Wednesday, May 30, 2007

WoW time!!

Yep going to talk about one of my new habits now - WoW. Not really a surprise since I'm mostly a game fanatic.... my whole life and past seems to centre around it mostly.

As for the previous entry.. forget it. I guess everyone has their own problems, and it's not my business to talk about it, as much as it would be your business in my affairs. I'll just summarise it as saying.. dun be too caught up in yourself to notice that you aren't as alone as you might think... there are people around you who will never have as much as you already have. Your life is yours to make.

Well now for WoW. What to talk about? Hmm...

First! The undisputed most profitable profession is mining. You can mine gems, it is needed for a lot of professions, and you can earn lots of gold early in the game. Herbalism, sadly, doesn't pay much, and don't even get started on the crafting professions. Perhaps later in the game it pays off, but not for now.

My favourite class!! The ROGUE!! I've played this character a few times ( all until low levels only) but I like it. You get to sneak around creatures, stun mobs, PICKPOCKET them!! Not to mention the cool sneak attacks you can unleash, but sadly, rogue dps with their favoured weapon, the dagger, is pathetic, to say the least... you can only count on the sneak attacks "criticalling" to deal high damage to enemies. But when that happens... sweeeeeettttt!!!!! XD

The warrior is better a class I think... not as interesting though. You actually have a role that's only snatched by 2 other classes - the tank can be done by druids ( bear form) and paladins, but still the warrior can draw aggro better than them ( in other words, they can force enemies to attack them better, thus preventing the enemy from hitting other people) and not to mention the far larger dps that a warrior can do- early game, at least. And of course the various defensive powers he can unleash that will quickly reduce his damage taken, increase his chance to block, and make him virtually untouchable while the enemies stupidly try to harm him, and the other dps classes can hit for free. YES!! WoW has ssoooooo many classes competing for dps that the Rogue, which is mainly for his dps skills, is quickly overshadowed. It's freaking hard to find a party when you are a rogue. =(

WoW also has a lot of social dynamics. The chat there is quite interesting ( although sometimes it gets replayed a lot. CHUCK NORRIS!!) and there are weird events happening there all the time. Valentine's Day has to be one of the worst... The damned ABOMINATIONS have hearts hovering ABOVE THEM!! Flowers all over Orgrimmar and Undercity, but .. the ABOMINATIONS WANT CHOCOLATES AND FLOWERS!! Well actually it isn't that bad. Who knows? Someone might have a crush on those .. er... things. And alliance characters are quite bored. They keep raiding places like the Crossroads, or heck, one time they did the Valley of Trials. Wooohoooooooo!! Level 70 Night Elf warriors ganging on level 1 Orc starting areas. How mighty of them. Makes the other Level 70 horde characters shiver in fear . ( Or is it laughter? )

Well hm, I think most of the people here have no idea what the hell I've just said. Well never mind, maybe I'll think of something else more well-known to everyone next time. Meanwhile I'm going back to WoW. Ciaoz~

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Suddenly..

Ever had one of those days where the world suddenly hits you with a sledgehammer, reminding you of how pathetic life really is?

I guess today seems to be mine.

Maybe I'm just too nosey. I should keep my god damn nose out of everyone's biz and be happy with my own life. After all, I'm alright with imperfection. That should make life a whole lot easier to live right?

One day and it becomes a whole new world.. not neccesarily better. And not neccesarily worse.. it just may be that you were blind all this while.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

ALRIGHTTT!!!

Today.. well, it's quite an interesting day for this entry. Why?
#1 - I can POST !! FINALLY!!
#2 - It's Saturday night! AFTER MY EXAMS!!

WOOOHOOO I'm FREEEEE!! I should probably be doing something productive soon, and if all goes well maybe I will. Instead of rotting in front of the computer or burning midnight oil in the midst of loads of pages of senseless notes.

Hm well now that I do have time, I guess I should settle some things first right? Some things that need settling. That have been gnawing on me even during my exams.. funny, it seems so important when I was having exams. Now that I actually have time to do it, it does not seem that vital .. hm..

O well. Enuf. Quite glad I got to blog, but it's one of those things that dun seem so important now that exams are over.. but very important when I had no time or means to. Odd.. really odd.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

The writings on the wall~

Just read something quite interesting.. a book on graffiti. ( Yes I'm insane. One more week to exams and I'm still reading books?? It is quite short tho.. but reaaallly funny) Something by some guy called Nigel Rees.. quite a lot of cool stuff, some of it pretty vulgar so I won't be putting it up here. But here are some of the more.. * ahem * polite ~ ones.

