YAy I'm becoming mad... seriously mad. Oh well not really I guess. School's only just started for two weeks or so, and I have to know people and talk cock and sing song..... I feel like a new kid going to school, you know? Cos it's been a long time since I studied, haha....
Well this week is going to be a little more busy, but not so much on work... on the contrary, its more the CCAs that's gg to be taking up most of my time!!!! Joined council and learning the ropes... crashing Christian Fellowship devotions.... and planning to go to Singing Club too!!! Wow, I'm so going to regret this soon, or just drop one of them... but well, not so soon. I will be trying to know as many people as possible.. especially girls. Muahahahaha!!!!!!!
( This is just so lame...)
Well, just trying to know more people... I think its kinda interesting that I can join the CF and all, thanks to years of chapel and Boy's Brigade, I'm not new to the whole thing. But I'm technically not christian either!!! Haha well, thank goodness they aren't going all out to convert me- yet...
I don't mind their company, and I hope they don't mind me either. Really friendly bunch, haha....
Council is so busy!! My department is going through a hell lot of things as we prepare for some new event... not to be leaked yet. Hm, yeah I feel kinda left out, as I'm only one of the newbies that joined after the Aug batch... and the other guy has already blended in. Plus, I'm too damn new to this council thing... I've always been a follower, and there really isnt much I think I can do for them, to contribute or anything. In short, I'm a statue. I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO STONING!!!! Its too bloody much like my army days, where basically I was always the odd one out of the platoon... maybe its me. Damn... wish I could change myself.. trying to, but it isnt working out the way I thought it would. Never does huh? Well hope I can contribute more.. otherwise i really don't know what I'm doing there. Poor Joan.. shes kinda the leader and all, but hey, she's only human... she looks so damn shagged during meetings man. Haha, I feel damn guilty lah... I'm like the only person not doing nuts over there, though I'm trying to find something to do...
Well well, Im also trying to find some time to hang out with Ivan, Joseph, maybe Milo also if she's free! I mean, this is like their break or something man.. so they're kinda free I guess, for now. I need to just talk with them again, at least one... just to, you know, catch up and all. Haha.. and if you guys reading this got anything jio me leh... I might be busy, but heck, try try lah? Hahahahaa.... studies at this moment is kinda slack now, so I'm still .. well, hanging?Haha!
Monday, September 25, 2006
Saturday, September 16, 2006
SUPERSTAR!!
Hello hello...
Yeah today was a long day, kind of... or a short one, I'm not sure what either should mean. Or maybe a tall one? :P Whatever.... it more or less started with me going down to support my friend ( like I said in the last entry lahz) for Project Superstar auditions- the cool dude Darryl! ( who i dun tink anyone here knows yet) Bahz.. met up wiv some of his other supporters... total strength= 4! Lolz.... none of us can scream some more lor.. so sad... :(
Hm but its the thought tt counts right? Esp since I'm the only idiot to have come all the way frm west side... the rest all ard the north, so gg 2 the Superstar auditions is pretty easy for them. All frm singing club man! Then later Joan ( another SIMer in the singing club) also join us to support Darryl. SO fun!!!
Hm but one thing.. progress is DAMN SLOW. We meet when the thing supposed to start... 11am.. then after that only ard 1230am then start. Wth....
( Well one more thing... I invited Daniel Foo to come also.. he say okok.. he never come. Can tell me tt at 11am he still at home... nvm, I tell him 2 come down now. Haven start yet, got time. And wad happen? He din come...)
Slow to start... worse to end. Wahz... Darryl was at the end lorz... like, the contestants start wiv the 1ooo+ number tag, the Darryl was like 6000+ tag!!!!! Behind him got 3 contestants only siahz... the one after him we also support, but wah lau... so long siahz, reli got 2 sit thru the whole performance to wait 4 him to perform. I'm sorry, did I say sit? I meant STAND. Yes, stand for 6 freaking hours, watching the judges criticise each n every one man.. ( cos its a male auditions today, duh... I'm not watching the female ones tmr) so siann, watching them in and out. Oh yes, there were some songs sung over and over again.. especially this one song.. ai mei or sthing.. kaoz, sing 4 times in a stretch by 4 different contestants! Then at the last few also got one guy sing again.. haha... and then, JJ Lin's songs of course sung a lot lah.
Hm well... then came our Darryl's turn. We got cheer for him ok!!! Only 6 of us lah (including Joan's fren) n nobody reli go scream, but he heard us, definitely. Hahaha... then he sing song the time, the judges just cut him off lorz, like the lousier contestants. Hey waddup man.. he dun sing so bad wad. Then he kena kick out... his fren also... I think they were kinda siannn also, judge everyone else for wad? 6 freaking hours... I them I also sian, but then, its showbiz wad, you have to get used to it... sigh. Poor Darryl... hm but all things considered, he took it quite well. Well of cos he shld, i mean, he tried his best, wad else can he do?
( Oh and about this time, my dear Daniel foo called me, ask me if I want to go for city harvest... he din come for mine some more wan 2 ask me down... din reply huh? well nvm.. tts daniel foo lahz.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)
Oh but he was kinda cool abt it, I guess... he even treated dinner!! At some buffet.. something Sakura or sthing.. wah not bad siah, buffet pasta n stuff, n for 24 dollars!! N japanese food too, of course... sakura wad... but too bad one of his frens had some problem with eating, so well, we had 2 look out for her. On the other hand, another of his frens eat like nobody's biz!!! Wah lau... serious bottomless pit siah. N she's also the smallest of the grp lor( i think, haha) !!
Hm well... all in all, fun day lah. In the end we din go K-Box like the original plan... but end up gg home after dinner. Just as well lah, I also too full 2 move oredy.. haha... Darryl still had some feelings left abt the auditions tho, I felt. Oh well, cheer up buddy... there are many more chances if you try! Oh btw thanks for dinner!!! Haha..
Yeah today was a long day, kind of... or a short one, I'm not sure what either should mean. Or maybe a tall one? :P Whatever.... it more or less started with me going down to support my friend ( like I said in the last entry lahz) for Project Superstar auditions- the cool dude Darryl! ( who i dun tink anyone here knows yet) Bahz.. met up wiv some of his other supporters... total strength= 4! Lolz.... none of us can scream some more lor.. so sad... :(
Hm but its the thought tt counts right? Esp since I'm the only idiot to have come all the way frm west side... the rest all ard the north, so gg 2 the Superstar auditions is pretty easy for them. All frm singing club man! Then later Joan ( another SIMer in the singing club) also join us to support Darryl. SO fun!!!
Hm but one thing.. progress is DAMN SLOW. We meet when the thing supposed to start... 11am.. then after that only ard 1230am then start. Wth....
( Well one more thing... I invited Daniel Foo to come also.. he say okok.. he never come. Can tell me tt at 11am he still at home... nvm, I tell him 2 come down now. Haven start yet, got time. And wad happen? He din come...)
Slow to start... worse to end. Wahz... Darryl was at the end lorz... like, the contestants start wiv the 1ooo+ number tag, the Darryl was like 6000+ tag!!!!! Behind him got 3 contestants only siahz... the one after him we also support, but wah lau... so long siahz, reli got 2 sit thru the whole performance to wait 4 him to perform. I'm sorry, did I say sit? I meant STAND. Yes, stand for 6 freaking hours, watching the judges criticise each n every one man.. ( cos its a male auditions today, duh... I'm not watching the female ones tmr) so siann, watching them in and out. Oh yes, there were some songs sung over and over again.. especially this one song.. ai mei or sthing.. kaoz, sing 4 times in a stretch by 4 different contestants! Then at the last few also got one guy sing again.. haha... and then, JJ Lin's songs of course sung a lot lah.
