Very interesting stuff

Try this link. Quite interesting...

http://www.losersociety.com/cgi-bin/lssite.pl?writing=7141963

Murphy's Law - Cops

More laws based on Murphy's Theory of Patheticity

• Bullet proof vests aren't.
• The bigger they are, the harder they fall- on you.
• High speed chases proceed from lower concentrations of traffic to higher ones
• Tear gas works on cops more often than on criminals
• Dogs do not see cops as people of authority, they see lunch.
• On any time you decide to break the law, a cop shall be just in time to see it happen
• If you are a cop, any time you decide to break regulations, your officer will just happen to walk by
• Flash suppressors don't
• If there is a gang of drunken bikers are in the area they will send a single officer. If there is a single drunken biker they will call in the whole SWAT team

Murphy's Law 101

Hello everyone, and welcome to my first and possibly only lesson on Murphy's Law, founded by Murphy. For those who don't already know, Murphy's Law is the fundamental principle of pessimism, the cornerstone of our establishments.

Alright, some facts on Murphy himself. Apparently he was an engineer in an American airbase- Edwards Air Force Base, and his name was Capt Edward A. Murphy. While working on a project, he kept telling the others what could go wrong, and had this famous phrase- " If there's anyway he ( the pilot) can do it wrong, he will find it."

And thus in Edwards Air Base 1949, Murphy's Law was born.

So alrighty then, we'll begin on Murphy's Law, which in all terms is summed up quite easily " If anything can go wrong, it will." This is , of course, only a small part of being pessimistic, especially in the modern context. ( Modern pessimism involves politics and philosophy as well, and it's just as complicated as procrastination. Well, I'll explain that tommorrow)
The basis of Murphy's Law itself is doubt. You always worry, knowing that the worst possible thing could happen. A common application is in jealousy, when, say, your boyfriend goes missing for too long, he's definitely having an affair. Or in horror movies- if the person stays alone for too long, they're definitely going to be the next victim.

Oh by the way, one fundamental thing- according to the law, you should NEVER EVER WHINE " How can things get worse??" or anything like that in context. Because if you do, it will.

But the whole " Ok if it can get worse, it will" kind of application is really overused. Here are some other interesting variations of his law:

Murphy's Law of Thermodynamics
All situations get worse with increased pressure.

Murphy's Law of Projects
If the project has a flawless report, your project analyst is wrong.

Murphy's Constant
Damage and value are related by this constant, where
Damage done to Object== Value of Object * Constant

Therefore the more valuable the object, the more damage will be done to it.

• The chance of the buttered side of the bread falling down is directly proportional to the cost of the carpet.
• Hardware tools will always land on the concrete pavement instead of the lawn.
• If the tools are still running ( say, for example, a power drill) they will land on objects that can be damaged ( like your foot)
• Falling objects accelerate to the maximum possible speed that can deal the most damage when hitting your property ( or your neighbour's)
• After you've lost something and buy something else to replace it, you will immediately find the original.
• The scuba gear will never leak until you dive into the deepest possible underwater cave.
• Paper is at its strongest when you need to punch holes in it.
• If the food is great-tasting, served excellently and politely and cheap, it's poisoned.
• If your action has a 50% chance of bein wrong, you will be wrong 75% of the time.
• The universe has unlimited possibility of mistakes.

Well alright, I'm going to end the list for now, but I'll be back.... the list isn't halfway done, no worries. =)

Overreliance... and some random crap

Yes I just realised how much I depend on technology nowadays. I thought I was different from the past- from the loner and basically slow, lazy dude I used to be. Now I realise the major difference is my tools from the Internet- friendster, blogging, or much more importantly, Windows messenger aka. msn. Now I'm stuck without msn, cos even it has abandoned me..... I really feel deprived from any form of real conversation at all. Of course, I can pretty much go back to my old days... play games, study, sleep, eat, etc. , but I seriously don't want to.... it just made me regret everything that I was. I want to chat!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(
Stupid microsoft.... sianz. WHY MSN DUN WORK!!!

Hm well, enough talking about it. I think I'll intro this character I thought out of nowhere, simply cos I want to. INTRODUCINGGGGG................ PROFESSOR L!!!
( A few letters above Prof X)

= Name= Prof L
= Age= 30.......................ish?
= Sex= None, cos no one interested.
= Blood Type= Red liquid
= Citizenship= What ship is that? Haven't heard of it.
= Interests= 5% on my bank account, 250% on my loan shark debts.
= Race= No thanks, I hate running
= Family= Bored to death listening to my lame jokes

Ok just some random stuff.... just thought of it out of nowhere, hah. I'm so freaking siannn....
WHY MY MSN DUN WORK??!?!?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!!??!?!!?!?