(1 ) God is dead . Nietsche
- Nietsche is dead. God

(2) The grave of Karl Marx is just another communist plot.

(3) ( On Gents toilet in England ) Christine, if you're reading this, we're through

(4) Soldiers who wish to be a hero,
number practically zero,
but those who wish to be civilians,
Jeez, they run into millions!
( Esp for the guys, haha.. NS sux!)

(5) Road Safety Notice Outside a School - Drive carefully. Don't kill a child.
( Wait for teacher )

(6) Gravity is a myth. The earth sucks.

(7) Racial prejudice is a pigment of the imagination

(8) How happy is the moron,
He doesn't give a damn.
I wish I was a moron,
My God, perhaps I am!

(9) My mother made me a homosexual
( under it was added) If I give her enough wool, will she make me one?

(10) Work for the Lord. The pay is terrible but the fringe benefits are out of this
world.

(11) Sermon Title : " What will you do when God comes to Liverpool?"
( Switch St John to left midfield ) or ( Jesus as keeper because he saves)

(12) Poster for a talk given at a village : " What to do when going bald?"
( Prepare to meet thy dome)

(13) In People's China the workers take the lead ( In capitalist England they also take the iron, copper, floorboards and fillings from your teeth)

(14) Don't throw your cigars in the loo,
You know it isn't right.
It makes them very soggy
and impossible to light

(15) Sermon Ad : " Where will you be on the Day of Judgement?"
( Still here, waiting for a No. 95 bus)

(16) Free George Davis! ( with every packet of cornflakes)

(17) Election Poster in Ireland : " Vote for Duffy!"
( And Ireland's dead will rise up and curse you)

(18) Come home, Oedipus. All is forgiven ~ Mum. ( Over my dead body~ Dad)

(19)Church poster : " Are you tired of sin and longing for rest?"
( If not, call ************)

(20) Since writing on toilet walls is done neither for personal acclaim nor financial reward, it must be the purest form of art. Discuss.

Yepp thats about all I can add while refraining from toilet humour and stuff. My apologies to anyone I might have still offended here~

Hm well, thats all for now. Dasedanya.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

I Swear

I Swear - Boyz II Men










I see the questions in your eyes
I know whats weighing on your mind
But you can be sure I know my part
cause Ill stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I'll make mistakes
I'll never break your heart



CHORUS
I swear (echo)
By the moon and stars in the sky
I'll be there ( echo)
I swear (echo)
Like the shadow thats by your side
I'll be there (echo)
For better or worse
Till death do us pa-art
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I'll give you everything I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when there's silver in your hair
You won't have to ask if I still care
cause as time turns the page
My love won't age at all

CHORUS x 2

..I.. swearrrr....


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Youtube link ( cos I'm lazy to put music on Internet )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnYESenjoGY

Random posting. Not exactly one of my all-time faves but still nice. I'm starving for ktv or sth. Some opportunity to sing!! I just realised I've always had some chance to sing since pri schl... it's either national anthem, school song, or even chapel. And then there was NS - needless to say, a lot of chance to sing there ( though most of the sounds tt are memorable are prob the Sgt's curses and yr own grunts ) . Maybe after exams, if I can get anyone down.

Anyone KTV onz?

Sunday, April 15, 2007

DIY Chain Mail

Hello again.. a bit less depressing post here! Well depends.. lolz

Anddd welcome to your very first DIY chain mail! As requested by.. ME! Hahaha..


Step 1. Origin

(a) Bored dudes in a room. " Man I'm bored. What's there to do around here?" " HeyyyYYY I know! Let's write a chain mail!" " AweSOME!!"

(b) Mad scientist sits in his lab experimenting with his new computer. " MUAHAHAHA I SHALL CONCOCT THIS CHAIN MAIL AND UNLEASH IT UPON THE WORLD!"

(c) Bimbos sitting around and chatting. " Hey , like, I hate this new girl!" "Yeah, she's , like, sooOooOo stuck Up!" " Totally!" " Hey, I have an idea! Let's , like, you know, write a chain mail! I heard she's , like, soooOoOo gullible for that!" " ooOoOoOOoOOoO!!!"
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(d) Killers, Kidnappers N Badass Council of Chainmail Builders ( KNNBCCB) meeting - " Now we shall present our next project..." " OMG! My Spongebob Squarepants is on now! I better go cya later guys- " ".. as I was saying, our next project is -" " SPONGEBOB SQUAREPA-" "... is another chain mail...and it shall be even more SINISTER THAN EVER!! MUAHAHAHAAAA!!!!"