Hm well... then came our Darryl's turn. We got cheer for him ok!!! Only 6 of us lah (including Joan's fren) n nobody reli go scream, but he heard us, definitely. Hahaha... then he sing song the time, the judges just cut him off lorz, like the lousier contestants. Hey waddup man.. he dun sing so bad wad. Then he kena kick out... his fren also... I think they were kinda siannn also, judge everyone else for wad? 6 freaking hours... I them I also sian, but then, its showbiz wad, you have to get used to it... sigh. Poor Darryl... hm but all things considered, he took it quite well. Well of cos he shld, i mean, he tried his best, wad else can he do?
( Oh and about this time, my dear Daniel foo called me, ask me if I want to go for city harvest... he din come for mine some more wan 2 ask me down... din reply huh? well nvm.. tts daniel foo lahz.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)
Oh but he was kinda cool abt it, I guess... he even treated dinner!! At some buffet.. something Sakura or sthing.. wah not bad siah, buffet pasta n stuff, n for 24 dollars!! N japanese food too, of course... sakura wad... but too bad one of his frens had some problem with eating, so well, we had 2 look out for her. On the other hand, another of his frens eat like nobody's biz!!! Wah lau... serious bottomless pit siah. N she's also the smallest of the grp lor( i think, haha) !!
Hm well... all in all, fun day lah. In the end we din go K-Box like the original plan... but end up gg home after dinner. Just as well lah, I also too full 2 move oredy.. haha... Darryl still had some feelings left abt the auditions tho, I felt. Oh well, cheer up buddy... there are many more chances if you try! Oh btw thanks for dinner!!! Haha..
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
2nd day of school!!
WOOOOHOOOOOOO SIM here I come!! So happy, finally got an excuse to just talk to people next to me, lolz....
hmm but siannnnn how come my course only got 4 girls? All also not say very good looking... then again only abt 4, wad can i expect... especially from the computing course... sigh... who ask me to dislike economics?
Oh hey, but I tried to join council! Hahah ... Joan conned me with an F & N drink... the 3 Cs you know? Convince Confuse Con!!! Hahaha .. if I have time maybe I'll think of more.. make it the 5Cs!! :P
Hey oh btw.. anyone reading this thing, even at all.. 2 things to tell you guys..
1. Better check out the news first, find the alternative routes to Suntec.... it will be blockaded by the police due to security reasons, as IMF is coming in. Someone oredy zhong hor~ kena force 2 walk long way..
2. My SIM fren is gg 4 superstar audition (or wad? dunno wad its called) this Saturday , 11am, at Toa Payoh HDB hub or sthing.. you guys got time go down n support hor~ his name is Darryl!! Bring the horns and whistles ahz!! ( not sure wads the exact place.. he say got a lot of ppl gg there.. if u reli wan 2 know gimme a msg, i try 2 confirm wiv him lahz)
Haha SIM so fun tho~ cheap food, got bazaar somemore, $2 for 3 choc bars!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT???? Bargain man... wooohooooo ( cheapskate me ng.. lolz)
Kk I'll probably be saying how sian it is soon enough.. for now though, I find it sooo exciting... SIM wooooo!!!
hmm but siannnnn how come my course only got 4 girls? All also not say very good looking... then again only abt 4, wad can i expect... especially from the computing course... sigh... who ask me to dislike economics?
Oh hey, but I tried to join council! Hahah ... Joan conned me with an F & N drink... the 3 Cs you know? Convince Confuse Con!!! Hahaha .. if I have time maybe I'll think of more.. make it the 5Cs!! :P
Hey oh btw.. anyone reading this thing, even at all.. 2 things to tell you guys..
1. Better check out the news first, find the alternative routes to Suntec.... it will be blockaded by the police due to security reasons, as IMF is coming in. Someone oredy zhong hor~ kena force 2 walk long way..
2. My SIM fren is gg 4 superstar audition (or wad? dunno wad its called) this Saturday , 11am, at Toa Payoh HDB hub or sthing.. you guys got time go down n support hor~ his name is Darryl!! Bring the horns and whistles ahz!! ( not sure wads the exact place.. he say got a lot of ppl gg there.. if u reli wan 2 know gimme a msg, i try 2 confirm wiv him lahz)
Haha SIM so fun tho~ cheap food, got bazaar somemore, $2 for 3 choc bars!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT???? Bargain man... wooohooooo ( cheapskate me ng.. lolz)
Kk I'll probably be saying how sian it is soon enough.. for now though, I find it sooo exciting... SIM wooooo!!!
Saturday, September 09, 2006
The original Monty Python song..
Yeah I found the Monty Python song, the bright side of life, in its original context... and its sooo much funnier here! Hahaha.. feel good message too! Here take a look..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Loc8bpczZPY
And I especially like his last comment.. you start with nothing , you get nothing, you ARE nothing, what have you got to lose? NOTHING! Kinda takes most of the kick out of pessimism already, haha...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Loc8bpczZPY
And I especially like his last comment.. you start with nothing , you get nothing, you ARE nothing, what have you got to lose? NOTHING! Kinda takes most of the kick out of pessimism already, haha...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Pride and prejudice
I guess its been some time since I dared to whine.. so I'll whine in this secret post.
Sigh.. i finally realise what I am missing. Friends. Mind you, I'm not completely insane. I know I do have people who care about me -as far as friends go, anyway. But I doubt they will stick with me... until the end. That they will really go all out to help me... and that, if I were sane, would not go all out to aid anyway. No, not those.. like Anlin, like Augustine, like Yingying, like anyone else... no one I can truly, freely connect with, can talk with forever, can enjoy the prescence of AND who also enjoys my mere prescence as well. Not in real life. Messenger is a sad replica of life.. so it does not count. No, not Joseph, who only talks with me a while.. who talks with me about silly things most of the time, but ... I don't enjoy i that much, and I doubt he does either. Not Margaret, cos I barely enjoy her prescence... I think I am prejudiced against her. Poor girl.
Not Anlin, not AC people, not even my Fairfield people, whom I'm pressed hard to understand who really even is close enough to me. No one, nowhere, not even my current class. I'm alone, in this society, in this world, I am alone. I live alone and I die alone.... sigh.
No one will believe I can, and will, make great sacrifices as a friend. No one, I think, and for all my pride, I am afraid to ask... it will either confirm my fears, or affect our friendship, for the limited value it could be worth... No one I can say really shares my thoughts, and who trusts me as I trust them, wholeheartedly... no one, as far as I can tell... maybe because I barely trust people completely. I am afraid to shatter the hopes of the people who I think rely on me for support, but perhaps I am an idiot, haha. I always have been... and I always like to pretend I'm invincible. Perhaps that pride will destroy me.. lol. Maybe ... it already has.
I am empty, prejudiced, sick... I will die, soon. I am dead.. only a matter of time....
Sigh...
Sigh.. i finally realise what I am missing. Friends. Mind you, I'm not completely insane. I know I do have people who care about me -as far as friends go, anyway. But I doubt they will stick with me... until the end. That they will really go all out to help me... and that, if I were sane, would not go all out to aid anyway. No, not those.. like Anlin, like Augustine, like Yingying, like anyone else... no one I can truly, freely connect with, can talk with forever, can enjoy the prescence of AND who also enjoys my mere prescence as well. Not in real life. Messenger is a sad replica of life.. so it does not count. No, not Joseph, who only talks with me a while.. who talks with me about silly things most of the time, but ... I don't enjoy i that much, and I doubt he does either. Not Margaret, cos I barely enjoy her prescence... I think I am prejudiced against her. Poor girl.
Not Anlin, not AC people, not even my Fairfield people, whom I'm pressed hard to understand who really even is close enough to me. No one, nowhere, not even my current class. I'm alone, in this society, in this world, I am alone. I live alone and I die alone.... sigh.
No one will believe I can, and will, make great sacrifices as a friend. No one, I think, and for all my pride, I am afraid to ask... it will either confirm my fears, or affect our friendship, for the limited value it could be worth... No one I can say really shares my thoughts, and who trusts me as I trust them, wholeheartedly... no one, as far as I can tell... maybe because I barely trust people completely. I am afraid to shatter the hopes of the people who I think rely on me for support, but perhaps I am an idiot, haha. I always have been... and I always like to pretend I'm invincible. Perhaps that pride will destroy me.. lol. Maybe ... it already has.
