stunts, haha, throw back the frisbee 2 himself, and we start doing warcry!!
" Lets go guys!!! YYYYAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR- < short breath>- YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRM
SSSSEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Wooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! So fun siah, finally got the chance 2 reli go crazy for a while siah~ helps 2 release tension, n dun need 2 tink so much. Well we played another game of captain's ball ( wiv more warcry this time) and my team lost all 3 games. But u know wad???? GEYLANG WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! FIGHT UNTIL THE END!! TODAY WE LOSE TMR WE THRASH EVERYONE!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Siaoz liao.. but tts the mood in the games. Hahha...
After tt we had dinner at Suntec... shawn the super-shunyan as usual dun wan 2 fetch us there, instead go home n then say he'll b late then later during the dinner say he wun b coming liaoz... hahaa anw not tt we din expect tt. Dinner was ok lah, some noodle place.. I had Penang Prawn Mee, so-so lah, a bit better than the usual singapore version of the PP Mee.
SSSSSSSSSSoooooooooo fun man... Im glad my class so onz one, every once in a while got class outing. Love u guys man!!!

IDIOTA

Yes I am one indeed. I've just realised that today.
Somehow after I came out of NS, I thought I was no longer that whiny, pessimistic, sloppy and emotional piece of crap I used to be. That I was now far more immune to emotional breakdowns, whims and pain. That I was some kind of new man.

I guess I'm wrong. I really am. I thought I could help people if I tried this time, and not make a mess of things. But like Zidane ( who was at least a star before he did stupid things) I do things on a whim. I gave up a lot of money on one, I became an army laughing stock on one, and now, I risk losing a friend on one.
She was hurt, yet again, and I thought I could help her. But of all the ideas I could come up with, this one is one of the worst. I was arrogant, thinking I was smart, thinking I was being a good friend. I was self-centred, thinking more about myself, about how I could prove myself a friend if I could do it. I was anything but a friend, the kind she needed, to just be there, to just help take her mind off all this madness. Instead I screwed myself up, and maybe even her. I'm not sure.. but I hurt her again, as if she needed any more. I was paranoid, obsessive, stupid. Clumsy with my words just like I am with my actions. And if anything, I'm sorry for all that I've done. But I fear I might be too late.

I'm not sure what she would make of this. I don't think she wants to speak to me, at least for a while. I don't know if she even trusts me anymore, or if she ever wants to remain my friend. I don't know what to know. All I know is that I'm just as whiny, just as pathetic a human being as I was before, if only slightly more controlled, a little wiser, but not enough. I've hurt too many people in my life, I don't want to do that anymore. But I guess that's not possible, because I'm just me.

If she is reading this, I just want to say.. I'm sorry. I really am. I have no excuses for what I said, but all I can do is apologise. Sorry..

What happens when people get mad

MUST MUST MUST

- Must get driving license asap
- Must confirm whos gg 2 fairfield past v present so i can decide wad 2 join
- Must begin learning basic coding
- Must learn how to draw properly
- Must get back army fitness
- Must learn guitar ( sooooon)
- Must kill something!!!!!
- Must refrain from public destruction
- Must start thinking again instead of stoning my whole life away
- Must do something RETARDED!!!!!!!!
- Must think of other things to write in my blog :P

Friends

Its alright, I'm ok. I think God can explain.....
- Splender, " I think God can explain", album Halfway Down the Sky


Odd that I'm still awake at this time? Nah not reli.. i like being awake late. I get to appreciate things.. and work unhampered, if you can call what I'm doing working.
Lately I've bn talking with several ppl most of the time, and these figures are in my mind these weeks.
One is this nice girl that's kind of my senior in SIM- haha, ironically, I was her senior in sec schl. She's sweet and all, and I guess we're kind of sharing how we feel to each other. I like this kind of friendship- based on trust, you know, not so much on how much fun we're having or sthing. ( Yes I know u can read this, hah.. thx 4 being some1 i can talk 2 ! :) )

