ZOMBIE

~ To the people who have gone through hell and lived to tell ~

ZOMBIE by the Cranberries

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me,
it's not my family
In your head, in your head
they are fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns

In your head,
in your head,
they are crying...

(Chorus )
In your head,
in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie
What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?


Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken

It's the same old theme
since nineteen-sixteen
In your head, in your head
they're still fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns.
In your head,
in your head,
they are dying...

(Chorus)

End of the song...



There are a lot of reasons for us to keep fighting forever.. only one pathetic one for us to stop.
How many countries will survive when the dust settles and we finally resolve our differences?
How many when we realise that we can't?

Lebanon: ????- 2006

PRoCRaSTINATION

YESSS I'm a real procrastinator... so much tt I've decided 2 talk abt last wknd right now.. :P
First things first. Friday.. Kenneth's birthday!! Kenneth as usual invited a lot of shunyans 2 come...( no lah just kidding :P) anw he invited practically all the fairfield ppl i still rmb, so haha good 4 him man! We had fun just talking n stuff, pity auga n gang din come man, they r just damn funny guys, n i wld haf liked 2 talk 2 them there. But anw like I said, so many shunyan, also dun tink they will come...haha..
Anw we had a barbeque at Kenneth's super-shunyan condo... and then the real dinner. And after tt we gathered 2 sing his bday song, cut the cake... and throw kenneth in the pool!! haha wooohoooo so fun!! :)

Saturday even more fun! 4C class outing... as usual a lot of shunyans dun wan 2 come... but dunno dun care!! Haha... oh btw Diana came along. I haven seen her since sec schl man!!! She looks.... erm, cant say, I reli cant place her face liaoz. :P
Anw we went sentosa 2 play on the beach... we planned 4 a breakfast b4 tt but ended up eating lunch.. and then it rained!! Hahaha wah lau.. thot cant go sentosa liaoz.. but luckily it ended ard 1pm, n we went 2 sentosa ard 1+, n started playing ard 2 I think. Aiyah dun care timing lah, we play means we play lor~
So we played captain's ball, cos the class wan 2 practise 4 Past v Present this sat..
so long never play but damn fun siah!! Chiong here chiong there and anyhow score goals!!! Hahaha.. initially my team got advantage, then we started to lose like siao. But we dun care, we fight until we almost equalise man!!! ( I think)

" COME ON GUYS ONLY 7 MORE GOALS 2 WIN!!!!" HHAHAHHAhahaahah woooohooooooo

So fun so fun... after tt we play ultimate frisbee, n then we go even crazier. Start calling our team Geylang Warriors, n anyhow hantum.. then Shawn start doing his stupid stunts, haha, throw back the frisbee 2 himself, and we start doing warcry!!
" Lets go guys!!! YYYYAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR- < short breath>- YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRM
SSSSEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Wooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! So fun siah, finally got the chance 2 reli go crazy for a while siah~ helps 2 release tension, n dun need 2 tink so much. Well we played another game of captain's ball ( wiv more warcry this time) and my team lost all 3 games. But u know wad???? GEYLANG WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! FIGHT UNTIL THE END!! TODAY WE LOSE TMR WE THRASH EVERYONE!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Siaoz liao.. but tts the mood in the games. Hahha...
After tt we had dinner at Suntec... shawn the super-shunyan as usual dun wan 2 fetch us there, instead go home n then say he'll b late then later during the dinner say he wun b coming liaoz... hahaa anw not tt we din expect tt. Dinner was ok lah, some noodle place.. I had Penang Prawn Mee, so-so lah, a bit better than the usual singapore version of the PP Mee.
SSSSSSSSSSoooooooooo fun man... Im glad my class so onz one, every once in a while got class outing. Love u guys man!!!

IDIOTA

Yes I am one indeed. I've just realised that today.
Somehow after I came out of NS, I thought I was no longer that whiny, pessimistic, sloppy and emotional piece of crap I used to be. That I was now far more immune to emotional breakdowns, whims and pain. That I was some kind of new man.