(e) Bored little geek at home . " Viruses, check. Screwed the Internal Security Department , check. Hacked every website and account there is to hack, check.. .. OH HEY! I think I'll try making a chain mail.."

(f) Any suggestions? Like perhaps just a normal person feeling bored and sends chain mail for the fun of it.

Step 2. Story

(a) Gorgeous Nigerian princess/ Handsome Nigerian prince needs your help in accessing an overseas account if you will just give them money..oh wait, that's not it...

(b) Message about love, like.." Love is a many flavoured thing" or " Love is more than just words.." yadayadayada

(c) Message about life.." Life is a race, but do not forget...."

(d) Murderous person/ghost is seeking blood.. has just slaughtered a family and is on the loose. Not relevant that it is about a few thousand miles away.

(e) Touching story.. about hospital patient,who died or is dying, and writes a poem, or story, to express their message.

(f) Mother needs cash to help support her sick child for an operation and has struck a deal with Microsoft in exchange for her soul.

(g) Someone really filthy rich is bored and wants you to spread this message .

(h) The email service provider has decided that you need to confirm your account by spreading the word.

(i) Evangelism.

(j) A really bored virus maker has made a virus-laden email and you just got it.

(k) The Duchess of Yorke has decided to have a tea party and you are invited.

Step 3. Forward to...?

(a) As many as you want.. Just Do It (tm) NIKE

(b) Your friends and family

(c)1-7+ people

(d) 10+ people

(e) Varying amount - 1-5, 5-10, 10-15, etc.. the more people the more the reward

(f) 20+ people

(g) 100+ people

(h) 100,000,000+ people

(i) people you don't like

(j) your beloved, or secret crush

Step 4. If you do?

(a) tommorow/ next week/ next month/ next year/ sooner or later your true love will find you and confess their love for you

(b) you'll get a lot of cash

(c) you're safe

(d) luck will follow you in whatever you do

(e) you are a good person

(f) you will be saved from damnation

(g) you will save another person's life

(h) you will have lots and lots of friends

(i) the KNNBCCB will be very pleased

(j) You can have tea with the Duchess of Yorke!

(k) nothing happens


Step 5. If you don't?

(a) you're going to hell

(b) you will be haunted by a certain murderous person or ghost who doesn't seem to mind coming from thousands of miles away to terrorise you because you did not forward his/her email.

(c) you are a very bad and insensitive person

(d) your love life will go to pieces and you will die alone

(e) tommorrow/ the day after that/ the next week/ sooner or later you will die a horrible death involving lots of pain and snails

(f) you will lose all your friends and good fortune

(g) Mt Krakatoa will erupt because of you

(h) you will have caused someone to die

(i) people everywhere will choke on their pretzels

(j) your account will be revoked

(k) the virus will go straight into your com and forward itself anyway

(l) nothing happens



Well thats all I can think of regarding this.. to be fair, some are actually motivating rather than annoying, especially when they don't threaten anything, but spread a good message and all. But when they threaten to wreck your life for no reason it's pretty bad. And there are also legit chain mails... like the protest against child abuse.. Light a Million Candles, was it? Something like that.
This was not meant to abuse any other parties other than the sad cases who create chain mails.. do not take offence if you aren't them. All rights reserved. Any similarities of characters and stories in the text is purely coincidental.. well, kind of.

Do I really ask too much?

Maybe, just maybe, I forget to get this into my thick skull.

I'm not exactly a great person to be with.. that I understand. I can be boring, tiresome, disgusting, annoying and any degree of an asshole to be with sometimes. Not to mention that no matter how much I try to hide it, but I guess I have a lousy temper with some matters. But I've accepted that.

What I may not have accepted.. is that, everyone is different in temperament, in their emotions and thinking. Maybe why I really have annoyed so many to date, that they will check me off their list of friends.. is I forget I ask a lot from them, as friends go.

No I'm not the kind who wants to spend their money, or keep borrowing from them. I hate having to owe people money, kind of chains you down. I don't want all their attention, or that they even give me anything of their possession at all... I only ask for trust. And honesty... to be able to talk with them honestly, about whatever they may be hiding, about our fears and likes, about our world, about our views, about why we act this way and that.

But then in this time and age, I keep forgetting.. trust is a difficult thing. Especially for the wounded, for the disenchanted, for those who have lost theirs to something. And I guess I can be pretty annoying at times... I need a stop sign, seriously. When it comes to asking or being kaypo I need one. I'm pathetic at reading hints and stuff, mostly because I try to be optimistic in this regard.. almost to the point of being blind. To hope that I'm not already getting someone to hate me. Someone once told me.. trust is very hard to earn, but easily broken.. and thus, it becomes more valuable than money, than much of any person's own possessions... and even more so, for those who are lost without it.