I am empty, prejudiced, sick... I will die, soon. I am dead.. only a matter of time....
Sigh...
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Moment of Silence ( Sept 5)
Yes... I forgot to say... we shall now commence a moment of silence... for Steve Irwin.. the crocodile hunter. ( Honestly I haven't watched his programs at all.. but somehow I think he's owed this at least)
Steve Irwin : 22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006
Killed by a stingray while filming yet another wildlife documentary...
Now we commence...
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Ok. That should count as a moment. Anyone timed that?
Never mind... the time is not relevant. It's the thought that counts..
Well that just goes to show that no matter how experienced we are with danger, it seems it will find some way to get to us... though of course he didn't die with a crocodile, that would be a joke for the crocodile hunter. A sad one, yes, but a great joke nonetheless.
No more souvenirs for him, no more " Crikey, that's a big one!" . Just a very long stay at the big croc swamp in the sky. G'bye, mate.
Sigh.
Fried stingray anyone?
Steve Irwin : 22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006
Killed by a stingray while filming yet another wildlife documentary...
Now we commence...
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Ok. That should count as a moment. Anyone timed that?
Never mind... the time is not relevant. It's the thought that counts..
Well that just goes to show that no matter how experienced we are with danger, it seems it will find some way to get to us... though of course he didn't die with a crocodile, that would be a joke for the crocodile hunter. A sad one, yes, but a great joke nonetheless.
No more souvenirs for him, no more " Crikey, that's a big one!" . Just a very long stay at the big croc swamp in the sky. G'bye, mate.
Sigh.
Fried stingray anyone?
Happy 21st to yet another soul...
Hello I just came back from Malaysia, spending much more meaningful time rather than simply spamming blogs and rotting at home... now I'm back to it again, haha.
Oh well, since I'm at it... Happy 21st to my friend Zhihong!!! Yes, to be honest, I haven't really talked to him often in the past few years, or even in my Fairfield days, or even at all... hmm, so why is he my friend? Well then he's not that close a friend then... but a friend nonetheless! :)
Anyway since I have nothing better to say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIHONG!! Welcome to adulthood!! Although you are still stuck in army , you're a clerk, so other than the usual " army sucks real bad" routine, you're better off than you think. Or maybe you know. Gah nvm.. HAPPY 21st!!! Wish you all the best for, firstly, your NS time, and then, your uni, and of course the rest of your life!! :P Din manage to make your party but I had 2 go malaysia... otherwise I'd definitely have come man. Esp since its not easy 2 organise an xd meeting these days...
Oh and also happy 21st to my friend and platoon mate, Alvin the Goh!!! Yes, I don't think anyone who even knows him is reading this at the moment, so I guess I'll have to intro Ernie to this too.. haha...Hmm, I will post my only pic of the event soon. Don't worry, I'll say more about this when I manage to upload the pic.. meanwhile, I'll just say HAPPY 21st!!! :)
Ok... birthdays are done. That's the update for now.. good day!!
Oh well, since I'm at it... Happy 21st to my friend Zhihong!!! Yes, to be honest, I haven't really talked to him often in the past few years, or even in my Fairfield days, or even at all... hmm, so why is he my friend? Well then he's not that close a friend then... but a friend nonetheless! :)
Anyway since I have nothing better to say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIHONG!! Welcome to adulthood!! Although you are still stuck in army , you're a clerk, so other than the usual " army sucks real bad" routine, you're better off than you think. Or maybe you know. Gah nvm.. HAPPY 21st!!! Wish you all the best for, firstly, your NS time, and then, your uni, and of course the rest of your life!! :P Din manage to make your party but I had 2 go malaysia... otherwise I'd definitely have come man. Esp since its not easy 2 organise an xd meeting these days...
Oh and also happy 21st to my friend and platoon mate, Alvin the Goh!!! Yes, I don't think anyone who even knows him is reading this at the moment, so I guess I'll have to intro Ernie to this too.. haha...Hmm, I will post my only pic of the event soon. Don't worry, I'll say more about this when I manage to upload the pic.. meanwhile, I'll just say HAPPY 21st!!! :)
Ok... birthdays are done. That's the update for now.. good day!!
Monday, August 21, 2006
APOLOGIES TO ALL!!! OMG...
Hey guys.. sorry i just realised I can't get my account cos i kinda forgot my password already.. meaning to say if anything goes wrong im dead.. :P so i kinda got a new one.. hey.. em.. so this entry is 4 the ppl who actually bothered 2 tag.. so sorry! :P ( Below r the entries frm original board) kerry: |
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
Death and despair
I've just woken from a long long nap. Why sleep until 2? Haha.. well, I've been over at Ivan's grandpa's wake the whole night.
It was a relatively simple affair.. I suppose its not the day where you have rites to finish the procedure. I'm not sure.. I didn't think so. Well anyway I went there alone, cos a few people I tried inviting couldn't make it, but then not everyone is slacking like me. Hahaha... OK, I understand u guys r busy so not yr fault.
So basically it was a weird arrangement in the end... Samuel came late and brought Joyce along- another xd which I still dunno, haha - and we play dai dee until we happy :P. Ate dinner, talk cock, sing song, wait until Auga + Dfoo come REALLY EARLY ( took them abt 2 hrs after Dfoo first said 10 mins then reach - which ended up abt 10+) and then Sebrina also came. So we continue talk cock sing song play retarded card games, and other retarded orientation games, and of course there was this fun game wiv cards, where you draw a card and can create various forfeits for diff cards... in the end we made the penalty peanuts and Daniel Foo ate most of them. Poor thing... muahahahah ... serve him right for telling us 10 mins ONLY??????
BUT we weren't finished... later he also drink until siao.. I tink 2 full cans of beer ah? Hahaha!! All cos of Indian poker... then Joyce left early and Seb also. ( that is, if u call 1pm early)
Then I see them play mahjong ( lim peh dunno how 2 play mahjong so watch lor~~) and then we play other retarded games until dinner. Had fun lah basically... then go home sleep in MRT and pong in bed. Most exciting part of my life. Haha..
Now let's talk about more serious stuff.
I had a chat with one of Ivan's cousins that day. I'm not gg 2 say his name. If u wan u can ask Ivan, but doesn't matter. He said that he slept next to the grandfather every night, before the man .... left . ( 7th month ok.. dun anyhow say things) He said he could not sleep anymore, not for more than an hour. He still believed, somehow, that the grandfather was still around.. he could't accept the idea that the old man wasn't here anymore. He said that he really regretted that he did not like to talk to his grandfather a lot... at least, now he feels he didn't talk enough to the old man. And even when he passed away, the boy ( yes hes not tt old) thought he was still sleeping...cos somehow, he was in the same position as when he usually sleeps. The boy reflected that you have to cherish the ones you have before you, before they leave.... and you never get the chance again.
Well... in the light of all that, I guess he does have a point. Naturally he's sad... especially when, as he says, the old man used to claim that he loved him more than all the other grandsons. It seems quite obvious, seeing as how the grandfather himself slept in the same room as him... or was it the same house? I dunno... I din tink it relevant to ask. Ivan wasn't so depressed ( at least according to what I saw) but of course he was sad. If he didn't feel sad, that would be odd, maybe even unfilial. After all, he's human. And from what I hear, he was a nice old man.. and a great grandfather.
So ok, lesson to be learnt... treasure those you love, and those who love you. You may not be able to see them at some time... maybe for a long time, maybe forever. It's sad, but that's life. If we come into this world, then we must leave at some time. We should cherish and hold them, show them how we feel, tell them all we want to tell them. For not only is their time limited but ours too.... and especially look out for your family. Often we forget our family, in the rush to meet new friends, socialise, we forget the people who love us the most. We take them for granted, and we let them pass.. soon enough it might be too late for regrets.
Somehow, though I tell that to people, I wonder, can I actually do that? Truly develop some filial piety for all I've forgotten so far? I'm not sure... I think I might have gone into cold dark stasis, into a mindset where I just can't love my family anymore. But I will try... and so should we all.
