Some random stuff... just to make this blog a little less gloomy? or worse.. you decide
1. Schizophrenia is NOT multiple personality dissorder!! Yes, I heard that just recently, and my friend wants it to be really really clear.
Schizophrenic ppl ( or schizos) hear voices in their head, talking to them, and believe something different from their surroundings.. they are somewhat deluded in their whole life. Think.. hm.. if you guys know, the Professor from " A Beautiful Mind". Or basically just think- voices in the head.
Multiple personality disorder ( MPD) means you completely change into another personality all of a sudden, and you might not even be aware of it. You might talk to it, or no. Think Smeagol-Gollum, Incredible Hulk, Jekyll and Hyde.
2. Everyone has different sides. So even if you hear different stories about your same friend, no, they need not be having MPD.
3. WoW is freaking addictive.. join if you want.. but be warned, it's very very addictive.....
4. I should be studying, but instead, falling to the trap of bloggers.. randomly spawning something entirely irrelevant. Well, like I said, this is my blog. I do anything I want. =)
5. If you're still wearing a mask take it off here. Entry is only for the unmasked. And smoking in the smoking section please. There isn't an age limit though, but if I curse you might want to keep the kids away from the screen.
6. Keep the kids away from the screen.. like, right now.
7. KAN NI NA BEI CHAO JI BAI NI NAO HIA FUCK LAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( told you to keep the kids away)
8. 12345567891011121314151617181920... that's how many fingers and toes you have altogether.
Ok I should realllyy be studying now guys.. ciaoz!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Reflections?
Maybe, maybe not.
I'm a weird blogger. I actually don't like to put my own life here, about how I am or what I am. I'm still insanely shy with my ownself, and basically.. I guess I'd rather tell people what I could be thinking over a coffee or even just msn. It's just me.
Sometimes, though, I might just depress readers over here just for the fun of it.
I wonder what exactly has happened.. why I'm always a little sad somehow. I guess, I regret so many things I have not done in these years. I have put too much time into computer games, into drawing my own things and into wasting lots of time, but not going out with friends, doing anything social, or even learning new things. I do regret, although I try not to say it.. I try not to whine, because I know I made it happen. I did not do anything to remember, to preserve my memories, if at all... I did not try to be anything more than a student, I did not try anything hard enough. Even in games, I played a while, but never tried hard enough to be some kind of super gamer and earn big bucks in competitions, or learn to compete. I have but one word for this : humji. And now it makes my life one big fucking gap, like there's no past, no future, only a present that I can barely alter. I've never known what it's like to chase anyone, to try at all, other than just peep at them once in a while like some shy nerdy stalker.
All I'm really trying now, is basically.. to make up for what I think I lost. To know my friends better, rather than just talk cock a while and spam computer games solo. But sometimes I suppose I try too hard, because I like to talk about personal things, and people can get frustrated when you keep harping on it. Yet that's something I'm always interested to talk about, no matter how depressing.. that's just me, I guess. I think I'm a pretty good listener, but maybe that's just my ego talking...
Or maybe I just think too much. Ciaoz.
I'm a weird blogger. I actually don't like to put my own life here, about how I am or what I am. I'm still insanely shy with my ownself, and basically.. I guess I'd rather tell people what I could be thinking over a coffee or even just msn. It's just me.
Sometimes, though, I might just depress readers over here just for the fun of it.
I wonder what exactly has happened.. why I'm always a little sad somehow. I guess, I regret so many things I have not done in these years. I have put too much time into computer games, into drawing my own things and into wasting lots of time, but not going out with friends, doing anything social, or even learning new things. I do regret, although I try not to say it.. I try not to whine, because I know I made it happen. I did not do anything to remember, to preserve my memories, if at all... I did not try to be anything more than a student, I did not try anything hard enough. Even in games, I played a while, but never tried hard enough to be some kind of super gamer and earn big bucks in competitions, or learn to compete. I have but one word for this : humji. And now it makes my life one big fucking gap, like there's no past, no future, only a present that I can barely alter. I've never known what it's like to chase anyone, to try at all, other than just peep at them once in a while like some shy nerdy stalker.
All I'm really trying now, is basically.. to make up for what I think I lost. To know my friends better, rather than just talk cock a while and spam computer games solo. But sometimes I suppose I try too hard, because I like to talk about personal things, and people can get frustrated when you keep harping on it. Yet that's something I'm always interested to talk about, no matter how depressing.. that's just me, I guess. I think I'm a pretty good listener, but maybe that's just my ego talking...
Or maybe I just think too much. Ciaoz.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Chinese New Year..