And honesty, too.. it goes with trust.. perhaps I ask too much too soon.

Or maybe I'm just paranoid. Well, if I am, then it will pass. I'm not sure if any one of those I offended read this, but if they are, well.. sorry.

Can't afford to think like this anymore.. exams coming. Why am I not ready yet?

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Some things that really piss me off...

- NUS staff and rules... I have a friend whos in NUS. Caught pneumonia ( read: potential life-threatening condition) and went to see the doctor in NUS . NO MC!!!!! And same friend had lessons on EASTER SUNDAY MORNING!! Point # 1- Sunday is a public holiday... should not have lessons already .... Point # 2 - Sunday morning is CHURCH TIME - means most christians will haf church on that period... means lessons on that time is against religion liao.. POINT # 3 - EASTER!!!!!!!!! DUN THEY KNOW WTH IS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY FOR??? Seriously /4 nolife.

- Messages from someone.. spam spam spam. I think I'm kinda patient with these things but after a while.. you know.. 2 whole weeks every day get message until whole inbox is this guy... you feel like put your arm thru the handphone and slap him. But of course since he only kancheong spider as usual... I message him back. Expected frm him.. other ppl maybe I reli just ps them.

- People who like to spam tagboards because they're not happy with the other person. Or who just spam vulgarities on tagboards cos they like it. Pleasseeeee get a bloody grip. It's the person's blog.. respect their privacy can? It's their own blog and if you are not happy you can say, but dun insist, and dun try to flame it. Whatever they say in there is their own biz.. if u not happy you go talk wiv them, not cowardly put yr anonymous name and flame it. If you really have no other way that you dare to attack them then go home and suck thumb.

- Bullies , especially those who target the emotionally weak. Not to be confused with friends who like to play a few pranks on each other, these people never let off even when they know the other person will be on the verge of depression or suicide. They purposely want to make the other person suffer, and in fact can be those who pretended to be close to the other person. They're just as cowardly as those who spam tagboards anonymously, even more so .... and even more likely to end up as shish kebabs when they pick the wrong person to mess with.

- Scams and viruses. I'm alright with chain mails, although some actually directly curse peoples' love lives or stuff like that, and those I dun really like at all. But I still enjoy deleting them =D . If they're true, I should have 50 different murderous ghosts and leprosy, cancer and no family or friends at all by now. On the other hand viruses are always genuinely annoying.. you keep having to delete their messages, whatever program they force you to run, and to have an antivirus lag up your whole system. Really irritating in multiplayer. AND SCAMS!! Omg.. I have easily 5 attempts by the Nigerian scam through friendster. I can't believe how many times people think I will fall for " Ohhh-my-dad-died-and-left-me-an- account- which- I- can't- access- unless- thru- a- business- partner- and- I- trust- you- to- be- so- even- though- I- dun- even- know- you- at- all- and- I- will- love- you- so- much- and- give- EXACTLY- 20% "
( Wow what are the chances of that?? Must be a Nigerian protocol.. to give exactly 20% to an unknown stranger who helps you) .....and goodness. What in my freaking friendster account makes them think I'm a nice guy who will believe them ?? Lol....

- Not knowing stuff -.- . Sometimes I wonder why I have such a lack of logic.... haiz. I amaze myself at times.

Sorry does this sound like an emo post? Aw too bad. My blog. I post whatever I like.. hahaha.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Addiction

Another serious post.. what is with me? Too serious nowadays.. need to post some nonsense for the sake of it... just to stop the overwhelming gloom these days.

Just watched an anti-drug video.. and something just struck me. Hallelujah, I see the light! .......Yea right. People get addicted to many things, and they crave and crave for it excessively.. I'm talking about objects, like drugs, smoking, drinking, games... why exactly does it happen?

Popular opinion states the most obvious - cos they take too much of it, and it becomes part of their habit, and it becomes them. They are hooked onto the pleasure-inducing portion of it all, into the sense of satisfaction it gives them.. but why, in the first place, do they start?

Social pressure? Yes, one of the reasons is social pressure. Friends all smoke, I smoke. Friends take drugs, so it's cool to do it. Everyone is DoTAing, why not me? The need to fit into the crowd can be so great, it can be a pretty simple task to pressure an innocent child into murder. Sounds exaggerated, but it's much easier than it seems.