And if it really is too late to say goodbye, to say " I love you" or to cherish the one who loved you, then if you really cherish their memory, you should go forth and do your best. You say you have disappointed them by not using your potential? Do it then. In their memory, live well, be strong, live on. I believe that even the ... people who have "passed on" can see us, the living, in our entirety. Whether or not they can actually do something is a mystery we are still exploring.
But if they can see you, then work hard for your dreams, for your life. Be happy and well, and show them what you can do. Do not simply break into despair... it would break their hearts as much as yours, and even those with you who love you. Cherish those who have not gone, and in the memory of those who have, strive on and live your life to the fullest.
I saw the sky this morning, when I returned on the morning MRT. It was a beautiful dawn, and I thought.. even when you have gone through the darkest of days, you see such a sky, and you forget all that you have worried about.....
It was a relatively simple affair.. I suppose its not the day where you have rites to finish the procedure. I'm not sure.. I didn't think so. Well anyway I went there alone, cos a few people I tried inviting couldn't make it, but then not everyone is slacking like me. Hahaha... OK, I understand u guys r busy so not yr fault.
So basically it was a weird arrangement in the end... Samuel came late and brought Joyce along- another xd which I still dunno, haha - and we play dai dee until we happy :P. Ate dinner, talk cock, sing song, wait until Auga + Dfoo come REALLY EARLY ( took them abt 2 hrs after Dfoo first said 10 mins then reach - which ended up abt 10+) and then Sebrina also came. So we continue talk cock sing song play retarded card games, and other retarded orientation games, and of course there was this fun game wiv cards, where you draw a card and can create various forfeits for diff cards... in the end we made the penalty peanuts and Daniel Foo ate most of them. Poor thing... muahahahah ... serve him right for telling us 10 mins ONLY??????
BUT we weren't finished... later he also drink until siao.. I tink 2 full cans of beer ah? Hahaha!! All cos of Indian poker... then Joyce left early and Seb also. ( that is, if u call 1pm early)
Then I see them play mahjong ( lim peh dunno how 2 play mahjong so watch lor~~) and then we play other retarded games until dinner. Had fun lah basically... then go home sleep in MRT and pong in bed. Most exciting part of my life. Haha..
Now let's talk about more serious stuff.
I had a chat with one of Ivan's cousins that day. I'm not gg 2 say his name. If u wan u can ask Ivan, but doesn't matter. He said that he slept next to the grandfather every night, before the man .... left . ( 7th month ok.. dun anyhow say things) He said he could not sleep anymore, not for more than an hour. He still believed, somehow, that the grandfather was still around.. he could't accept the idea that the old man wasn't here anymore. He said that he really regretted that he did not like to talk to his grandfather a lot... at least, now he feels he didn't talk enough to the old man. And even when he passed away, the boy ( yes hes not tt old) thought he was still sleeping...cos somehow, he was in the same position as when he usually sleeps. The boy reflected that you have to cherish the ones you have before you, before they leave.... and you never get the chance again.
Well... in the light of all that, I guess he does have a point. Naturally he's sad... especially when, as he says, the old man used to claim that he loved him more than all the other grandsons. It seems quite obvious, seeing as how the grandfather himself slept in the same room as him... or was it the same house? I dunno... I din tink it relevant to ask. Ivan wasn't so depressed ( at least according to what I saw) but of course he was sad. If he didn't feel sad, that would be odd, maybe even unfilial. After all, he's human. And from what I hear, he was a nice old man.. and a great grandfather.
So ok, lesson to be learnt... treasure those you love, and those who love you. You may not be able to see them at some time... maybe for a long time, maybe forever. It's sad, but that's life. If we come into this world, then we must leave at some time. We should cherish and hold them, show them how we feel, tell them all we want to tell them. For not only is their time limited but ours too.... and especially look out for your family. Often we forget our family, in the rush to meet new friends, socialise, we forget the people who love us the most. We take them for granted, and we let them pass.. soon enough it might be too late for regrets.
Somehow, though I tell that to people, I wonder, can I actually do that? Truly develop some filial piety for all I've forgotten so far? I'm not sure... I think I might have gone into cold dark stasis, into a mindset where I just can't love my family anymore. But I will try... and so should we all.
And if it really is too late to say goodbye, to say " I love you" or to cherish the one who loved you, then if you really cherish their memory, you should go forth and do your best. You say you have disappointed them by not using your potential? Do it then. In their memory, live well, be strong, live on. I believe that even the ... people who have "passed on" can see us, the living, in our entirety. Whether or not they can actually do something is a mystery we are still exploring.
But if they can see you, then work hard for your dreams, for your life. Be happy and well, and show them what you can do. Do not simply break into despair... it would break their hearts as much as yours, and even those with you who love you. Cherish those who have not gone, and in the memory of those who have, strive on and live your life to the fullest.
I saw the sky this morning, when I returned on the morning MRT. It was a beautiful dawn, and I thought.. even when you have gone through the darkest of days, you see such a sky, and you forget all that you have worried about.....
HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!!!
Hello hello everyone.. I've just realised I haven't put anything up for the greatest annual event in SIngapore... which is to celebrate the existence of Singapore itself!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! How old are we now? 41? Wow... tts.. actually not that old, come to think of it... Oh wait! No its to celebrate our independence!! After years of serving different masters ( first the Brits then the Japs and then back to the friendly old Brits... tea anyone? ) we were finally free on 9 Aug 1965!!! So that's the history of our beloved Singapore, for anyone who hasn't already memorised the facts.
So to celebrate this momentous day ( which I'm at least 4 days late for :P) here's the lyrics of the latest song for all Singaporeans to be sick of!!
MY ISLAND HOME sung by Kaira Gong , developed by Joshua Wen
This is my home
She's everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see
My island home
Wherever I may be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me
Chorus ^
And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home
Wherever I may be
I belie~ve ( drag the e)
You will always be a part of me
^ My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be
(This is my future
This is my home)
Repeat Chorus x 2
My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me
A part of me
Hmm.. I'll see if I can post this song up for anyone to hear once I figure how to permanently put music up on my page... meanwhile the rest of Singapore can prob remember how this stuff is sung so go ahead and sing!!!
Hahaha.. I guess it was another momentous mark in Singapore history.. a great day of celebration for most anyway. I spent the whole day at home myself... haha.. see it on TV lor. Me n my sad little life... BUT WHO CARES ITS NATIONAL DAY!!! Oh hey I missed all the fireworks too... but I did see the one on the day itself!! ( On TV)
We should all cherish that we are all part of Singapore, whether or not we are citizens or just are here.. cos it is a beautiful place, not say better than other countries because every one has its ups and downs, but for a tiny island nation we are lovely. Certainly if I wanted to point out our problems we have many- too little space to advance, stuck-up people, a culture of exaggeration, rumoured political problems, etc etc. But there is this peace that we have, that even foriegners may envy. No wars, no mass murders, no rampant drugs and robbery and madness. And much more. So honestly, at least for the week, we should appreciate the loveliness of our island home.
MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!!!!!!
So to celebrate this momentous day ( which I'm at least 4 days late for :P) here's the lyrics of the latest song for all Singaporeans to be sick of!!
MY ISLAND HOME sung by Kaira Gong , developed by Joshua Wen
This is my home
She's everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see
My island home
Wherever I may be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me
Chorus ^
And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home
Wherever I may be
I belie~ve ( drag the e)
You will always be a part of me
^ My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be
(This is my future
This is my home)
Repeat Chorus x 2
My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me
A part of me
Hmm.. I'll see if I can post this song up for anyone to hear once I figure how to permanently put music up on my page... meanwhile the rest of Singapore can prob remember how this stuff is sung so go ahead and sing!!!