Then there's some ppl I'm just not so sure abt...
This one guy.. he's just recently bn addicted 2 gambling. I've known him for some time, but still i dun reli know when the habit started... I guess I'm trying 2 b tough wiv him so he can wake up and smell the roses. Maybe I shouldn't b so tough.. after all, he is talking abt stuff like depression and suicide. Not so much, fortunately, so I'm still gg 2 try 2 wake him up. Still I dun reli know how much I can do...
Another is basically the fren I've bn missing in one of these past entries.. and for long time now. Odd really.. I've just had a dream of her this afternoon. I won't say what its like, just.. I think it means I miss her too much. I haf no idea if I've done anyting wrong, and I'm trying 2 apologise, but its gg 2 take more than tt to bridge 2 years of ... seperation? haha that just sounds wrong, but I dun know what else 2 call it...
Finally, this odd friend of mine.. I dun know if she does regard me as one, haha... I've only met her online so far BUT I'm gg 2 meet her in person! Finally! I hope everything goes well, cos I really want 2 see how this enigma is like. oooOOOooOoo.... As far as I know, she looks good, and she's quite an intelligent person. I hope I dun bore her 2 death or sthing, or scare her off. Hah~

Well thats all I can say for now. Really, I think I've taken up the WC 06 motto for myself this period of time- " A time to make friends", or rather, I'm trying to be one .... to maintain friendships, and be a better friend to all. Well, still plenty of time till dawn, so I got time to reflect again.

SIM

Hah, today I went to SIM for my orientation day. Fun~ lots of games and .. ok, not a lot, but ok lar, got shy ppl u knowz, so dun pressure them too much :P

Anwayz, it was fun but tiring... reli tiring, go home abt 4 and sleep until abt now. Haha.. but reli not happy tho. Why?? It was fun, get 2 talk 2 some ppl, know their names... but for fuck! Now like i din get their contacts.. so we can prob see each other over the canteen? Haha.. wah lau, regret not chatting more wiv the chio bus in our grp, then get number siah... or even my buddy grp in there! ARGGHHHHH sianzzzz... hope my orientation grp leader ( OGL ) will give us the contacts, otherwise reli wasted siah, will see them maybe in 2 or 3 years time.. hah~

Otherwise was fun... lots of stupid little games, but I missed a few cos of stomachache~ dun care, got 2 see my OGL pole-dancing!!!! HAHAHAHA LOLZ... have fun jeremy! ;) Then so fun, watch one guy play TD at the cca displays... hahaha!!! GOT ONLINE PARTNER 4 TD LIAOZ!!! ONZ LAR!!!

Ok jus siannn... haf fun everyone~

End of the World Cup

Tears and smiles and grins and tackles are all over now.. the greatest event of 2006 is finally over. As we bid farewell to the festivities in Berlin, I'll now comment on the player that has changed this whole event.

That player is the one with plans for a grand finale.. our beloved Zinedine Zidane, aka Zizou, aka the Magic Man . Everyone thought he was wasted, gone, old, and archive in history, a legend fading into myth. He proved to them that the legend was far from dead and buried. He particularly taught Ronaldinho , the new Magic Man, that it takes more than a few fancy tricks to be a great player- and that great players never go down easily. It can't be argued that throughout the whole French campaign, he was the inspiration, the leader and the ultimate weapon of his team.
Ironically, it was because of that, that he was instrumental in their defeat.
Why, oh Zizou, why??? The last 10-20 minutes were crucial times to score, break the deadlock. Yes, you saved France with that early goal, but then you did something stupid. Materazzi held you down, and yes, I think he deserved something , but he did not get it. That was no excuse for headbutting him , openly inviting a red card. Forget your temper. This is not about you, it is about the country. Had you held your temper and followed through faithfully, France might have beaten the Italians. You guys might have had Totti and Buffon on a pizza plate. Instead, they now have French toast in the Italian side.
Doing some physical retribution is stupid, and rightly earned you a red card... you can't blame the ref for that. Not only did you take yourself out of the World Cup, you took the French morale and hopes with you. And your honour as a player.. all gone in a flash. Whatever happened to your dream of being a shooting star, sending your brightest flash before fading into the night? Now that is marred by your decision. I really have thought better of you as a player than to resort to this. You really want vengeance, you should just go all out and help the French skewer Buffon, keep up a relentless pace on his goal. Imagine the look on the Italians if you manage a last minute goal. It would be sweet sweet revenge for any abuse you have suffered from them, with sugar icing and a cherry on top. Not just Materazzi, any and all of the Italian players will be wincing even worse than if a bull had gored them. Now, instead, Materazzi will be grinning thru whatever pain you had inflicted with that bald palate of yours. Instead of him, you should have set it against the ball, to set up a killer against Italy. Now, the pain of loss is inflicted on you and your team.