But I think the much bigger reason.. is escapism. We try to use these things as an avenue to escape from life, from our past, from bad memories or good ones that have left.. from ourselves. We use it to pretend the world is all about the smoke in the brain, all about the lovely colours you get when you take drugs, all about the next creep to kill, the next hero to gang. It may seem like a good refresh from the pressures of life, from the pain of loss and heartbreak, but in the end, it becomes a part of you, it consumes you more than the thing you try to escape.

That is addiction.. what I think of it. Not merely a small matter of taking too much of something.. it's even more complicated when you try to break it.. because to have the will to break it, the problem lies within the addict.. within what they are trying to escape from. If it is not resolved.. it may never go away.

Just a thought.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Bonds

When you make any relationship with people, romance or friendship or parenthood.. it cuts both ways.. every joy they have you might not share, and yet, wounds spread fast.. even when you cannot fully understand it or why you feel it.

Or is it only the ego that needs to be satisfied.. thinking you must be so great, as to be everyone's saviour? Like being God or something. Or being obsessed?

Odd. Anyway, back to work.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Top essay questions to answer

1. Philosophy 101 : " What is emptiness?"

Answer :
























2. Theology : " Pick one of the seven sins that applies most to your life, and describe how it disrupts your relationship with God"

Answer : Sloth ( underlining or 'zzzzzz's optional )



3. Psychology : " Define courage, and its relevance in the human psyche " *

Answer : THIS is courage!! ( write in BOLD, and immediately slam in front of marker's table for effect. )

* Alternate question - " Define madness, and its relevance.."

Monday, March 05, 2007

Just. Because.

Why am I doing this? It's so cruel, there are no words for how terrible it is.. it is undeniably, absolutely ruthless, evil, pure total carnage of literature.

What am I going to do?

PART 1 of : TiTaNiC Singlish Version!!

Warning : explicit content ahead


Ok lah, the story begin long long ago, in the Southern province of the Pacific Ocean. Or Atlantic. Dunno dun care.
What happening siah? Orhhh... got one treasure hunter hor, very kiasu one.. people go find Malaysia oil palm he look for Titanic. " Why ah? Because hor, Titanic got this big big diamond siahh.. then find can sell become damn rich !! Buy condo then drive Mercedes and everday enjoy life in Geylang siah!! SHIOK!"


So he look look look look look look all the way from Boon Lay to Pasir Ris then one day his khaki tell him " EH GOT SOMETHING!!! " Ehhhhhh it's a BOX siah!! He damn happy, cos box sure got treasure inside one! Except K Box lah.. that one different story. So he high oredy, call all de bhangra come together celebrate, then all go " YUUUUUMMMMM SEEEENGGG!!!!" then all go open!
" WAH BOSS!!! SIBEH HOU AH!!" " GOt the diamond???" " No leh.. but got 1702 FHM siah... instant nosebleed one!"

Hmm... wah, better go find this FHM babe siah... so he find then how? SI MI LAN... o ya, she by now old grandma oredy.. sian diaoooozzzZZz

But then he use his otak think then... eh, the diamond leh?? Maybe she keep somewhere siah.. so he ask her very very politely, cos that time still got the courtesy campaign..
" OY LAO ZHA BOR!! YOUR DIAMOND THROW WHERE SIAH??"

So how? Yah lah of course comprain to Gahmen lah... then he kena fine.. then he say sorry a lot then she say " Ok lahh.. gif u chance... I tell you story..."
" Si mi lann... need 2 heear grandmother story..." " You wan hear or dunwan hear?"

.....................................................................And sooooooOOoooOOoo.............................................



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Thursday, March 01, 2007

Heroes~

This is for all of you heroes out there..

What does the word mean to you? An action figure? Soldiers who defend the country, Marvel characters, inspirational writers. Your icons of greatness and contribution, who help everyone else and achieve great recognition for their service.

But what of those.. that do not recieve this recognition?

Heroes, in actual fact, are far more human, and among us, than we might think. What is my definition of them? * ( it is, after all, MY blog, so you listen to my definition, haha)

To them..

You listen to people. You support them from the back, you give them time when they need it, your time, and their own. You sacrifice what you have to help them, to get them through their times of need.. You cheer them up with all you can , with what you have, and you bring their life back to them. But who really takes care of you? Who listens, who knows the turmoil that you have within? Who can see through the sunshine you try to create on yourself, and to pierce the emptiness within your soul, hidden within the flowers that make you look "normal", contented, strong? Or the brick wall, the castle that you are, sheltering them from the wind and rain, and you yourself wear out in time, cracks appear, pipes break, and nothing is left of you... except that which you protected.. Who will save the heroes.........?

