So what am I doing?

Haha.. of course I'm writing in my blog! What else could I be doing?

But seriously... nowadays I've been trying to be there for people, try 2 make them feel better...but in the end, I realise that it is me who feels lonely... me who needs their companionship rather than the other way around....
I had a friend whom I've been waiting for some time... someone who has returned from a long trip... she may not remember me ( fat chance, I've bn plaguing her blog for some time.. hah)
and she may not be thinking of me... but I have bn thinking abt her. Not in a romantic sense, mind you... no, not interested in tt. But as a friend, even tho i may not b very close to her, n we havent really done anything memorable together ( tt I can recall) but..... I miss her. I really do.
It's been 2 years.. she left b4 my NS began, and even when it started, I haf bn anticipating the end of it not cos it means the end of my torture.. heh, ok, tts partly the reason. But I wuz really thinking of meeting up wiv her after tt... somehow i thot she wld come back ard 2 years later, just nice for my NS to end.. we cld go out n .. i dunno, do anything. Movies, games, shooping! Anything! Cos wads the point of so much free time when u haf no frens to get back with?
Really, her return marks the end of my NS more than the passing of the ORD form... to me at least.
Hah, maybe I'm just fantasising tt we wld actually click after being apart so long.. tt we even clicked in the first place. Maybe she's outgrown losers like me..maybe she's discovered sthing wrong abt me.... or maybe she just doesnt care. I've tried .. to contact her, ask her 2 call me...
but she hasnt replied. Maybe I should be more patient, maybe she'll remember me soon. Maybe..... maybe not.
Oh well... I do haf more frens than tt, of cos... not saying any of my frens reading this r less important... in my sad little life, frens are always important. But still... I miss her. Maybe this is only because I've been thinking of this for 2 years.. or just a year n a half... but ... ....

Kk... thx to all who've read this. Just feeling sad now...but no worries, Ill forget this soon. Haha...