I know I'm mumbling, but it really is too big a shame. Temper has cost a legend his last breath of victory. A valuable lesson to the world, that patience is still one of the world's most valuable assets. That anger can be truly expensive. Zizou has bowed out too early, too foolishly, and France has paid the price.

New Updates: So now he has confessed to why he did that. Cos Materazzi insulted yr family. I say give that ball one of your magic touches and kill Italy's hopes. Then after tt, you can insult his whole freakin' family and he'll b too busy crying to notice.

But no matter what you did, you will always be remembered as a legend in football history. Among the mythos of Pele, Beckenbauer, Maradona. Au Revoir, Zizou!

Farewell To A German Dream

This post, simply put, is dedicated to a team that is now to fight for 3rd place. A team that has fought well and hard for a dream.. a dream that has vanished like smoke.

Of course this is the World Cup.. many teams will return shattered, with their heads below their shins (wow, if that's possible) , tired and facing the disappointment of their country. But Germany, in particular, has been my favourite team this World Cup. And so, since this is my blog, I'll write about them.

Since the start of the watchable matches ( meaning the final 64) they have performed with great gusto. While like any other European team, they boast a robust defence and midfield, now they also have a devastating attack force. They have always been a highly tactical team, and I believe that they can work with even mediocre players ( not that they have any..) . Not like England... put in some of the world's best players and churn out a game that sends everyone to sleep. Honestly, this year the English were pathetic. But the Germans were on a frenzy, going offensive and making every one of their games watchable. And of course, they went on unbeaten, slaughtering every team they met, until they met Italy.
Of course, you could say that's because they were on their home ground, so they will do better. Definitely, they will do better on home ground. In fact, Klinsmann already admitted that the audience is a great booster for the German team. And hence the legend that the Germans will never be beaten on their own soil.
But the last match proved fatal. Why? The answer is simple. Now you have 2 legends fighting each other - one, that the Germans are invincible on home ground, and two, that the Italians have never lost to Germany. It seems that the latter one proved true. The Germans seemed to falter at the thought, and in the first half, their performance was slightly off. But they came back in the second half, only to lose 5 minutes before the game ended.

Now, however, I still admire them. Even in the last match, I feel they were a better team than the Italians. Why? In terms of fair play. The Italians have always been known for playing dirty. And that match was no exception. Players kicked the Germans, dived like pro swimmers, and Totti was a total idiot in one part. He practically flew into a German player with his knees, then fell- and asked for a penalty. What the fuck???? The ref decided to give a penalty against him , but that unsporting act deserved a yellow card, if not a red. Lucky for him, the player didn't get injured enough to be carried out, otherwise yellow would be unavoidable.
The Germans, however, were quite sporting in this game, I feel. They barely asked for penalties, especially when it was obvious they fell on their own. Not with the Italians.. that is why I will never respect them. They lost fair and square, and did not complain. They cried on the pitch, but hell, if you lost in the final 5 minutes wouldn't you? Especially when it is the fight for the World Cup finals. They fought well and hard, and bowed out of the finals with grace.

They lost the match, they lost the Cup, but they won my respect. Germany is proud of them, and I am too. Well done , Germany.. GLORY TO THE DEUTSCHLAND!!!