Yet you continue to perservere, to hide the pain and the scars in yourself, to inspire everyone else, to try all you can to give aid where it is needed. The beautiful face without a name, the lovely veil to hide the shame.. You may be stronger than most of us can be, but always remember that even the strongest may need help. Do not be afraid to seek it, to ask for another person to share your woes, to lend you a hand, because you have given yours out many more times.

To all of you out there...

Thank you for being one.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Randomised

Some random stuff... just to make this blog a little less gloomy? or worse.. you decide



1. Schizophrenia is NOT multiple personality dissorder!! Yes, I heard that just recently, and my friend wants it to be really really clear.
Schizophrenic ppl ( or schizos) hear voices in their head, talking to them, and believe something different from their surroundings.. they are somewhat deluded in their whole life. Think.. hm.. if you guys know, the Professor from " A Beautiful Mind". Or basically just think- voices in the head.
Multiple personality disorder ( MPD) means you completely change into another personality all of a sudden, and you might not even be aware of it. You might talk to it, or no. Think Smeagol-Gollum, Incredible Hulk, Jekyll and Hyde.



2. Everyone has different sides. So even if you hear different stories about your same friend, no, they need not be having MPD.



3. WoW is freaking addictive.. join if you want.. but be warned, it's very very addictive.....


4. I should be studying, but instead, falling to the trap of bloggers.. randomly spawning something entirely irrelevant. Well, like I said, this is my blog. I do anything I want. =)



5. If you're still wearing a mask take it off here. Entry is only for the unmasked. And smoking in the smoking section please. There isn't an age limit though, but if I curse you might want to keep the kids away from the screen.


6. Keep the kids away from the screen.. like, right now.














7. KAN NI NA BEI CHAO JI BAI NI NAO HIA FUCK LAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( told you to keep the kids away)

8. 12345567891011121314151617181920... that's how many fingers and toes you have altogether.

Ok I should realllyy be studying now guys.. ciaoz!

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Reflections?

Maybe, maybe not.

I'm a weird blogger. I actually don't like to put my own life here, about how I am or what I am. I'm still insanely shy with my ownself, and basically.. I guess I'd rather tell people what I could be thinking over a coffee or even just msn. It's just me.

Sometimes, though, I might just depress readers over here just for the fun of it.

I wonder what exactly has happened.. why I'm always a little sad somehow. I guess, I regret so many things I have not done in these years. I have put too much time into computer games, into drawing my own things and into wasting lots of time, but not going out with friends, doing anything social, or even learning new things. I do regret, although I try not to say it.. I try not to whine, because I know I made it happen. I did not do anything to remember, to preserve my memories, if at all... I did not try to be anything more than a student, I did not try anything hard enough. Even in games, I played a while, but never tried hard enough to be some kind of super gamer and earn big bucks in competitions, or learn to compete. I have but one word for this : humji. And now it makes my life one big fucking gap, like there's no past, no future, only a present that I can barely alter. I've never known what it's like to chase anyone, to try at all, other than just peep at them once in a while like some shy nerdy stalker.

All I'm really trying now, is basically.. to make up for what I think I lost. To know my friends better, rather than just talk cock a while and spam computer games solo. But sometimes I suppose I try too hard, because I like to talk about personal things, and people can get frustrated when you keep harping on it. Yet that's something I'm always interested to talk about, no matter how depressing.. that's just me, I guess. I think I'm a pretty good listener, but maybe that's just my ego talking...

Or maybe I just think too much. Ciaoz.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Chinese New Year..

Happy Chinese New Year! I think I should at least say that, just in case people reading this think I dun celebrate it.. to be honest, I don't feel its very significant to me this year. Most of my cousins ( the ones I actually talk to, somehow) are missing somewhere.. overseas or something. And circumstances force the visit to Malaysia to be especially short.. but well, since I don't really have people to talk to there, it's not so bad I guess.

It's the Pig year, for those who do not realise... yes, it is. That certainly doesn't mean you can't eat pork- that would be kind of disastrous for Chinese cuisine worldwide, wouldn't it? And you know what the Pig year is for? Plenty of little piglets!! Yes, the pressure is on for married couples.. get grandchildren for your parents QUICK!!! Hurry before the year is over!!! ( Also for the sake of the children- couples with children = official married couple = HONGBAO!!)

Well let's start on a happier note too, shall we? Some nice wishes to give this year..

Gong Xi Fa Cai Xin Nian Kuai Le - standard greeting... like duh.

Shen Ti Jian Kang - Good health to you!