Happy Chinese New Year! I think I should at least say that, just in case people reading this think I dun celebrate it.. to be honest, I don't feel its very significant to me this year. Most of my cousins ( the ones I actually talk to, somehow) are missing somewhere.. overseas or something. And circumstances force the visit to Malaysia to be especially short.. but well, since I don't really have people to talk to there, it's not so bad I guess.
It's the Pig year, for those who do not realise... yes, it is. That certainly doesn't mean you can't eat pork- that would be kind of disastrous for Chinese cuisine worldwide, wouldn't it? And you know what the Pig year is for? Plenty of little piglets!! Yes, the pressure is on for married couples.. get grandchildren for your parents QUICK!!! Hurry before the year is over!!! ( Also for the sake of the children- couples with children = official married couple = HONGBAO!!)
Well let's start on a happier note too, shall we? Some nice wishes to give this year..
Gong Xi Fa Cai Xin Nian Kuai Le - standard greeting... like duh.
Shen Ti Jian Kang - Good health to you!
Long Jin San Bao - Tell the angmohs this is the standard greeting for New Year. Then watch what happens when they greet everyone like this.. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!
Wan Shi Ru Yi - Wish you best of luck, and success to you! ( esp for the PIGLET thingy.. MUAHAHAHAHAA)
Toto Zhong Jiang - Win prize for Toto... for the less "virtuous" relatives
Zhu Nian Zhu Fu - Well... erm.. its lame. I just thought of it, and sounded cool =P
It's the Pig year, for those who do not realise... yes, it is. That certainly doesn't mean you can't eat pork- that would be kind of disastrous for Chinese cuisine worldwide, wouldn't it? And you know what the Pig year is for? Plenty of little piglets!! Yes, the pressure is on for married couples.. get grandchildren for your parents QUICK!!! Hurry before the year is over!!! ( Also for the sake of the children- couples with children = official married couple = HONGBAO!!)
Well let's start on a happier note too, shall we? Some nice wishes to give this year..
Gong Xi Fa Cai Xin Nian Kuai Le - standard greeting... like duh.
Shen Ti Jian Kang - Good health to you!
Long Jin San Bao - Tell the angmohs this is the standard greeting for New Year. Then watch what happens when they greet everyone like this.. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!
Wan Shi Ru Yi - Wish you best of luck, and success to you! ( esp for the PIGLET thingy.. MUAHAHAHAHAA)
Toto Zhong Jiang - Win prize for Toto... for the less "virtuous" relatives
Zhu Nian Zhu Fu - Well... erm.. its lame. I just thought of it, and sounded cool =P
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Love.
Mention the word.. what do you think of?
Flowers? Roses? Diamonds, chocolates and sweet poetry? Perhaps your boyfriend, or girlfriend, or crush. Or that dream prince you've been waiting for. Kisses, holding hands, bringing them the moon and all that jazz.
Ah, screw that.
All that notion is only romance- a portion of romantic love, the usual BGR ( boy-girl relationship) you see on TV. Guy meets girl, girl and guy fall head over heels in love and elope. This involves a lot of gifts, deeds, and also a mutual attraction ( Well, sometime's there's guy and guy or girl and girl in this aspect, but that's not the point) . And the gimmick of gift shops - ah yes, buy a flower, ring, chocolate for your lover? And when we speak of love, that is the first thing that comes to mind, isn't it?
But that's not all love is.
Love has many kinds.. and we all need it. No? Then let's begin with something to silence those who believe there is no such thing as love... we begin with it. Parents- ah yes, parents. Proud, arrogant, old and irritating - many of us view them as that. And yet, these same people who we could be mistreating and ignoring since childhood , could very well jump into a blazing inferno like those firemen in movies, or action heroes, just to save us- only that they may not return alive. A less dramatic example - they work day and night, and leave us alone a lot, but whom for? To earn so much money, and for whom? People like to think of love as a knight in shining armour, or a lover with a rose, but what of the parent who sacrifices his entire lifespan slaving at the office, just to feed his children? There are those who would go even further, and sacrifice the one thing that even heroes have at their death- their dignity. Prostitutes who would do so if only to support their children, and when these kids grow up, they would use this money to escape the life their mothers had, to earn a job, and then abhor the scandalous trade, maybe even the mother who is doing it. In economical terms, it is a very risky venture, where you have no guarantee of ever having any returns... but love never was about returns, yes?