World Cup

So now I'm going to put my 2 cents worth into the World Cup. This fantastic affair with soccer over one month , where guys' and some gals' lives will revolve around 6 to 9 hours every night , watching some 22 people wage war on the green turf over a deceptively simple-looking ball.

Yes, this World Cup's motto is " A time to make friends" but I think it really is a war out there on the pitch. Of course, some of the teams so far have shown sportsmanship on and off the field. But on some games, it has been nothing but brutal absolute war. Take Holland v Portugal : tension in this match was at an alltime high after the referee personally massacred the teams on both sides for a record yellow cards . It was clear after the match when the handshaking that was supposed to happen failed. Then there is Germany v Argentina- both sides battled so closely for the ball that eventually it came to a penalty, which of course the Germans savoured with that fancy new Berlin wall, Lehmann. The Argentine players didn't even bother with courtesies and protested physically after the match.

Well enough about ruining the game. Let's talk about this whole colourful event. Where to start?
I love the Germans this year. They have always been a strong European team, using unspectacular players to do extraordinary things. This is much unlike the English this year( using great players to do crap) and why I absolutely do not support the English this year. They make every game so boring, so mundane, and if it takes Beckham to perform for them you know they really suck. The Germans have a great war machine going, with both strong offense and defence, and they have Klose and Lord Ballack to finish things off with a bang. They started it with a bang indeed- 4-2 against Costa Rica- and I hope they finish this with a fantastic victory. HAIL THE DEUTSCHELAND!!!!!
Holland has been great as always .. total football defined. But they had a poor finish.. siannn lose to Portugal in the midst of this mad ref... didn't even get their goals rolling. Sad sad.... :(
Italy will forever be remembered this year for their poor sending off of Australia, with that miserable diver and much more...
Well thats all for now. Like I care.... hahahah

AARRRGGHHHH

I have no idea why... im suddenly feeling so frustrated today.
I suppose tts wad happens when i actually lose my obsession with computer games... I find I have nothing else to do!!!! I jus don't feel like doing anything else ... reading? drawing? working? studying for my driving? maybe i should.. but i want to go out with my frens, catch up wiv ppl i haven seen or heard frm for so long... and they dun reply!!! They dun haf time for immature me, no they dun haf time at all... welcome to the mundaneness of adulthood. Hah.. thats wad i get for turning 21. Soon ill b another rhetoric-spouting, obedient little worker in the hive of Singapore's lovely, sane society... soon I will enjoy listening to the great Prime Minister promise more for glorious Singapore.... soon soon soon.

When that day comes, someone please give me a sword so I can commit hara-kiri. Cos Im really nothing without my insanity...... arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, looks like I really dun haf patience after all.... it will soon change, when I grow up and be a wonderful sane citizen of the lovely clean Lion City.......

Yet another song....

Hi everyone.. this is yet another song... cos im bored. Reminds me of someone.. not realy the person I am missing, but also someone i know as a fren. Hah...
( Note: The singer sings EXTREMELY soft... i think it wld b better if u just listened 2 the music or sang it yourself, heh...)

Play this song

The One You Love by Glenn Frey ( Eagles singer)

I know you need a friend,
someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love,
there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do

I heard you on the phone,
you took his number
Said you weren't alone,
but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy,
the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?

When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

( Chorus)
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

( And here comes the jazz....)

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?

Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

(Chorus)

(And the grande finale of jazz music... heh, definitely for jazz lovers..)

Well thats all for now everyone... haha, just feeling in a random unpurposeful mood so...see yall.

So what am I doing?

Haha.. of course I'm writing in my blog! What else could I be doing?