Friendship- pt 1

Just a random entry... what is being a friend all about?
I was thinking along the lines of sharing each other's pains and glory, and being there for one another... helping each other out when either is in need.

I guess I've forgotten that being a real friend is also telling them what they don't want to hear... about criticising them, about reminding them about the flaws they might not see. And to help them correct it, or at least notice it and change.

Cheese!

Yes, it is now time to talk cheese. I shall talk cheese, simply because I feel like it. Cheese everyone!!

So let us define cheese. Cheese is a food, a particularly wonderful kind of food, that tastes cheesy.. how to define it? The taste is... creamy, milky in a smooth, kind of way.. cheesy.
In this definition, cheese comes in many forms.. in powder, grinded to spread over your pizza, or in melted form, where people dip bread in it for fondue dishes, in slices, which is the marketed good of modern markets, or in its classic piece form, which European cheese is usually made in, and the form that most artists draw it in when they mean to illustrate mice running after it.
Cheese has many kinds... cheddar, blue cheese, parmesan, etc etc etc. It can be flavoured so variedly- there's pineapple cheese, roasted cheese, smoked cheese, ham cheese, onion cheese and even CHOCOLATE cheese!!!!! ( which I din try and am not gg 2)
Consumable cheese has many benefits- it gives mainly the benefit of calcium, and thus helps to strengthen your bones and teeth. Modern cheese also has some extra nutritional value which I'm too lazy to find out at the moment.. shall update when I read up =p. And it's tasty, and lovely, and easy to eat!!!!!!! Also it irritates the hell out of some people, and I like doing tt. HAH!!
Suckers.

There is also the term "cheesy". Cheesy refers to a kind of language whereby the terms are more or less repeated overly, or mouldy, or full of holes, or creamy, or basically lame. ( Cheese is lame, because it cannot walk) Cheesy is super cliche stuff, like " How's life?" or singing the Barney song, or saying lame jokes in which only you laugh. ( Singing the Barney song is also punishable by punishment) Cheesy can be used to spice up meetings or conversations when you really, absolutely, totally and COMPLETELY have nothing else to say... in other words, it's a desperate move. Do not try this on new people you have known for a few seconds.. chances are that it will be the first and last time you ever tell them a joke. People have to be able to stomach the cheesiness of the cheese... some can't and unless they dun have a choice ( like say, your coursemate, unless they are the kind tt can mug at home and survive uni) they will avoid you. Or not. Well that's cheesy.

Oh by the way.. cheese is also used in photos. People ask you to say cheese when your photo is being taken. Why? Apparently, the mouth moves up a slight angle when that word is being said, creating a curve in which teeth are exposed and thus the illusion of a smile. That is why cheese is used instead of pepperoni, or pizza, or Fried Hokkien Mee with Extra Hum, or Macaroni Cheese Sandwich, or cola, or milk. Why they ask you to smile at the birdie when it is obvious there is none is not my biz. I dunno... perhaps they refer to the Yellow Cheese Pecker, which adores yellow cheese.

Now for some cheesiness, to add into the cheese atmosphere..
WHY DID THE CHEESE CROSS THE ROAD?
= To get to the other side.
WHY DID THE MOUSE CROSS THE ROAD?
= To get to the cheese.
WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?
= It thought it was a cheese.
WHAT DID THE CHEESE SAY WHEN ITS PICTURE WAS TAKEN?
= Cheese.
WHAT DID THE MOUSE SAY WHEN ITS PICTURE WAS TAKEN?
= Nothing, it was eating the cheese.
WHAT DID THE CHICKEN SAY WHEN THE PICTURE WAS TAKEN?
= Say Cheese! It was taking the picture.
WHAT CAN BE BETTER THAN A CHEESE?
- 2 cheeses.
WHO MOVED MY CHEESE?
= Why is the sky so high?

CHEESE RECOMMENDATIONS

SIM: For value for money cheese, eat at the canteen. 2 dishes serve decent portions of cheesiness- The Chicken Ham Spaghetti at the western stall ( $3.50) or the Cheesy Baked Rice at the Japanese food stall ( $4.80) . Both are filled with enough creaminess and cheese to satisy a cheese lover for lunch at least.. if you don't think it is enough, ask the auntie for more cheese. The baked rice also has this fragrant cheesy smell that is guaranteed to irk your friends with less tolerance for cheesiness ( aka . the lesser cheesers) . DO NOT ORDER CARBONARA AT MEGA BITES unless you want the ambience- for $4.90, you get a Chicken Ham Spaghetti with a larger plate and pepper, and a fancier name . -.- A bit more ham too... but for that price I'd have expected it to be wayy more cheesy than the CH Spaghetti, PLUS I don't like pepper!!! Not worth my extra 1.40.......