And then ... there is love between friends. This is the common kind of love between similar genders ( without homosexuality, of course ) . And one point to note- unlike romance, this kind of love has even less conditions to bind either side. Meaning to say, friendship doesn't have to mean you must be always with that person, can only go out with that person, cannot do this, cannot do that, must look like this, blah blah blah. More freedom to each side, yet sometimes, the bond is just as strong, and lasting, as romance itself, if not more so- and it can also be much much weaker. But still, it is a bond that no one can do without- not unless you plan to live as a hermit on the mountainside. Of course, it is quite odd to consider telling your friend " I love you!" ( again because of our narrow perspective of it all) but .. well, that's what it is.
And finally, romantic love.. yes yes, whatever. Seeing as how it is being broadcasted everywhere , it only needs a short mention here.. but it is, unlike what some stupid idiot in the Ch8 9pm series currently on ( about some Zodiac .. forget it, I dun follow the plot) , love , "true" love as you call it, is not all about being possessive- what's yours is mine, what's mine is also mine, etc. Heck, forget that "yours is mine , mine is yours" stuff. Define the properties of your relationship however you will.. love was never about that. So what exactly is it? Care, concern, respect, attraction, and the rest is all up to you.
And so what has happened to it?
2 problems that have come about.. frst and foremost, resistance. Not only bitterness, anger, nonchalance towards this ideal.. there is also our pride. Yes, we do need our pride, our "face", as us Chinese call it, but in some instances it becomes a huge stumbling block. Like a father who would not help his daughter when she does something "dishonourable"... even if it stabs through his heart like a knife. Like a friend who, after an argument with another, will not lift a hand to help when it is needed, just because he cannot stand down. Pride can be stubborn, and we live to regret much of it when we think back.. parents have this as a brick wall between them and their children, and it eventually drives them apart.. but most of the time, it is only a farce, and even as they watch the children they disowned walk away, they cannot show the true extent of their pain. And it is also a problem with guys, with this stupid need to "look cool", to be an emotional rock, but we just aren't...
And the other big problem- corruption. Love becomes twisted, altered to fit the mindset. When, fo example, someone actually buys that " Love is possessive" crap, he/she will begin to think that their lover should have no freedom whatsoever, and eventually, this makes the other into an object rather than a person- a property. It also can be twisted when one loves an ideal, a concept, and nothing concrete - money, or power. And thus is spawned the real evil geniuses of this world, thus is spawned politics. Love, when possessive, becomes an addiction, and creates stalkers, madmen, killers, and the list goes on. In other words, when love goes awry... we have psychopathy.
Such is the range of love.. it is not as defined and mass-marketed by the companies, that it needs diamonds, roses, chocolates or even gifts.. simple companionship will do. It is our inherent need, a part of our psyche, the essence of our being.. and it never is, or was, only about couples, about poetry or gifts or sweet nothings ...
Happy Valentine's Day.
Flowers? Roses? Diamonds, chocolates and sweet poetry? Perhaps your boyfriend, or girlfriend, or crush. Or that dream prince you've been waiting for. Kisses, holding hands, bringing them the moon and all that jazz.
Ah, screw that.
All that notion is only romance- a portion of romantic love, the usual BGR ( boy-girl relationship) you see on TV. Guy meets girl, girl and guy fall head over heels in love and elope. This involves a lot of gifts, deeds, and also a mutual attraction ( Well, sometime's there's guy and guy or girl and girl in this aspect, but that's not the point) . And the gimmick of gift shops - ah yes, buy a flower, ring, chocolate for your lover? And when we speak of love, that is the first thing that comes to mind, isn't it?
But that's not all love is.
Love has many kinds.. and we all need it. No? Then let's begin with something to silence those who believe there is no such thing as love... we begin with it. Parents- ah yes, parents. Proud, arrogant, old and irritating - many of us view them as that. And yet, these same people who we could be mistreating and ignoring since childhood , could very well jump into a blazing inferno like those firemen in movies, or action heroes, just to save us- only that they may not return alive. A less dramatic example - they work day and night, and leave us alone a lot, but whom for? To earn so much money, and for whom? People like to think of love as a knight in shining armour, or a lover with a rose, but what of the parent who sacrifices his entire lifespan slaving at the office, just to feed his children? There are those who would go even further, and sacrifice the one thing that even heroes have at their death- their dignity. Prostitutes who would do so if only to support their children, and when these kids grow up, they would use this money to escape the life their mothers had, to earn a job, and then abhor the scandalous trade, maybe even the mother who is doing it. In economical terms, it is a very risky venture, where you have no guarantee of ever having any returns... but love never was about returns, yes?