I guess I'm wrong. I really am. I thought I could help people if I tried this time, and not make a mess of things. But like Zidane ( who was at least a star before he did stupid things) I do things on a whim. I gave up a lot of money on one, I became an army laughing stock on one, and now, I risk losing a friend on one.
She was hurt, yet again, and I thought I could help her. But of all the ideas I could come up with, this one is one of the worst. I was arrogant, thinking I was smart, thinking I was being a good friend. I was self-centred, thinking more about myself, about how I could prove myself a friend if I could do it. I was anything but a friend, the kind she needed, to just be there, to just help take her mind off all this madness. Instead I screwed myself up, and maybe even her. I'm not sure.. but I hurt her again, as if she needed any more. I was paranoid, obsessive, stupid. Clumsy with my words just like I am with my actions. And if anything, I'm sorry for all that I've done. But I fear I might be too late.

I'm not sure what she would make of this. I don't think she wants to speak to me, at least for a while. I don't know if she even trusts me anymore, or if she ever wants to remain my friend. I don't know what to know. All I know is that I'm just as whiny, just as pathetic a human being as I was before, if only slightly more controlled, a little wiser, but not enough. I've hurt too many people in my life, I don't want to do that anymore. But I guess that's not possible, because I'm just me.

If she is reading this, I just want to say.. I'm sorry. I really am. I have no excuses for what I said, but all I can do is apologise. Sorry..

What happens when people get mad

MUST MUST MUST

- Must get driving license asap
- Must confirm whos gg 2 fairfield past v present so i can decide wad 2 join
- Must begin learning basic coding
- Must learn how to draw properly
- Must get back army fitness
- Must learn guitar ( sooooon)
- Must kill something!!!!!
- Must refrain from public destruction
- Must start thinking again instead of stoning my whole life away
- Must do something RETARDED!!!!!!!!
- Must think of other things to write in my blog :P

Friends

Its alright, I'm ok. I think God can explain.....
- Splender, " I think God can explain", album Halfway Down the Sky


Odd that I'm still awake at this time? Nah not reli.. i like being awake late. I get to appreciate things.. and work unhampered, if you can call what I'm doing working.
Lately I've bn talking with several ppl most of the time, and these figures are in my mind these weeks.
One is this nice girl that's kind of my senior in SIM- haha, ironically, I was her senior in sec schl. She's sweet and all, and I guess we're kind of sharing how we feel to each other. I like this kind of friendship- based on trust, you know, not so much on how much fun we're having or sthing. ( Yes I know u can read this, hah.. thx 4 being some1 i can talk 2 ! :) )

Then there's some ppl I'm just not so sure abt...
This one guy.. he's just recently bn addicted 2 gambling. I've known him for some time, but still i dun reli know when the habit started... I guess I'm trying 2 b tough wiv him so he can wake up and smell the roses. Maybe I shouldn't b so tough.. after all, he is talking abt stuff like depression and suicide. Not so much, fortunately, so I'm still gg 2 try 2 wake him up. Still I dun reli know how much I can do...
Another is basically the fren I've bn missing in one of these past entries.. and for long time now. Odd really.. I've just had a dream of her this afternoon. I won't say what its like, just.. I think it means I miss her too much. I haf no idea if I've done anyting wrong, and I'm trying 2 apologise, but its gg 2 take more than tt to bridge 2 years of ... seperation? haha that just sounds wrong, but I dun know what else 2 call it...
Finally, this odd friend of mine.. I dun know if she does regard me as one, haha... I've only met her online so far BUT I'm gg 2 meet her in person! Finally! I hope everything goes well, cos I really want 2 see how this enigma is like. oooOOOooOoo.... As far as I know, she looks good, and she's quite an intelligent person. I hope I dun bore her 2 death or sthing, or scare her off. Hah~

Well thats all I can say for now. Really, I think I've taken up the WC 06 motto for myself this period of time- " A time to make friends", or rather, I'm trying to be one .... to maintain friendships, and be a better friend to all. Well, still plenty of time till dawn, so I got time to reflect again.