KFC: Cheese fries are a MUST for cheese lovers.. however, no point ordering the cheese nuggets, it's just some cheese powder with the popcorn chicken and its not that cheesy. Cheesitos are not so bad, but still not half as cheesy as Cheese Fries.

Remember- cheese is the word. CHEESEEEE!!!!!!!!! I AM THE CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!

Singlehood

No, I'm not going to follow Daniel Foo and write a whole freaking sermon on stuff like that. But I'm just going to write about some things that perhaps have been on my mind...

Ah yes.. I jus went for CF meeting tonight. PS the council people in the process.. oh well, life is about choices isnt it? It's all about the things I decided on first, haha. Well the speaker today talked about singlehood.. about how it is better to be single. Personally I don't agree... for some reason, somewhat. Yes, there will be this problem on freedom.. a HUGE problem on freedom.. but I somehow want to know how it really feels like.. just to love someone, with the physical and emotional intimacy that lovers share. Even just to take all that she has to give... if she wants to scream at me, cry, whatever... hopefully not hit me, not because I can't take it, but because I have a terrible temper when it comes to physical abuse... I really don't know what I would do.
But just to take all her screaming, her sobs, everything.. hah, maybe I could do that with really close friends, but somehow, I think its different with a girlfriend...

But then perhaps I am not mature enough for one... like I mentioned, I have a lousy capacity for physical tolerance... pain I can take, it's being physically bullied with no good reason that will drive me to the brink, just too fast. Well, all in good time I guess, haha.. maybe I just want a friend with whom I can be really honest with, whom I can listen to and can listen to me, whom I can care for and will do the same. Stuff like that, haha... but the kissing part will have to be scrapped, no? Hah...

Singles dinner on Valentines Day, anyone?

Bitterness

Well I'm going to write about this. Why?

I've had the chance... to see both sides of a conflict. Of friendship turned sour, no, bitter, no....
acidic. It's sad, really, when friends would kill each other if they had the chance... i mean former friends. It's not over money, oh no... it's what happens when a love triangle goes wrong. One after the other, they take turns backstabbing each other, until all that is left of what was a great relationship... is a pool of poison.

But how does it begin?

Lies. That was how it ended. It was understood between them that the boy was . But the friend still chose to seek out, even chase that person, while covering up with layers and layers of lies.... and it was upon this discovery that embittered the first friend, and split them both apart forever.. as it seems.

Oh, but they are connected.. not with friendship, as it used to be, but with a bridge of mutual spite, of some kind of bitterness towards each other. I'm not sure on one of the parties, whether it is truly spite or simply a mask to hide the pain.. but in all sense, it is still bitterness. And whether or not either party wins this war of words, it all ends up hurting both of them.

So.. I wonder.. will I end up like this? Perhaps, with someone I consider my friend now... will they turn their backs on me, and betray me? Maybe I should be wary, as of now... since there are some that say no one can be trusted, and so it might be true...

Yet, if I do that, I will end up more bitter than if I simply trusted people.. not that we should trust people blindly, but well, we still need to trust. Nobody is an island, for certain.... not most of the people I know, anyway, are willing to be alone, forever... so I will try to do that, trust people.. in practicality , of course, but to not be paranoid, as far as I can... I am a little of that, I know. But I will try to change that...

It is certainly easier for me to say that.. I have not gone through the hurt of being betrayed by someone I love.. but certainly by someone I trusted, however foolishly. Still, I hope that there can be an end to this bitterness.. if all else fails, then both parties will have to forget each other even exist...

You may be reading this... glad to hear that you finally have found someone you can trust, who can make you happy, who can rip your disappointments to shreds, and bring back the sunshine to your life. But I think you probably won't be seeing this.. well, if you are, I wish you the best , and hope you can drop that bitterness and be truly happy =)

Shadows

So what does it mean... the word "shadow" ?

Shadow, a word that has been used in many contexts.