Hahaha.. I guess it was another momentous mark in Singapore history.. a great day of celebration for most anyway. I spent the whole day at home myself... haha.. see it on TV lor. Me n my sad little life... BUT WHO CARES ITS NATIONAL DAY!!! Oh hey I missed all the fireworks too... but I did see the one on the day itself!! ( On TV)
We should all cherish that we are all part of Singapore, whether or not we are citizens or just are here.. cos it is a beautiful place, not say better than other countries because every one has its ups and downs, but for a tiny island nation we are lovely. Certainly if I wanted to point out our problems we have many- too little space to advance, stuck-up people, a culture of exaggeration, rumoured political problems, etc etc. But there is this peace that we have, that even foriegners may envy. No wars, no mass murders, no rampant drugs and robbery and madness. And much more. So honestly, at least for the week, we should appreciate the loveliness of our island home.
MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!!!!!!
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Shunyanz gathering!!!!
Hello everyone..forgot to talk about the gathering on saturday. Haha I better do tt, otherwise YY complain i din talk about her liaoz.. :P
Yepz Sat got mini-shunyanz gathering... supposed 2 be auga + ji en + sam + me+ dfoo gg 4 movie... in the end we *fish-care the movie and end up zhihong + yingying join us 4 dinner at mcdonalds! Haha... but ji en suddenly ps siah, say got sore eye.... AS USUAL!! Dunno him lah... force of habit issit? Hahaha...
Kk so initially i meet yy outside the movie complex 2 wait 4 auga come out toilet.. then she go buy shoes siah.. cant resist the pink bag ah? Hahaha... then we go mcdonalds wait 4 the rest. The first shunyan 2 arrive was.. u guessed it... REN YAO Dfoooooo!!!!!!!!!! Retarded man... yingz give him her flower 2 put on his head and oredy we got that super " nice" picture you see below. Dunno wad he tinking man... say he wan 2 become Gaara ( ok not C Jack Sparrow.. :P)
but wtf... Gaara has diff face leh man, and he wears black not bright green!!! Hahaha wah lao... we had a lot of fun talking about his stupid makeup 4 some time. Ok ok, dun wan 2 talk too much abt this, dunno if he read he will go back n cry liaoz.. :P
So then we had dinner at mac. All go order their meals and eat... and me being cheapskate order the $4 combo- double cheese + small sprite + apple pie. $ 1.95 can take mrt all the way 2 .. anywhere siah!! Hahaha....
Then we take pictures also wiv yy's camera... lazy 2 upload 4 now, later ill put it here :P.
Sam last 2 come but then only left me + sam + yy + zh later go play pool... but later they all also gg mahjong session, n i dunno how 2 play... so nvm lor~ But pool .. ok lah, how much fun can u haf when u r supernoob siah~ haha... yingz most of the time act like singing karaoke into the pool cue ( reli miss kbox so much ah? haha) and then we haf Sam keep betting tt if some1 make a difficult shot he will take out the pocket and EAT!!!!! Haha... cool bunch of guys man... ( + one girl... whos not so noob at pool ok?? haha)
Okok.. then we all take some pictures on the train cos yy wan 2 try sam's specs n zhihong wan 2 try yy's specs!!! ( like i said.. now lazy 2 upload, later then do :P)
Then I zao liaoz... cos the gang gg 2 yy house to play mahjong...
Haiz man... i better learn some social activities man! Or ill all the time b left out siah :P
Next week ktv??? Im gg 2 try 2 organise... see how lor~
Yepz Sat got mini-shunyanz gathering... supposed 2 be auga + ji en + sam + me+ dfoo gg 4 movie... in the end we *fish-care the movie and end up zhihong + yingying join us 4 dinner at mcdonalds! Haha... but ji en suddenly ps siah, say got sore eye.... AS USUAL!! Dunno him lah... force of habit issit? Hahaha...
Kk so initially i meet yy outside the movie complex 2 wait 4 auga come out toilet.. then she go buy shoes siah.. cant resist the pink bag ah? Hahaha... then we go mcdonalds wait 4 the rest. The first shunyan 2 arrive was.. u guessed it... REN YAO Dfoooooo!!!!!!!!!! Retarded man... yingz give him her flower 2 put on his head and oredy we got that super " nice" picture you see below. Dunno wad he tinking man... say he wan 2 become Gaara ( ok not C Jack Sparrow.. :P)
but wtf... Gaara has diff face leh man, and he wears black not bright green!!! Hahaha wah lao... we had a lot of fun talking about his stupid makeup 4 some time. Ok ok, dun wan 2 talk too much abt this, dunno if he read he will go back n cry liaoz.. :P
So then we had dinner at mac. All go order their meals and eat... and me being cheapskate order the $4 combo- double cheese + small sprite + apple pie. $ 1.95 can take mrt all the way 2 .. anywhere siah!! Hahaha....
Then we take pictures also wiv yy's camera... lazy 2 upload 4 now, later ill put it here :P.
Sam last 2 come but then only left me + sam + yy + zh later go play pool... but later they all also gg mahjong session, n i dunno how 2 play... so nvm lor~ But pool .. ok lah, how much fun can u haf when u r supernoob siah~ haha... yingz most of the time act like singing karaoke into the pool cue ( reli miss kbox so much ah? haha) and then we haf Sam keep betting tt if some1 make a difficult shot he will take out the pocket and EAT!!!!! Haha... cool bunch of guys man... ( + one girl... whos not so noob at pool ok?? haha)
Okok.. then we all take some pictures on the train cos yy wan 2 try sam's specs n zhihong wan 2 try yy's specs!!! ( like i said.. now lazy 2 upload, later then do :P)
Then I zao liaoz... cos the gang gg 2 yy house to play mahjong...
Haiz man... i better learn some social activities man! Or ill all the time b left out siah :P
Next week ktv??? Im gg 2 try 2 organise... see how lor~
WARNING : DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME
Yes that's the sign they put up for dangerous stunts that are performed on TV. Like you know, wrestling, action scenes, even some martial arts shows. And of course stunt drivers!! Such stunts are risky even for the well-trained and is absolutely forbidden to rookies, because they might just hurt themselves badly or ..... worse.
Why am I talking about this? Simple.... I think they should place these warnings at other programmes too. Like with models. There are already too many cases where girls, obsessed with achieving the look of a model, have gone anorexic, starved themselves half to death, or even taken drugs which instead of helping have poisoned them. I really think they should use warning signs like these to warn people of the dangers of following these trends. These models have achieved their looks through years of training, dieting, etc etc.... its not instant and it is always done with the guidance of professionals. Just like with wrestling. Honestly, it's not healthy to try to keep up with them. Or ok, its not exactly impossible to achieve that look... so maybe it should be a disclaimer that goes..
" WARNING: DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME UNLESS ABSOLUTELY CONFIDENT OF SUCCESS. MODELS HAVE BEEN TRAINED AND GOOMED WITH THE CARE OF PROFESSIONALS..... IT IS NOT ADVISABLE TO ATTEMPT THEIR FIGURE FOR FEAR OF PERSONAL SAFETY. ( PS: Unemployed professional available for the job. Flexible with pay, working hours. Results may or may not work, but you have a better chance. Call********* for enquiries) "
OK there... models. Who else? Ah yes... actors. People should have dislcaimers for actors too. Yes, they do have those for action stars... but what about the others? Actors whose actions will compromise public safety... mainly those who flaunt their sexuality too openly in the public, thus causing road accidents, lockjaw, excessive drooling, and maybe even stampedes. And we certainly would not like to see people stripping in public just like that. ( OK, maybe we'd like 2 see some people do that i guess.. but look at the long term view!!!)
Oh, and actors with questionable fashion sense. LIke say, the charismatic Johnny Depp. I have to admit that he's a great actor, and he pulls off any of his roles with excellent depth and gusto, but he tends to take on strange characters who would be quite odd with normal society. Take our friend Capt Jack Sparrow. OK, so as a rocker he would fit in. But to the millions of fans out there who arent rockers, they might still try to imitate him. Which can result in true image disasters. Take this for example..
