No, I'm not going to follow Daniel Foo and write a whole freaking sermon on stuff like that. But I'm just going to write about some things that perhaps have been on my mind...
Ah yes.. I jus went for CF meeting tonight. PS the council people in the process.. oh well, life is about choices isnt it? It's all about the things I decided on first, haha. Well the speaker today talked about singlehood.. about how it is better to be single. Personally I don't agree... for some reason, somewhat. Yes, there will be this problem on freedom.. a HUGE problem on freedom.. but I somehow want to know how it really feels like.. just to love someone, with the physical and emotional intimacy that lovers share. Even just to take all that she has to give... if she wants to scream at me, cry, whatever... hopefully not hit me, not because I can't take it, but because I have a terrible temper when it comes to physical abuse... I really don't know what I would do.
But just to take all her screaming, her sobs, everything.. hah, maybe I could do that with really close friends, but somehow, I think its different with a girlfriend...
But then perhaps I am not mature enough for one... like I mentioned, I have a lousy capacity for physical tolerance... pain I can take, it's being physically bullied with no good reason that will drive me to the brink, just too fast. Well, all in good time I guess, haha.. maybe I just want a friend with whom I can be really honest with, whom I can listen to and can listen to me, whom I can care for and will do the same. Stuff like that, haha... but the kissing part will have to be scrapped, no? Hah...
Singles dinner on Valentines Day, anyone?
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