The most common usage is , of course, your own shadow- shadow as a noun. The patch that forms when you stand in front of a light source, or just around it. Or even below it, such as the sun. It's simply something else that just accompanies you, not really of any significance. Or to some weirdos, it's an odd figure to talk to, just like the image in the mirror ( which some motivational speakers actually suggest you do- but not to your shadow, for some reason)

To " shadow" someone- meaning " shadow" as a verb, is to stalk them, to follow them undetected. Nobody must know you are following them, and even if they realise it, they must not know it is you. To be there, without them knowing you are there. Spooky, but probably derived from the original noun, since nobody really cares whether their shadow is there or not.

A " shadow" of a doubt- meaning only a hint, a whiff of suspicion, or what not. In this context, shadow, again, implies insignificance- not invisibility, but insignificance, so small yet large enough for you to think about it. A tiny tiny thought...

A " shadow" of your former self- in this case, it only means you are pathetic compared to what you used to be. Again it refers to the noun " shadow", as the shadow is only a shape of darkness, of the original figure... it has no substance, and will not vanish, but is nothing at all.

Why am I suddenly talking about all this? I feel it refers to me... to what I'm becoming, doing, or what I am. All of them, in some way, perhaps, apply to me, or at least the last one... I'm slowly fading, fading away... losing any purpose, direction, or whatever I had if at all...... I have nothing to say, no substance at all...

A shadow, to fade in the morning sun....

SIM - another week of fun! :)

YAy I'm becoming mad... seriously mad. Oh well not really I guess. School's only just started for two weeks or so, and I have to know people and talk cock and sing song..... I feel like a new kid going to school, you know? Cos it's been a long time since I studied, haha....

Well this week is going to be a little more busy, but not so much on work... on the contrary, its more the CCAs that's gg to be taking up most of my time!!!! Joined council and learning the ropes... crashing Christian Fellowship devotions.... and planning to go to Singing Club too!!! Wow, I'm so going to regret this soon, or just drop one of them... but well, not so soon. I will be trying to know as many people as possible.. especially girls. Muahahahaha!!!!!!!
( This is just so lame...)
Well, just trying to know more people... I think its kinda interesting that I can join the CF and all, thanks to years of chapel and Boy's Brigade, I'm not new to the whole thing. But I'm technically not christian either!!! Haha well, thank goodness they aren't going all out to convert me- yet...
I don't mind their company, and I hope they don't mind me either. Really friendly bunch, haha....

Council is so busy!! My department is going through a hell lot of things as we prepare for some new event... not to be leaked yet. Hm, yeah I feel kinda left out, as I'm only one of the newbies that joined after the Aug batch... and the other guy has already blended in. Plus, I'm too damn new to this council thing... I've always been a follower, and there really isnt much I think I can do for them, to contribute or anything. In short, I'm a statue. I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO STONING!!!! Its too bloody much like my army days, where basically I was always the odd one out of the platoon... maybe its me. Damn... wish I could change myself.. trying to, but it isnt working out the way I thought it would. Never does huh? Well hope I can contribute more.. otherwise i really don't know what I'm doing there. Poor Joan.. shes kinda the leader and all, but hey, she's only human... she looks so damn shagged during meetings man. Haha, I feel damn guilty lah... I'm like the only person not doing nuts over there, though I'm trying to find something to do...

Well well, Im also trying to find some time to hang out with Ivan, Joseph, maybe Milo also if she's free! I mean, this is like their break or something man.. so they're kinda free I guess, for now. I need to just talk with them again, at least one... just to, you know, catch up and all. Haha.. and if you guys reading this got anything jio me leh... I might be busy, but heck, try try lah? Hahahahaa.... studies at this moment is kinda slack now, so I'm still .. well, hanging?Haha!

SUPERSTAR!!

Hello hello...

Yeah today was a long day, kind of... or a short one, I'm not sure what either should mean. Or maybe a tall one? :P Whatever.... it more or less started with me going down to support my friend ( like I said in the last entry lahz) for Project Superstar auditions- the cool dude Darryl! ( who i dun tink anyone here knows yet) Bahz.. met up wiv some of his other supporters... total strength= 4! Lolz.... none of us can scream some more lor.. so sad... :(
Hm but its the thought tt counts right? Esp since I'm the only idiot to have come all the way frm west side... the rest all ard the north, so gg 2 the Superstar auditions is pretty easy for them. All frm singing club man! Then later Joan ( another SIMer in the singing club) also join us to support Darryl. SO fun!!!
Hm but one thing.. progress is DAMN SLOW. We meet when the thing supposed to start... 11am.. then after that only ard 1230am then start. Wth....