But seriously... nowadays I've been trying to be there for people, try 2 make them feel better...but in the end, I realise that it is me who feels lonely... me who needs their companionship rather than the other way around....
I had a friend whom I've been waiting for some time... someone who has returned from a long trip... she may not remember me ( fat chance, I've bn plaguing her blog for some time.. hah)
and she may not be thinking of me... but I have bn thinking abt her. Not in a romantic sense, mind you... no, not interested in tt. But as a friend, even tho i may not b very close to her, n we havent really done anything memorable together ( tt I can recall) but..... I miss her. I really do.
It's been 2 years.. she left b4 my NS began, and even when it started, I haf bn anticipating the end of it not cos it means the end of my torture.. heh, ok, tts partly the reason. But I wuz really thinking of meeting up wiv her after tt... somehow i thot she wld come back ard 2 years later, just nice for my NS to end.. we cld go out n .. i dunno, do anything. Movies, games, shooping! Anything! Cos wads the point of so much free time when u haf no frens to get back with?
Really, her return marks the end of my NS more than the passing of the ORD form... to me at least.
Hah, maybe I'm just fantasising tt we wld actually click after being apart so long.. tt we even clicked in the first place. Maybe she's outgrown losers like me..maybe she's discovered sthing wrong abt me.... or maybe she just doesnt care. I've tried .. to contact her, ask her 2 call me...
but she hasnt replied. Maybe I should be more patient, maybe she'll remember me soon. Maybe..... maybe not.
Oh well... I do haf more frens than tt, of cos... not saying any of my frens reading this r less important... in my sad little life, frens are always important. But still... I miss her. Maybe this is only because I've been thinking of this for 2 years.. or just a year n a half... but ... ....

Kk... thx to all who've read this. Just feeling sad now...but no worries, Ill forget this soon. Haha...

How not to play soccer

....unless you really want the whole world to laugh at you. Hhahaha lolz...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guKNxIwTRdI&mode=related&search=comic%20soccer%202

This one isn't tt funny n the quality sux.. but for those who like 2 watch ricochets this is a vid of them.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0TIfbMR4as&search=comic%20soccer%202

Hahah, but the best part is the song....credits go to Monty Python. The one and only!


ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE by MONTY PYTHON
Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse
When your chewin' on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle!
And this'll help things turn out for the best!

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the light side of life(whistle)

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And thats to laugh and smile and dance and sing
When your feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps!!
Just purse your lips and whistle
That's the thing!!

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the light side of life(whistle)

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow..
Forget about your sins
Give the audience a grin!
Enjoy it, it's your last chance anyhow!!!

So always look on the bright side of death(whistle)
Just before you draw your terminal breath(whistle)

Lifes a piece of Shit
When you look at it
Lifes a laugh and deaths a joke its true....
You'll see its all a show
Keep 'em laughin' as you go!
Just remember that the last laugh is on you..

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the right side of life(whistle)( x6 )

Crazy/ Evil things to do

This is a little ripped off from the " 20 ways to maintain a healthy level of insanity" but I don't care!!!!! Hahahaha

• dontuseanykindofpunctuation
• o.RscreW????uP_YOur/puN"cTuati...on:; liK!e////thi>S
• Dress up peanut shells and sell them as elephant deterrents... see??? it works! no elephants around!
• When the traffic policeman starts directing traffic, get out of the car and imitate his hand signals... in the opposite direction
• When you see people ask for donations, search intensely and everywhere until you find something to give them!!! Like receipts, bills, chewing gum.....
• End every statement with "...in accordance with the prophecy"
• Except for arguments... end them with "...Spawn of Satan!!!!"

Hmmm... cant think of wad in heck i wanted to say... maybe just showing off my talent in ignoring punctuation? haha.... no this has no purpose. Thanks for wasting 5 seconds of your own precious time.... :P

New way to insult me...

Hi everyone.... or anyone who is even reading this.. heh.
Lovely lovely day huh? Well just came in to say I've updated my blog wiv cbox... soo feel free to comment in it. I like listening to comments, especially when i can just delete them.. haha... sooo say anything you want! Cos so will I.. hahaha....

Just an entry..

Hi... this is an entry..
I'm not sure why... I have this weird feeling of missing people whom I dun even know very well... I dunno wad this means. I dunno wad I'm doing . It might mean something, it might not. Oh well....
Bye.

Friends...

Hi.. this post is devoted to friendship...