Long Jin San Bao - Tell the angmohs this is the standard greeting for New Year. Then watch what happens when they greet everyone like this.. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

Wan Shi Ru Yi - Wish you best of luck, and success to you! ( esp for the PIGLET thingy.. MUAHAHAHAHAA)

Toto Zhong Jiang - Win prize for Toto... for the less "virtuous" relatives

Zhu Nian Zhu Fu - Well... erm.. its lame. I just thought of it, and sounded cool =P

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Love.

Mention the word.. what do you think of?

Flowers? Roses? Diamonds, chocolates and sweet poetry? Perhaps your boyfriend, or girlfriend, or crush. Or that dream prince you've been waiting for. Kisses, holding hands, bringing them the moon and all that jazz.

Ah, screw that.

All that notion is only romance- a portion of romantic love, the usual BGR ( boy-girl relationship) you see on TV. Guy meets girl, girl and guy fall head over heels in love and elope. This involves a lot of gifts, deeds, and also a mutual attraction ( Well, sometime's there's guy and guy or girl and girl in this aspect, but that's not the point) . And the gimmick of gift shops - ah yes, buy a flower, ring, chocolate for your lover? And when we speak of love, that is the first thing that comes to mind, isn't it?

But that's not all love is.

Love has many kinds.. and we all need it. No? Then let's begin with something to silence those who believe there is no such thing as love... we begin with it. Parents- ah yes, parents. Proud, arrogant, old and irritating - many of us view them as that. And yet, these same people who we could be mistreating and ignoring since childhood , could very well jump into a blazing inferno like those firemen in movies, or action heroes, just to save us- only that they may not return alive. A less dramatic example - they work day and night, and leave us alone a lot, but whom for? To earn so much money, and for whom? People like to think of love as a knight in shining armour, or a lover with a rose, but what of the parent who sacrifices his entire lifespan slaving at the office, just to feed his children? There are those who would go even further, and sacrifice the one thing that even heroes have at their death- their dignity. Prostitutes who would do so if only to support their children, and when these kids grow up, they would use this money to escape the life their mothers had, to earn a job, and then abhor the scandalous trade, maybe even the mother who is doing it. In economical terms, it is a very risky venture, where you have no guarantee of ever having any returns... but love never was about returns, yes?


And then ... there is love between friends. This is the common kind of love between similar genders ( without homosexuality, of course ) . And one point to note- unlike romance, this kind of love has even less conditions to bind either side. Meaning to say, friendship doesn't have to mean you must be always with that person, can only go out with that person, cannot do this, cannot do that, must look like this, blah blah blah. More freedom to each side, yet sometimes, the bond is just as strong, and lasting, as romance itself, if not more so- and it can also be much much weaker. But still, it is a bond that no one can do without- not unless you plan to live as a hermit on the mountainside. Of course, it is quite odd to consider telling your friend " I love you!" ( again because of our narrow perspective of it all) but .. well, that's what it is.

And finally, romantic love.. yes yes, whatever. Seeing as how it is being broadcasted everywhere , it only needs a short mention here.. but it is, unlike what some stupid idiot in the Ch8 9pm series currently on ( about some Zodiac .. forget it, I dun follow the plot) , love , "true" love as you call it, is not all about being possessive- what's yours is mine, what's mine is also mine, etc. Heck, forget that "yours is mine , mine is yours" stuff. Define the properties of your relationship however you will.. love was never about that. So what exactly is it? Care, concern, respect, attraction, and the rest is all up to you.

And so what has happened to it?

2 problems that have come about.. frst and foremost, resistance. Not only bitterness, anger, nonchalance towards this ideal.. there is also our pride. Yes, we do need our pride, our "face", as us Chinese call it, but in some instances it becomes a huge stumbling block. Like a father who would not help his daughter when she does something "dishonourable"... even if it stabs through his heart like a knife. Like a friend who, after an argument with another, will not lift a hand to help when it is needed, just because he cannot stand down. Pride can be stubborn, and we live to regret much of it when we think back.. parents have this as a brick wall between them and their children, and it eventually drives them apart.. but most of the time, it is only a farce, and even as they watch the children they disowned walk away, they cannot show the true extent of their pain. And it is also a problem with guys, with this stupid need to "look cool", to be an emotional rock, but we just aren't...

And the other big problem- corruption. Love becomes twisted, altered to fit the mindset. When, fo example, someone actually buys that " Love is possessive" crap, he/she will begin to think that their lover should have no freedom whatsoever, and eventually, this makes the other into an object rather than a person- a property. It also can be twisted when one loves an ideal, a concept, and nothing concrete - money, or power. And thus is spawned the real evil geniuses of this world, thus is spawned politics. Love, when possessive, becomes an addiction, and creates stalkers, madmen, killers, and the list goes on. In other words, when love goes awry... we have psychopathy.