( Well one more thing... I invited Daniel Foo to come also.. he say okok.. he never come. Can tell me tt at 11am he still at home... nvm, I tell him 2 come down now. Haven start yet, got time. And wad happen? He din come...)

Slow to start... worse to end. Wahz... Darryl was at the end lorz... like, the contestants start wiv the 1ooo+ number tag, the Darryl was like 6000+ tag!!!!! Behind him got 3 contestants only siahz... the one after him we also support, but wah lau... so long siahz, reli got 2 sit thru the whole performance to wait 4 him to perform. I'm sorry, did I say sit? I meant STAND. Yes, stand for 6 freaking hours, watching the judges criticise each n every one man.. ( cos its a male auditions today, duh... I'm not watching the female ones tmr) so siann, watching them in and out. Oh yes, there were some songs sung over and over again.. especially this one song.. ai mei or sthing.. kaoz, sing 4 times in a stretch by 4 different contestants! Then at the last few also got one guy sing again.. haha... and then, JJ Lin's songs of course sung a lot lah.

Hm well... then came our Darryl's turn. We got cheer for him ok!!! Only 6 of us lah (including Joan's fren) n nobody reli go scream, but he heard us, definitely. Hahaha... then he sing song the time, the judges just cut him off lorz, like the lousier contestants. Hey waddup man.. he dun sing so bad wad. Then he kena kick out... his fren also... I think they were kinda siannn also, judge everyone else for wad? 6 freaking hours... I them I also sian, but then, its showbiz wad, you have to get used to it... sigh. Poor Darryl... hm but all things considered, he took it quite well. Well of cos he shld, i mean, he tried his best, wad else can he do?

( Oh and about this time, my dear Daniel foo called me, ask me if I want to go for city harvest... he din come for mine some more wan 2 ask me down... din reply huh? well nvm.. tts daniel foo lahz.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)

Oh but he was kinda cool abt it, I guess... he even treated dinner!! At some buffet.. something Sakura or sthing.. wah not bad siah, buffet pasta n stuff, n for 24 dollars!! N japanese food too, of course... sakura wad... but too bad one of his frens had some problem with eating, so well, we had 2 look out for her. On the other hand, another of his frens eat like nobody's biz!!! Wah lau... serious bottomless pit siah. N she's also the smallest of the grp lor( i think, haha) !!

Hm well... all in all, fun day lah. In the end we din go K-Box like the original plan... but end up gg home after dinner. Just as well lah, I also too full 2 move oredy.. haha... Darryl still had some feelings left abt the auditions tho, I felt. Oh well, cheer up buddy... there are many more chances if you try! Oh btw thanks for dinner!!! Haha..

2nd day of school!!

WOOOOHOOOOOOO SIM here I come!! So happy, finally got an excuse to just talk to people next to me, lolz....

hmm but siannnnn how come my course only got 4 girls? All also not say very good looking... then again only abt 4, wad can i expect... especially from the computing course... sigh... who ask me to dislike economics?
Oh hey, but I tried to join council! Hahah ... Joan conned me with an F & N drink... the 3 Cs you know? Convince Confuse Con!!! Hahaha .. if I have time maybe I'll think of more.. make it the 5Cs!! :P

Hey oh btw.. anyone reading this thing, even at all.. 2 things to tell you guys..

1. Better check out the news first, find the alternative routes to Suntec.... it will be blockaded by the police due to security reasons, as IMF is coming in. Someone oredy zhong hor~ kena force 2 walk long way..

2. My SIM fren is gg 4 superstar audition (or wad? dunno wad its called) this Saturday , 11am, at Toa Payoh HDB hub or sthing.. you guys got time go down n support hor~ his name is Darryl!! Bring the horns and whistles ahz!! ( not sure wads the exact place.. he say got a lot of ppl gg there.. if u reli wan 2 know gimme a msg, i try 2 confirm wiv him lahz)


Haha SIM so fun tho~ cheap food, got bazaar somemore, $2 for 3 choc bars!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT???? Bargain man... wooohooooo ( cheapskate me ng.. lolz)

Kk I'll probably be saying how sian it is soon enough.. for now though, I find it sooo exciting... SIM wooooo!!!

The original Monty Python song..

Yeah I found the Monty Python song, the bright side of life, in its original context... and its sooo much funnier here! Hahaha.. feel good message too! Here take a look..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Loc8bpczZPY

And I especially like his last comment.. you start with nothing , you get nothing, you ARE nothing, what have you got to lose? NOTHING! Kinda takes most of the kick out of pessimism already, haha...