SIM

Hah, today I went to SIM for my orientation day. Fun~ lots of games and .. ok, not a lot, but ok lar, got shy ppl u knowz, so dun pressure them too much :P

Anwayz, it was fun but tiring... reli tiring, go home abt 4 and sleep until abt now. Haha.. but reli not happy tho. Why?? It was fun, get 2 talk 2 some ppl, know their names... but for fuck! Now like i din get their contacts.. so we can prob see each other over the canteen? Haha.. wah lau, regret not chatting more wiv the chio bus in our grp, then get number siah... or even my buddy grp in there! ARGGHHHHH sianzzzz... hope my orientation grp leader ( OGL ) will give us the contacts, otherwise reli wasted siah, will see them maybe in 2 or 3 years time.. hah~

Otherwise was fun... lots of stupid little games, but I missed a few cos of stomachache~ dun care, got 2 see my OGL pole-dancing!!!! HAHAHAHA LOLZ... have fun jeremy! ;) Then so fun, watch one guy play TD at the cca displays... hahaha!!! GOT ONLINE PARTNER 4 TD LIAOZ!!! ONZ LAR!!!

Ok jus siannn... haf fun everyone~

End of the World Cup

Tears and smiles and grins and tackles are all over now.. the greatest event of 2006 is finally over. As we bid farewell to the festivities in Berlin, I'll now comment on the player that has changed this whole event.

That player is the one with plans for a grand finale.. our beloved Zinedine Zidane, aka Zizou, aka the Magic Man . Everyone thought he was wasted, gone, old, and archive in history, a legend fading into myth. He proved to them that the legend was far from dead and buried. He particularly taught Ronaldinho , the new Magic Man, that it takes more than a few fancy tricks to be a great player- and that great players never go down easily. It can't be argued that throughout the whole French campaign, he was the inspiration, the leader and the ultimate weapon of his team.
Ironically, it was because of that, that he was instrumental in their defeat.
Why, oh Zizou, why??? The last 10-20 minutes were crucial times to score, break the deadlock. Yes, you saved France with that early goal, but then you did something stupid. Materazzi held you down, and yes, I think he deserved something , but he did not get it. That was no excuse for headbutting him , openly inviting a red card. Forget your temper. This is not about you, it is about the country. Had you held your temper and followed through faithfully, France might have beaten the Italians. You guys might have had Totti and Buffon on a pizza plate. Instead, they now have French toast in the Italian side.
Doing some physical retribution is stupid, and rightly earned you a red card... you can't blame the ref for that. Not only did you take yourself out of the World Cup, you took the French morale and hopes with you. And your honour as a player.. all gone in a flash. Whatever happened to your dream of being a shooting star, sending your brightest flash before fading into the night? Now that is marred by your decision. I really have thought better of you as a player than to resort to this. You really want vengeance, you should just go all out and help the French skewer Buffon, keep up a relentless pace on his goal. Imagine the look on the Italians if you manage a last minute goal. It would be sweet sweet revenge for any abuse you have suffered from them, with sugar icing and a cherry on top. Not just Materazzi, any and all of the Italian players will be wincing even worse than if a bull had gored them. Now, instead, Materazzi will be grinning thru whatever pain you had inflicted with that bald palate of yours. Instead of him, you should have set it against the ball, to set up a killer against Italy. Now, the pain of loss is inflicted on you and your team.

I know I'm mumbling, but it really is too big a shame. Temper has cost a legend his last breath of victory. A valuable lesson to the world, that patience is still one of the world's most valuable assets. That anger can be truly expensive. Zizou has bowed out too early, too foolishly, and France has paid the price.

New Updates: So now he has confessed to why he did that. Cos Materazzi insulted yr family. I say give that ball one of your magic touches and kill Italy's hopes. Then after tt, you can insult his whole freakin' family and he'll b too busy crying to notice.

But no matter what you did, you will always be remembered as a legend in football history. Among the mythos of Pele, Beckenbauer, Maradona. Au Revoir, Zizou!

Farewell To A German Dream

This post, simply put, is dedicated to a team that is now to fight for 3rd place. A team that has fought well and hard for a dream.. a dream that has vanished like smoke.