Why am I talking about this? Simple.... I think they should place these warnings at other programmes too. Like with models. There are already too many cases where girls, obsessed with achieving the look of a model, have gone anorexic, starved themselves half to death, or even taken drugs which instead of helping have poisoned them. I really think they should use warning signs like these to warn people of the dangers of following these trends. These models have achieved their looks through years of training, dieting, etc etc.... its not instant and it is always done with the guidance of professionals. Just like with wrestling. Honestly, it's not healthy to try to keep up with them. Or ok, its not exactly impossible to achieve that look... so maybe it should be a disclaimer that goes..
" WARNING: DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME UNLESS ABSOLUTELY CONFIDENT OF SUCCESS. MODELS HAVE BEEN TRAINED AND GOOMED WITH THE CARE OF PROFESSIONALS..... IT IS NOT ADVISABLE TO ATTEMPT THEIR FIGURE FOR FEAR OF PERSONAL SAFETY. ( PS: Unemployed professional available for the job. Flexible with pay, working hours. Results may or may not work, but you have a better chance. Call********* for enquiries) "
OK there... models. Who else? Ah yes... actors. People should have dislcaimers for actors too. Yes, they do have those for action stars... but what about the others? Actors whose actions will compromise public safety... mainly those who flaunt their sexuality too openly in the public, thus causing road accidents, lockjaw, excessive drooling, and maybe even stampedes. And we certainly would not like to see people stripping in public just like that. ( OK, maybe we'd like 2 see some people do that i guess.. but look at the long term view!!!)
Oh, and actors with questionable fashion sense. LIke say, the charismatic Johnny Depp. I have to admit that he's a great actor, and he pulls off any of his roles with excellent depth and gusto, but he tends to take on strange characters who would be quite odd with normal society. Take our friend Capt Jack Sparrow. OK, so as a rocker he would fit in. But to the millions of fans out there who arent rockers, they might still try to imitate him. Which can result in true image disasters. Take this for example..
AAAHHHHHH!!!!!! ( ok the flower was unneccesary but we decided it adds a...nice touch :P)
REN YAOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or maybe it had more to do with my friend's fashion sense? LIke wearing a bright green shirt to go with the eyeshadow? Either way... its a reminder of the horrible things that can happen when you follow trends without professional consultancy. BE WARNED!!!! NOT EVERYONE CAN LOOK GOOD WITH SIMILAR CHANGES TO APPEARANCE!!! Especially if you are not exactly a Johnny Depp lookalike. ( Personally I think he can pull off any appearance he wants and make it look cool... while the rest of us look like fools.. how unfair life is )
Ok, what else is there? I'm not sure... basically dun just blindly follow what you see on TV or movies, or even on performances. It's not wise and sometimes it can be lethal.. either to your health or your social life or even your ego. And above all before you guys put on makeup, SEEK ADVICE FROM OTHERS- others who of course know how to put on makeup, especially if its a guy friend who has done it before, and preferably not out to sabo you.
Friday, July 28, 2006
ZOMBIE
~ To the people who have gone through hell and lived to tell ~
ZOMBIE by the Cranberries
Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?
But you see, it's not me,
it's not my family
In your head, in your head
they are fighting,
With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns
In your head,
in your head,
they are crying...
(Chorus )
In your head,
in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie
What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken
It's the same old theme
since nineteen-sixteen
In your head, in your head
they're still fighting,
With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns.
In your head,
in your head,
they are dying...
(Chorus)
End of the song...
There are a lot of reasons for us to keep fighting forever.. only one pathetic one for us to stop.
How many countries will survive when the dust settles and we finally resolve our differences?
How many when we realise that we can't?
Lebanon: ????- 2006
ZOMBIE by the Cranberries
Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?
But you see, it's not me,
it's not my family
In your head, in your head
they are fighting,
With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns
In your head,
in your head,
they are crying...
(Chorus )
In your head,
in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie
What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken
It's the same old theme
since nineteen-sixteen
In your head, in your head
they're still fighting,
With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns.
In your head,
in your head,
they are dying...
(Chorus)
End of the song...
There are a lot of reasons for us to keep fighting forever.. only one pathetic one for us to stop.
How many countries will survive when the dust settles and we finally resolve our differences?
How many when we realise that we can't?
Lebanon: ????- 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
PRoCRaSTINATION
YESSS I'm a real procrastinator... so much tt I've decided 2 talk abt last wknd right now.. :P
First things first. Friday.. Kenneth's birthday!! Kenneth as usual invited a lot of shunyans 2 come...( no lah just kidding :P) anw he invited practically all the fairfield ppl i still rmb, so haha good 4 him man! We had fun just talking n stuff, pity auga n gang din come man, they r just damn funny guys, n i wld haf liked 2 talk 2 them there. But anw like I said, so many shunyan, also dun tink they will come...haha..
Anw we had a barbeque at Kenneth's super-shunyan condo... and then the real dinner. And after tt we gathered 2 sing his bday song, cut the cake... and throw kenneth in the pool!! haha wooohoooo so fun!! :)
Saturday even more fun! 4C class outing... as usual a lot of shunyans dun wan 2 come... but dunno dun care!! Haha... oh btw Diana came along. I haven seen her since sec schl man!!! She looks.... erm, cant say, I reli cant place her face liaoz. :P
Anw we went sentosa 2 play on the beach... we planned 4 a breakfast b4 tt but ended up eating lunch.. and then it rained!! Hahaha wah lau.. thot cant go sentosa liaoz.. but luckily it ended ard 1pm, n we went 2 sentosa ard 1+, n started playing ard 2 I think. Aiyah dun care timing lah, we play means we play lor~
So we played captain's ball, cos the class wan 2 practise 4 Past v Present this sat..
so long never play but damn fun siah!! Chiong here chiong there and anyhow score goals!!! Hahaha.. initially my team got advantage, then we started to lose like siao. But we dun care, we fight until we almost equalise man!!! ( I think)
" COME ON GUYS ONLY 7 MORE GOALS 2 WIN!!!!" HHAHAHHAhahaahah woooohooooooo
So fun so fun... after tt we play ultimate frisbee, n then we go even crazier. Start calling our team Geylang Warriors, n anyhow hantum.. then Shawn start doing his stupid stunts, haha, throw back the frisbee 2 himself, and we start doing warcry!!
" Lets go guys!!! YYYYAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR- < short breath>- YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRM
SSSSEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Wooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! So fun siah, finally got the chance 2 reli go crazy for a while siah~ helps 2 release tension, n dun need 2 tink so much. Well we played another game of captain's ball ( wiv more warcry this time) and my team lost all 3 games. But u know wad???? GEYLANG WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! FIGHT UNTIL THE END!! TODAY WE LOSE TMR WE THRASH EVERYONE!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Siaoz liao.. but tts the mood in the games. Hahha...
After tt we had dinner at Suntec... shawn the super-shunyan as usual dun wan 2 fetch us there, instead go home n then say he'll b late then later during the dinner say he wun b coming liaoz... hahaa anw not tt we din expect tt. Dinner was ok lah, some noodle place.. I had Penang Prawn Mee, so-so lah, a bit better than the usual singapore version of the PP Mee.
SSSSSSSSSSoooooooooo fun man... Im glad my class so onz one, every once in a while got class outing. Love u guys man!!!
First things first. Friday.. Kenneth's birthday!! Kenneth as usual invited a lot of shunyans 2 come...( no lah just kidding :P) anw he invited practically all the fairfield ppl i still rmb, so haha good 4 him man! We had fun just talking n stuff, pity auga n gang din come man, they r just damn funny guys, n i wld haf liked 2 talk 2 them there. But anw like I said, so many shunyan, also dun tink they will come...haha..