Such is the range of love.. it is not as defined and mass-marketed by the companies, that it needs diamonds, roses, chocolates or even gifts.. simple companionship will do. It is our inherent need, a part of our psyche, the essence of our being.. and it never is, or was, only about couples, about poetry or gifts or sweet nothings ...

Happy Valentine's Day.

Happy birthday to>>>>>~~



DANIEL FOOOOO~~~ ( Uncensored version above)



Yep, the one and only. Dun blame me for posting this so late.. one reason is that he din even give me the photos ( photos here are courtesy of YY even, This guy damn lazy siah)- another reason? BLOGGER SCREWED UP!!! Gah... never mind. We can talk about it on msn.

So now we talk about his birthday .. umm... lets see...


Heh, so many photos! So I'm going to post it and leave you all to find the captions yourself!! =P




















OK lahhh... let's give you all a clue. Hmm...I know!! Here- I'm going to give the captions below- you guys can try to match them to the picture! Hahahaha... have fun..

(a) . Stone Cold 3:16!!!

(b) . Saikang warriors marching in, hurrah, hurrah..

(c) . " Hm? What's this packet here siah.. what to do with it.." ( Looks over at DF)

(d) . DF anddddd Misa Misa of Happy Sweets!! ^^

(e) . Here come the guests!

(f) . GAH The Incredible Hulk! (or ghost. Or Incredible Hulk ghost)

(g) . Group picture of the 8 people!! ( and one Death Note)

(h) . " Ya, Milo just now go toilet and then... nvm lah! Your birthday must toast! Yaaaammmm.."

(i) . DF showing off his guests' lovely feet ( and pants. and skirt. )

(j) . " Yah!! Birthday cake goooooooddd!!! Err.. whats happening to the side siah..."

(k) . Happy guests singing the Happy Birthday song! =)

(l) . " Eh.. taste not bad leh... but still smell a bit funny siah.."

Annnnd not to mention some special guests..

  • Huimin all the way from Australia!
  • Milo .. for being the only person to come in Cosplay! Hahahaha....
  • Auga and Ji En for making Winning 11 championships... not such a failure.. at least got a winner... =P
  • YY again for the photos!! Seriously thx a lot for so many photos.. otherwise I'll haf nth 2 do this on, haha...

And thus ends the 22nd birthday of our friend the DF...

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Happy birthday ~ ~ ~

By the time I finish this post, perhaps the event is over, perhaps just started, perhaps neither. An event so amazing it will change the world forever, that will be the most outstanding amazing thing to happen this Jan..

XD productions ( and me) present....

~ AUGA's BIRTHDAY!!!!! ~

Yes its the birthday of Auga, at least for our celebrations. We decided to have a little fun at Sakae Sushi, and once again, Auga stole the show with.. well, himself!! =D He's the most funny person ever, seriously.. even tho we end up like 1 hr later than schedule ( thanks to the guest of honour actually =P ) we still had a lot of fun.. and we din even go KBox!!! ( me n my KBox.. lol)
6 people out of 10, but still had lotsa fun, hahaa~

For details please refer to YY's bloggie. I'm not really one for details. Lazy. =P

Hm butt.... we must show the credits!!

Thanks to Milo, first and foremost.. she did the booking of seats at Sakae, bought the cake, and even her own present for Auga!! This all would not have been possible without her..

Thanks to Samuel too.. he helped to rope in most of the people ( of which some did not come, but heck, he tried ) and most importantly he got the MAIN MAN to come down!! None of this would have been possible without him, seriously!!!

THANKS TO YY FOR REFERENCE BLOG!!! LolZ~

Thanks to Daniel Foo, for coming =P

Andddddd thanks to the star of the show, AUGA!!!! For appearing and making this event an evident success!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

PS : Here's another star of our show... coming soon to a blog near you...







Thursday, January 18, 2007

ARGHH

Forced to change my tagboard cos Flooble is down... sucks sucks sucks!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

Hm. Here's the new format. Might be a little odd, I dunno. See how. Maybe I'll change soon.

Hm. Argh #2... SIM Exams and Assignments period!! AND MOCKS!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH DIE DIE DIEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh # 3 : Stressed by myself. Its been 21 years and STILL I have this freaking inferiority complex!!!!!!!! WTFISHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!


ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok that was crappy, but needed. Oh well.