What is it? A simple bond btw ppl.. a symbol of love tt shld not have any barriers.. oh, but it does. Conflicting interests.... love triangles. religion. politics. money. morals. and even appearances sometimes.... its sad, really. Its much more common btw all people than romantic love, u know, bgr.... and it can be just as noble. But in definition, it has been interpreted as many different times as the Bible, the Koran, and all the religions, combined.

But this is my blog.. so I'll say my definition.
Friends are not always there with you.. not physically, you can't expect that. Like all people, they ae not perfect.. they will conflict with you, they will hurt you, they will hit you even. They bear grudges, show temper, and the list goes on. But above all.... a true friend will never backstab. Never go around spreading false rumours, or even a malicious truth without first confronting the friend about it. A friend will never leave you behind in the darkest of your days, to rot and to lie alone, waiting for death. He will not abandon you even if you both have an argument... or simply glorify you when you are great only to leave you when you are down.
Those are fair-weather friends... as bad as one night standers, its more like casual sex than friendship this way. Family of course comes first, so I dun expect a friend to deny his mother's orders to help me. No... you shldnt expect tt, cos parents have more love for a child than we wld ever know at this time.
Friends will not force you into a decision... unless they believe it is for your own good. Like not to take drugs, to drop someone whom they feel is a bad influence, etc. Sometimes when they do tt they risk your wrath, other ppl's anger, and even splitsville wiv you. But still... tts them. Love is abt sacrifice... and yes, its cruel, but tts life. Personally, though, I'm not that noble... I still believe in freedom of decision, after all, its your life. What you want to do with it will be yours alone to decide.. since the consequence is yours. Even so, it will not be yours alone... because friends help each other bear burdens, don't they?
Friends are not, as I mentioned earlier, sugary sweet. No... not entirely. They will criticise you, point out your flaws, help you correct them. The Bible says you must " pluck out the plank from your own eye before you pull the splinter from your brother's" or something like that.. but what if it is sawdust? You can't reach it, and neither can your friend... you will have to blow each other's eyes. Most of the time, flaws are sawdust... invisible to us, a mere irritant, but it can be a fatal problem in certain situations. To quote another person , " we have 2 bags filled with Imperfections all the time... one in front and one behind... the one in front is our neighbour's, the one behind ( and invisible to us) is our own" This, in short, means we have to help each other see our flaws and correct them... cos our habits die hard, and when we get used to them they remain hidden from us..

So what kind of friend am I?

I think of myself as a dark-weather friend.. I want to be there when you are at your darkest days. When you have to walk thru a desert of despair, I want to be there with you. I may not be able to do much... I am well aware of my limitations socially or physically..... but nevertheless, I will not leave you alone if you wish. I will never backstab you ... if i hear a rumour about you I'd rather ask you first abt it or confirm it with facts and then confront you with it. If not I'll just shut up. I don't want to force people into decisions.. I doubt I ever will. I'll try to influence it but in the end, I recognise that its all up to you. I will not die for friends, family or even lovers... I'm not that noble. I'll live for them... to help them whenever I can, to be there when I have to, to just simply be another irritating fellow to write about in your blog.. heh. Whatever... if you have any reason to care about me, I'll live for you. After all, I'll be of no use to anyone dead.

Hah.. all this is probably some fantasy of mine... like kids wanting to be soldiers or He-Man when they grow up.

Well thats all I'm writing for now... I'll want to update this in the future but i gotta go now...
and my thanks to all my friends who might be reading this.

Sandman

Play this song

Enter Sandman


Say your prayers little one
Don't forget, my son
To include everyone

Tuck you in, warm within
Keep you free from sin
Till the sandman he comes

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

(Chorus)
Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We're off to never never land

Something's wrong, shut the light
Heavy thoughts tonight
And they aren't of snow white

Dreams of war, dreams of liars
Dreams of dragon's fire
And of things that will bite

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

(Chorus)


Now I lay me down to sleep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
If I die before I wake
Pray the lord my soul to take

Hush little baby, don't say a word
And never mind that noise you heard
It's just the beast under your bed,
In your closet, in your head

Exit light
Enter night
Grain of sand

Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We're off to never never land

( Cue demonic laughter)

This is fun isn't it? I like this song, though it isnt really great as a rock song... it is kinda cool, a little sinister, and somehow I like it. Haha.. my closet sadist at work.