Anw we had a barbeque at Kenneth's super-shunyan condo... and then the real dinner. And after tt we gathered 2 sing his bday song, cut the cake... and throw kenneth in the pool!! haha wooohoooo so fun!! :)
Saturday even more fun! 4C class outing... as usual a lot of shunyans dun wan 2 come... but dunno dun care!! Haha... oh btw Diana came along. I haven seen her since sec schl man!!! She looks.... erm, cant say, I reli cant place her face liaoz. :P
Anw we went sentosa 2 play on the beach... we planned 4 a breakfast b4 tt but ended up eating lunch.. and then it rained!! Hahaha wah lau.. thot cant go sentosa liaoz.. but luckily it ended ard 1pm, n we went 2 sentosa ard 1+, n started playing ard 2 I think. Aiyah dun care timing lah, we play means we play lor~
So we played captain's ball, cos the class wan 2 practise 4 Past v Present this sat..
so long never play but damn fun siah!! Chiong here chiong there and anyhow score goals!!! Hahaha.. initially my team got advantage, then we started to lose like siao. But we dun care, we fight until we almost equalise man!!! ( I think)
" COME ON GUYS ONLY 7 MORE GOALS 2 WIN!!!!" HHAHAHHAhahaahah woooohooooooo
So fun so fun... after tt we play ultimate frisbee, n then we go even crazier. Start calling our team Geylang Warriors, n anyhow hantum.. then Shawn start doing his stupid stunts, haha, throw back the frisbee 2 himself, and we start doing warcry!!
" Lets go guys!!! YYYYAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR- < short breath>- YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRM
SSSSEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Wooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! So fun siah, finally got the chance 2 reli go crazy for a while siah~ helps 2 release tension, n dun need 2 tink so much. Well we played another game of captain's ball ( wiv more warcry this time) and my team lost all 3 games. But u know wad???? GEYLANG WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! FIGHT UNTIL THE END!! TODAY WE LOSE TMR WE THRASH EVERYONE!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Siaoz liao.. but tts the mood in the games. Hahha...
After tt we had dinner at Suntec... shawn the super-shunyan as usual dun wan 2 fetch us there, instead go home n then say he'll b late then later during the dinner say he wun b coming liaoz... hahaa anw not tt we din expect tt. Dinner was ok lah, some noodle place.. I had Penang Prawn Mee, so-so lah, a bit better than the usual singapore version of the PP Mee.
SSSSSSSSSSoooooooooo fun man... Im glad my class so onz one, every once in a while got class outing. Love u guys man!!!
Monday, July 17, 2006
IDIOTA
Yes I am one indeed. I've just realised that today.
Somehow after I came out of NS, I thought I was no longer that whiny, pessimistic, sloppy and emotional piece of crap I used to be. That I was now far more immune to emotional breakdowns, whims and pain. That I was some kind of new man.
I guess I'm wrong. I really am. I thought I could help people if I tried this time, and not make a mess of things. But like Zidane ( who was at least a star before he did stupid things) I do things on a whim. I gave up a lot of money on one, I became an army laughing stock on one, and now, I risk losing a friend on one.
She was hurt, yet again, and I thought I could help her. But of all the ideas I could come up with, this one is one of the worst. I was arrogant, thinking I was smart, thinking I was being a good friend. I was self-centred, thinking more about myself, about how I could prove myself a friend if I could do it. I was anything but a friend, the kind she needed, to just be there, to just help take her mind off all this madness. Instead I screwed myself up, and maybe even her. I'm not sure.. but I hurt her again, as if she needed any more. I was paranoid, obsessive, stupid. Clumsy with my words just like I am with my actions. And if anything, I'm sorry for all that I've done. But I fear I might be too late.
I'm not sure what she would make of this. I don't think she wants to speak to me, at least for a while. I don't know if she even trusts me anymore, or if she ever wants to remain my friend. I don't know what to know. All I know is that I'm just as whiny, just as pathetic a human being as I was before, if only slightly more controlled, a little wiser, but not enough. I've hurt too many people in my life, I don't want to do that anymore. But I guess that's not possible, because I'm just me.
If she is reading this, I just want to say.. I'm sorry. I really am. I have no excuses for what I said, but all I can do is apologise. Sorry..
Somehow after I came out of NS, I thought I was no longer that whiny, pessimistic, sloppy and emotional piece of crap I used to be. That I was now far more immune to emotional breakdowns, whims and pain. That I was some kind of new man.
I guess I'm wrong. I really am. I thought I could help people if I tried this time, and not make a mess of things. But like Zidane ( who was at least a star before he did stupid things) I do things on a whim. I gave up a lot of money on one, I became an army laughing stock on one, and now, I risk losing a friend on one.
She was hurt, yet again, and I thought I could help her. But of all the ideas I could come up with, this one is one of the worst. I was arrogant, thinking I was smart, thinking I was being a good friend. I was self-centred, thinking more about myself, about how I could prove myself a friend if I could do it. I was anything but a friend, the kind she needed, to just be there, to just help take her mind off all this madness. Instead I screwed myself up, and maybe even her. I'm not sure.. but I hurt her again, as if she needed any more. I was paranoid, obsessive, stupid. Clumsy with my words just like I am with my actions. And if anything, I'm sorry for all that I've done. But I fear I might be too late.
I'm not sure what she would make of this. I don't think she wants to speak to me, at least for a while. I don't know if she even trusts me anymore, or if she ever wants to remain my friend. I don't know what to know. All I know is that I'm just as whiny, just as pathetic a human being as I was before, if only slightly more controlled, a little wiser, but not enough. I've hurt too many people in my life, I don't want to do that anymore. But I guess that's not possible, because I'm just me.
If she is reading this, I just want to say.. I'm sorry. I really am. I have no excuses for what I said, but all I can do is apologise. Sorry..
MUST MUST MUST
- Must get driving license asap
- Must confirm whos gg 2 fairfield past v present so i can decide wad 2 join
- Must begin learning basic coding
- Must learn how to draw properly
- Must get back army fitness
- Must learn guitar ( sooooon)
- Must kill something!!!!!
- Must refrain from public destruction
- Must start thinking again instead of stoning my whole life away
- Must do something RETARDED!!!!!!!!
- Must think of other things to write in my blog :P
- Must confirm whos gg 2 fairfield past v present so i can decide wad 2 join
- Must begin learning basic coding
- Must learn how to draw properly
- Must get back army fitness
- Must learn guitar ( sooooon)
- Must kill something!!!!!
- Must refrain from public destruction
- Must start thinking again instead of stoning my whole life away
- Must do something RETARDED!!!!!!!!
- Must think of other things to write in my blog :P
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Friends
Its alright, I'm ok. I think God can explain.....
- Splender, " I think God can explain", album Halfway Down the Sky
Odd that I'm still awake at this time? Nah not reli.. i like being awake late. I get to appreciate things.. and work unhampered, if you can call what I'm doing working.
Lately I've bn talking with several ppl most of the time, and these figures are in my mind these weeks.
One is this nice girl that's kind of my senior in SIM- haha, ironically, I was her senior in sec schl. She's sweet and all, and I guess we're kind of sharing how we feel to each other. I like this kind of friendship- based on trust, you know, not so much on how much fun we're having or sthing. ( Yes I know u can read this, hah.. thx 4 being some1 i can talk 2 ! :) )
Then there's some ppl I'm just not so sure abt...
This one guy.. he's just recently bn addicted 2 gambling. I've known him for some time, but still i dun reli know when the habit started... I guess I'm trying 2 b tough wiv him so he can wake up and smell the roses. Maybe I shouldn't b so tough.. after all, he is talking abt stuff like depression and suicide. Not so much, fortunately, so I'm still gg 2 try 2 wake him up. Still I dun reli know how much I can do...
Another is basically the fren I've bn missing in one of these past entries.. and for long time now. Odd really.. I've just had a dream of her this afternoon. I won't say what its like, just.. I think it means I miss her too much. I haf no idea if I've done anyting wrong, and I'm trying 2 apologise, but its gg 2 take more than tt to bridge 2 years of ... seperation? haha that just sounds wrong, but I dun know what else 2 call it...