Of course this is the World Cup.. many teams will return shattered, with their heads below their shins (wow, if that's possible) , tired and facing the disappointment of their country. But Germany, in particular, has been my favourite team this World Cup. And so, since this is my blog, I'll write about them.

Since the start of the watchable matches ( meaning the final 64) they have performed with great gusto. While like any other European team, they boast a robust defence and midfield, now they also have a devastating attack force. They have always been a highly tactical team, and I believe that they can work with even mediocre players ( not that they have any..) . Not like England... put in some of the world's best players and churn out a game that sends everyone to sleep. Honestly, this year the English were pathetic. But the Germans were on a frenzy, going offensive and making every one of their games watchable. And of course, they went on unbeaten, slaughtering every team they met, until they met Italy.
Of course, you could say that's because they were on their home ground, so they will do better. Definitely, they will do better on home ground. In fact, Klinsmann already admitted that the audience is a great booster for the German team. And hence the legend that the Germans will never be beaten on their own soil.
But the last match proved fatal. Why? The answer is simple. Now you have 2 legends fighting each other - one, that the Germans are invincible on home ground, and two, that the Italians have never lost to Germany. It seems that the latter one proved true. The Germans seemed to falter at the thought, and in the first half, their performance was slightly off. But they came back in the second half, only to lose 5 minutes before the game ended.

Now, however, I still admire them. Even in the last match, I feel they were a better team than the Italians. Why? In terms of fair play. The Italians have always been known for playing dirty. And that match was no exception. Players kicked the Germans, dived like pro swimmers, and Totti was a total idiot in one part. He practically flew into a German player with his knees, then fell- and asked for a penalty. What the fuck???? The ref decided to give a penalty against him , but that unsporting act deserved a yellow card, if not a red. Lucky for him, the player didn't get injured enough to be carried out, otherwise yellow would be unavoidable.
The Germans, however, were quite sporting in this game, I feel. They barely asked for penalties, especially when it was obvious they fell on their own. Not with the Italians.. that is why I will never respect them. They lost fair and square, and did not complain. They cried on the pitch, but hell, if you lost in the final 5 minutes wouldn't you? Especially when it is the fight for the World Cup finals. They fought well and hard, and bowed out of the finals with grace.

They lost the match, they lost the Cup, but they won my respect. Germany is proud of them, and I am too. Well done , Germany.. GLORY TO THE DEUTSCHLAND!!!

World Cup

So now I'm going to put my 2 cents worth into the World Cup. This fantastic affair with soccer over one month , where guys' and some gals' lives will revolve around 6 to 9 hours every night , watching some 22 people wage war on the green turf over a deceptively simple-looking ball.

Yes, this World Cup's motto is " A time to make friends" but I think it really is a war out there on the pitch. Of course, some of the teams so far have shown sportsmanship on and off the field. But on some games, it has been nothing but brutal absolute war. Take Holland v Portugal : tension in this match was at an alltime high after the referee personally massacred the teams on both sides for a record yellow cards . It was clear after the match when the handshaking that was supposed to happen failed. Then there is Germany v Argentina- both sides battled so closely for the ball that eventually it came to a penalty, which of course the Germans savoured with that fancy new Berlin wall, Lehmann. The Argentine players didn't even bother with courtesies and protested physically after the match.

Well enough about ruining the game. Let's talk about this whole colourful event. Where to start?
I love the Germans this year. They have always been a strong European team, using unspectacular players to do extraordinary things. This is much unlike the English this year( using great players to do crap) and why I absolutely do not support the English this year. They make every game so boring, so mundane, and if it takes Beckham to perform for them you know they really suck. The Germans have a great war machine going, with both strong offense and defence, and they have Klose and Lord Ballack to finish things off with a bang. They started it with a bang indeed- 4-2 against Costa Rica- and I hope they finish this with a fantastic victory. HAIL THE DEUTSCHELAND!!!!!
Holland has been great as always .. total football defined. But they had a poor finish.. siannn lose to Portugal in the midst of this mad ref... didn't even get their goals rolling. Sad sad.... :(
Italy will forever be remembered this year for their poor sending off of Australia, with that miserable diver and much more...
Well thats all for now. Like I care.... hahahah