Movies..

Now I give my bigoted opinion on the movies I've watched recently. Dun like it? I don't care!!! Hahaha...

What recent movies have I watched recently? Let's see... X-Men 3, Da Vinci's Code, Over the Hedge, and The Omen. I can't comment on Over the Hedge.. it is a nice movie indeed, and since it's for kids ( not some lao ah pek like me.. hah) I won't comment. No.. I think I'll comment on the movies not targeted at kids.

X-Men 3.. hmm... well it wasn't badly done, I'd say. Typical over-the-head special effects, with some cool stunts done by Magneto ( turning this whole bridge.. cooool I wanna do that!!) and of course our hero of the day, Wolverine. Good actors, some eye candy ( Oooh.. Kitty is cute! And of cos Halle Berry always rox ^^) and all the mutants showing off their powers in this final showdown. The last battle was fun...
But!!! It was flawed , always will be to X-Men fans, and a little to not-so-obsessed people like me. For one.. trying to showcase sooo many mutant powers, they sideline the extras who had a pretty prominent role in the cartoon or comics. Or even poor little Rogue.. but then in the movies shes always the damsel in distress, so nvm. But wtf... they killed CYCLOPS sooo damn early!!!! WTF.. he was the leader of the X-Men siah... how can u just kill him off like tt... and u din even give him the least bit of use in the whole movie series. So wasted siah....
And Gambit!!!! My bloody fave X-Man... why in hell u guys din even show him??? Even as the baddie he wld have been sooo cool.. he was one of their team in the cartoon somemore. If theres an X-Men 4 he better be inside!!! He wld make for a really nice fight scene wiv anyone, esp those 2 spiky hairs ( Wolverine n Beast)


Now the Da Vinci Code... it's the mystery of the century! It's enigmatic! Awe-inspiring! Wondrous! Annnnnnddddddd ssssslllllooooooowwwwww.................................. but then wad 2 expect, so was the book, haha. Yes, I read the book before I saw the movie. Bad move... as usual, I ended seeing sooo many flaws in the movie. Inaccuracies , misses, and too early to reveal the identity of The Teacher. And honestly, what is with Tom Hanks and that long forehead??? Freak... they shld change tt horse joke wiv Tom Hanks. You know... Tom Hanks walks into a bar. The bartender looks at him and says why the long face.....-.-
( Oh, but the choice of Sophie Neveu was perfect...Audrey Tatuou n her irrestibly cute face...)
And the ending is also diao.. but the book also wad, so wad 2 say....

Finally.. the Omen. I should say it's very well done.. really looks and sounds and feels great. I'm not going 2 turn Christian and cover my walls wiv crosses because of that, but its a great horror movie with a nice style... not too cheesy or anything. Nice intro, ending, and overall good show. Especially the sound effects.. those r really wad made me jump.
Oh, but the characters were really interesting. Good actors, including tt child satan, tt impaled priest who in other movies is always some mad fellow, the nice and evil nanny, and even tt supernice daddy who loves his wife so much n doesnt just abandon her cos she goes mad. Too nice, since of course they want him 2 kill his satanic devilspawn son. Oops, musn't reveal the plot....
But I'd like 2 say sthing... the little boy shld learn sthing frm psychopaths in real life. They never reveal their identity until they get caught, and try to avoid detection. They go ubernice to ppl so nobody knows wad in hell they really do. The boy shld try tt next time...be nice 2 ppl, stop being menacing 2 everyone so tt when u use yr powers, nobody will know tt the demon doing this is tt perfectly obedient prim n proper boy who cld never hurt a fly...... awww....

Well tts all the movies I've watched recently.. i tink. Ill post when i remember n feel like posting.. heheh.