And then ... there is love between friends. This is the common kind of love between similar genders ( without homosexuality, of course ) . And one point to note- unlike romance, this kind of love has even less conditions to bind either side. Meaning to say, friendship doesn't have to mean you must be always with that person, can only go out with that person, cannot do this, cannot do that, must look like this, blah blah blah. More freedom to each side, yet sometimes, the bond is just as strong, and lasting, as romance itself, if not more so- and it can also be much much weaker. But still, it is a bond that no one can do without- not unless you plan to live as a hermit on the mountainside. Of course, it is quite odd to consider telling your friend " I love you!" ( again because of our narrow perspective of it all) but .. well, that's what it is.
And finally, romantic love.. yes yes, whatever. Seeing as how it is being broadcasted everywhere , it only needs a short mention here.. but it is, unlike what some stupid idiot in the Ch8 9pm series currently on ( about some Zodiac .. forget it, I dun follow the plot) , love , "true" love as you call it, is not all about being possessive- what's yours is mine, what's mine is also mine, etc. Heck, forget that "yours is mine , mine is yours" stuff. Define the properties of your relationship however you will.. love was never about that. So what exactly is it? Care, concern, respect, attraction, and the rest is all up to you.
And so what has happened to it?
2 problems that have come about.. frst and foremost, resistance. Not only bitterness, anger, nonchalance towards this ideal.. there is also our pride. Yes, we do need our pride, our "face", as us Chinese call it, but in some instances it becomes a huge stumbling block. Like a father who would not help his daughter when she does something "dishonourable"... even if it stabs through his heart like a knife. Like a friend who, after an argument with another, will not lift a hand to help when it is needed, just because he cannot stand down. Pride can be stubborn, and we live to regret much of it when we think back.. parents have this as a brick wall between them and their children, and it eventually drives them apart.. but most of the time, it is only a farce, and even as they watch the children they disowned walk away, they cannot show the true extent of their pain. And it is also a problem with guys, with this stupid need to "look cool", to be an emotional rock, but we just aren't...
And the other big problem- corruption. Love becomes twisted, altered to fit the mindset. When, fo example, someone actually buys that " Love is possessive" crap, he/she will begin to think that their lover should have no freedom whatsoever, and eventually, this makes the other into an object rather than a person- a property. It also can be twisted when one loves an ideal, a concept, and nothing concrete - money, or power. And thus is spawned the real evil geniuses of this world, thus is spawned politics. Love, when possessive, becomes an addiction, and creates stalkers, madmen, killers, and the list goes on. In other words, when love goes awry... we have psychopathy.
Such is the range of love.. it is not as defined and mass-marketed by the companies, that it needs diamonds, roses, chocolates or even gifts.. simple companionship will do. It is our inherent need, a part of our psyche, the essence of our being.. and it never is, or was, only about couples, about poetry or gifts or sweet nothings ...
Happy Valentine's Day.
Happy birthday to>>>>>~~
DANIEL FOOOOO~~~ ( Uncensored version above)
Yep, the one and only. Dun blame me for posting this so late.. one reason is that he din even give me the photos ( photos here are courtesy of YY even, This guy damn lazy siah)- another reason? BLOGGER SCREWED UP!!! Gah... never mind. We can talk about it on msn.
So now we talk about his birthday .. umm... lets see...
Heh, so many photos! So I'm going to post it and leave you all to find the captions yourself!! =P
OK lahhh... let's give you all a clue. Hmm...I know!! Here- I'm going to give the captions below- you guys can try to match them to the picture! Hahahaha... have fun..
(a) . Stone Cold 3:16!!!
(b) . Saikang warriors marching in, hurrah, hurrah..
(c) . " Hm? What's this packet here siah.. what to do with it.." ( Looks over at DF)
(d) . DF anddddd Misa Misa of Happy Sweets!! ^^
(e) . Here come the guests!
(f) . GAH The Incredible Hulk! (or ghost. Or Incredible Hulk ghost)
(g) . Group picture of the 8 people!! ( and one Death Note)
(h) . " Ya, Milo just now go toilet and then... nvm lah! Your birthday must toast! Yaaaammmm.."
(i) . DF showing off his guests' lovely feet ( and pants. and skirt. )
(j) . " Yah!! Birthday cake goooooooddd!!! Err.. whats happening to the side siah..."
(k) . Happy guests singing the Happy Birthday song! =)
(l) . " Eh.. taste not bad leh... but still smell a bit funny siah.."
Annnnd not to mention some special guests..
- Huimin all the way from Australia!
- Milo .. for being the only person to come in Cosplay! Hahahaha....
- Auga and Ji En for making Winning 11 championships... not such a failure.. at least got a winner... =P
- YY again for the photos!! Seriously thx a lot for so many photos.. otherwise I'll haf nth 2 do this on, haha...
And thus ends the 22nd birthday of our friend the DF...
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