Bitterness

Well I'm going to write about this. Why?

I've had the chance... to see both sides of a conflict. Of friendship turned sour, no, bitter, no....
acidic. It's sad, really, when friends would kill each other if they had the chance... i mean former friends. It's not over money, oh no... it's what happens when a love triangle goes wrong. One after the other, they take turns backstabbing each other, until all that is left of what was a great relationship... is a pool of poison.

But how does it begin?

Lies. That was how it ended. It was understood between them that the boy was . But the friend still chose to seek out, even chase that person, while covering up with layers and layers of lies.... and it was upon this discovery that embittered the first friend, and split them both apart forever.. as it seems.

Oh, but they are connected.. not with friendship, as it used to be, but with a bridge of mutual spite, of some kind of bitterness towards each other. I'm not sure on one of the parties, whether it is truly spite or simply a mask to hide the pain.. but in all sense, it is still bitterness. And whether or not either party wins this war of words, it all ends up hurting both of them.

So.. I wonder.. will I end up like this? Perhaps, with someone I consider my friend now... will they turn their backs on me, and betray me? Maybe I should be wary, as of now... since there are some that say no one can be trusted, and so it might be true...

Yet, if I do that, I will end up more bitter than if I simply trusted people.. not that we should trust people blindly, but well, we still need to trust. Nobody is an island, for certain.... not most of the people I know, anyway, are willing to be alone, forever... so I will try to do that, trust people.. in practicality , of course, but to not be paranoid, as far as I can... I am a little of that, I know. But I will try to change that...

It is certainly easier for me to say that.. I have not gone through the hurt of being betrayed by someone I love.. but certainly by someone I trusted, however foolishly. Still, I hope that there can be an end to this bitterness.. if all else fails, then both parties will have to forget each other even exist...

You may be reading this... glad to hear that you finally have found someone you can trust, who can make you happy, who can rip your disappointments to shreds, and bring back the sunshine to your life. But I think you probably won't be seeing this.. well, if you are, I wish you the best , and hope you can drop that bitterness and be truly happy =)