Finally, this odd friend of mine.. I dun know if she does regard me as one, haha... I've only met her online so far BUT I'm gg 2 meet her in person! Finally! I hope everything goes well, cos I really want 2 see how this enigma is like. oooOOOooOoo.... As far as I know, she looks good, and she's quite an intelligent person. I hope I dun bore her 2 death or sthing, or scare her off. Hah~
Well thats all I can say for now. Really, I think I've taken up the WC 06 motto for myself this period of time- " A time to make friends", or rather, I'm trying to be one .... to maintain friendships, and be a better friend to all. Well, still plenty of time till dawn, so I got time to reflect again.
SIM
Hah, today I went to SIM for my orientation day. Fun~ lots of games and .. ok, not a lot, but ok lar, got shy ppl u knowz, so dun pressure them too much :P
Anwayz, it was fun but tiring... reli tiring, go home abt 4 and sleep until abt now. Haha.. but reli not happy tho. Why?? It was fun, get 2 talk 2 some ppl, know their names... but for fuck! Now like i din get their contacts.. so we can prob see each other over the canteen? Haha.. wah lau, regret not chatting more wiv the chio bus in our grp, then get number siah... or even my buddy grp in there! ARGGHHHHH sianzzzz... hope my orientation grp leader ( OGL ) will give us the contacts, otherwise reli wasted siah, will see them maybe in 2 or 3 years time.. hah~
Otherwise was fun... lots of stupid little games, but I missed a few cos of stomachache~ dun care, got 2 see my OGL pole-dancing!!!! HAHAHAHA LOLZ... have fun jeremy! ;) Then so fun, watch one guy play TD at the cca displays... hahaha!!! GOT ONLINE PARTNER 4 TD LIAOZ!!! ONZ LAR!!!
Ok jus siannn... haf fun everyone~
Anwayz, it was fun but tiring... reli tiring, go home abt 4 and sleep until abt now. Haha.. but reli not happy tho. Why?? It was fun, get 2 talk 2 some ppl, know their names... but for fuck! Now like i din get their contacts.. so we can prob see each other over the canteen? Haha.. wah lau, regret not chatting more wiv the chio bus in our grp, then get number siah... or even my buddy grp in there! ARGGHHHHH sianzzzz... hope my orientation grp leader ( OGL ) will give us the contacts, otherwise reli wasted siah, will see them maybe in 2 or 3 years time.. hah~
Otherwise was fun... lots of stupid little games, but I missed a few cos of stomachache~ dun care, got 2 see my OGL pole-dancing!!!! HAHAHAHA LOLZ... have fun jeremy! ;) Then so fun, watch one guy play TD at the cca displays... hahaha!!! GOT ONLINE PARTNER 4 TD LIAOZ!!! ONZ LAR!!!
Ok jus siannn... haf fun everyone~
Sunday, July 09, 2006
End of the World Cup
Tears and smiles and grins and tackles are all over now.. the greatest event of 2006 is finally over. As we bid farewell to the festivities in Berlin, I'll now comment on the player that has changed this whole event.
That player is the one with plans for a grand finale.. our beloved Zinedine Zidane, aka Zizou, aka the Magic Man . Everyone thought he was wasted, gone, old, and archive in history, a legend fading into myth. He proved to them that the legend was far from dead and buried. He particularly taught Ronaldinho , the new Magic Man, that it takes more than a few fancy tricks to be a great player- and that great players never go down easily. It can't be argued that throughout the whole French campaign, he was the inspiration, the leader and the ultimate weapon of his team.
Ironically, it was because of that, that he was instrumental in their defeat.
Why, oh Zizou, why??? The last 10-20 minutes were crucial times to score, break the deadlock. Yes, you saved France with that early goal, but then you did something stupid. Materazzi held you down, and yes, I think he deserved something , but he did not get it. That was no excuse for headbutting him , openly inviting a red card. Forget your temper. This is not about you, it is about the country. Had you held your temper and followed through faithfully, France might have beaten the Italians. You guys might have had Totti and Buffon on a pizza plate. Instead, they now have French toast in the Italian side.
Doing some physical retribution is stupid, and rightly earned you a red card... you can't blame the ref for that. Not only did you take yourself out of the World Cup, you took the French morale and hopes with you. And your honour as a player.. all gone in a flash. Whatever happened to your dream of being a shooting star, sending your brightest flash before fading into the night? Now that is marred by your decision. I really have thought better of you as a player than to resort to this. You really want vengeance, you should just go all out and help the French skewer Buffon, keep up a relentless pace on his goal. Imagine the look on the Italians if you manage a last minute goal. It would be sweet sweet revenge for any abuse you have suffered from them, with sugar icing and a cherry on top. Not just Materazzi, any and all of the Italian players will be wincing even worse than if a bull had gored them. Now, instead, Materazzi will be grinning thru whatever pain you had inflicted with that bald palate of yours. Instead of him, you should have set it against the ball, to set up a killer against Italy. Now, the pain of loss is inflicted on you and your team.
I know I'm mumbling, but it really is too big a shame. Temper has cost a legend his last breath of victory. A valuable lesson to the world, that patience is still one of the world's most valuable assets. That anger can be truly expensive. Zizou has bowed out too early, too foolishly, and France has paid the price.
New Updates: So now he has confessed to why he did that. Cos Materazzi insulted yr family. I say give that ball one of your magic touches and kill Italy's hopes. Then after tt, you can insult his whole freakin' family and he'll b too busy crying to notice.
But no matter what you did, you will always be remembered as a legend in football history. Among the mythos of Pele, Beckenbauer, Maradona. Au Revoir, Zizou!
That player is the one with plans for a grand finale.. our beloved Zinedine Zidane, aka Zizou, aka the Magic Man . Everyone thought he was wasted, gone, old, and archive in history, a legend fading into myth. He proved to them that the legend was far from dead and buried. He particularly taught Ronaldinho , the new Magic Man, that it takes more than a few fancy tricks to be a great player- and that great players never go down easily. It can't be argued that throughout the whole French campaign, he was the inspiration, the leader and the ultimate weapon of his team.
Ironically, it was because of that, that he was instrumental in their defeat.
Why, oh Zizou, why??? The last 10-20 minutes were crucial times to score, break the deadlock. Yes, you saved France with that early goal, but then you did something stupid. Materazzi held you down, and yes, I think he deserved something , but he did not get it. That was no excuse for headbutting him , openly inviting a red card. Forget your temper. This is not about you, it is about the country. Had you held your temper and followed through faithfully, France might have beaten the Italians. You guys might have had Totti and Buffon on a pizza plate. Instead, they now have French toast in the Italian side.
Doing some physical retribution is stupid, and rightly earned you a red card... you can't blame the ref for that. Not only did you take yourself out of the World Cup, you took the French morale and hopes with you. And your honour as a player.. all gone in a flash. Whatever happened to your dream of being a shooting star, sending your brightest flash before fading into the night? Now that is marred by your decision. I really have thought better of you as a player than to resort to this. You really want vengeance, you should just go all out and help the French skewer Buffon, keep up a relentless pace on his goal. Imagine the look on the Italians if you manage a last minute goal. It would be sweet sweet revenge for any abuse you have suffered from them, with sugar icing and a cherry on top. Not just Materazzi, any and all of the Italian players will be wincing even worse than if a bull had gored them. Now, instead, Materazzi will be grinning thru whatever pain you had inflicted with that bald palate of yours. Instead of him, you should have set it against the ball, to set up a killer against Italy. Now, the pain of loss is inflicted on you and your team.
I know I'm mumbling, but it really is too big a shame. Temper has cost a legend his last breath of victory. A valuable lesson to the world, that patience is still one of the world's most valuable assets. That anger can be truly expensive. Zizou has bowed out too early, too foolishly, and France has paid the price.
New Updates: So now he has confessed to why he did that. Cos Materazzi insulted yr family. I say give that ball one of your magic touches and kill Italy's hopes. Then after tt, you can insult his whole freakin' family and he'll b too busy crying to notice.
But no matter what you did, you will always be remembered as a legend in football history. Among the mythos of Pele, Beckenbauer, Maradona. Au Revoir, Zizou!
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