Pride and prejudice

I guess its been some time since I dared to whine.. so I'll whine in this secret post.

Sigh.. i finally realise what I am missing. Friends. Mind you, I'm not completely insane. I know I do have people who care about me -as far as friends go, anyway. But I doubt they will stick with me... until the end. That they will really go all out to help me... and that, if I were sane, would not go all out to aid anyway. No, not those.. like Anlin, like Augustine, like Yingying, like anyone else... no one I can truly, freely connect with, can talk with forever, can enjoy the prescence of AND who also enjoys my mere prescence as well. Not in real life. Messenger is a sad replica of life.. so it does not count. No, not Joseph, who only talks with me a while.. who talks with me about silly things most of the time, but ... I don't enjoy i that much, and I doubt he does either. Not Margaret, cos I barely enjoy her prescence... I think I am prejudiced against her. Poor girl.
Not Anlin, not AC people, not even my Fairfield people, whom I'm pressed hard to understand who really even is close enough to me. No one, nowhere, not even my current class. I'm alone, in this society, in this world, I am alone. I live alone and I die alone.... sigh.

No one will believe I can, and will, make great sacrifices as a friend. No one, I think, and for all my pride, I am afraid to ask... it will either confirm my fears, or affect our friendship, for the limited value it could be worth... No one I can say really shares my thoughts, and who trusts me as I trust them, wholeheartedly... no one, as far as I can tell... maybe because I barely trust people completely. I am afraid to shatter the hopes of the people who I think rely on me for support, but perhaps I am an idiot, haha. I always have been... and I always like to pretend I'm invincible. Perhaps that pride will destroy me.. lol. Maybe ... it already has.

I am empty, prejudiced, sick... I will die, soon. I am dead.. only a matter of time....

Sigh...

Moment of Silence ( Sept 5)

Yes... I forgot to say... we shall now commence a moment of silence... for Steve Irwin.. the crocodile hunter. ( Honestly I haven't watched his programs at all.. but somehow I think he's owed this at least)

Steve Irwin : 22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006

Killed by a stingray while filming yet another wildlife documentary...

Now we commence...
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Ok. That should count as a moment. Anyone timed that?
Never mind... the time is not relevant. It's the thought that counts..

Well that just goes to show that no matter how experienced we are with danger, it seems it will find some way to get to us... though of course he didn't die with a crocodile, that would be a joke for the crocodile hunter. A sad one, yes, but a great joke nonetheless.
No more souvenirs for him, no more " Crikey, that's a big one!" . Just a very long stay at the big croc swamp in the sky. G'bye, mate.

Sigh.

Fried stingray anyone?

Happy 21st to yet another soul...

Hello I just came back from Malaysia, spending much more meaningful time rather than simply spamming blogs and rotting at home... now I'm back to it again, haha.

Oh well, since I'm at it... Happy 21st to my friend Zhihong!!! Yes, to be honest, I haven't really talked to him often in the past few years, or even in my Fairfield days, or even at all... hmm, so why is he my friend? Well then he's not that close a friend then... but a friend nonetheless! :)
Anyway since I have nothing better to say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIHONG!! Welcome to adulthood!! Although you are still stuck in army , you're a clerk, so other than the usual " army sucks real bad" routine, you're better off than you think. Or maybe you know. Gah nvm.. HAPPY 21st!!! Wish you all the best for, firstly, your NS time, and then, your uni, and of course the rest of your life!! :P Din manage to make your party but I had 2 go malaysia... otherwise I'd definitely have come man. Esp since its not easy 2 organise an xd meeting these days...

Oh and also happy 21st to my friend and platoon mate, Alvin the Goh!!! Yes, I don't think anyone who even knows him is reading this at the moment, so I guess I'll have to intro Ernie to this too.. haha...Hmm, I will post my only pic of the event soon. Don't worry, I'll say more about this when I manage to upload the pic.. meanwhile, I'll just say HAPPY 21st!!! :)

Ok... birthdays are done. That's the update for now.. good day!!

APOLOGIES TO ALL!!! OMG...

Hey guys.. sorry i just realised I can't get my account cos i kinda forgot my password already.. meaning to say if anything goes wrong im dead.. :P so i kinda got a new one.. hey.. em.. so this entry is 4 the ppl who actually bothered 2 tag.. so sorry! :P ( Below r the entries frm original board) kerry: wah...u all steady leh! Go funeral like machiam xd gathering in chalet siaz haha!!! Sounds like quite fun lo, somemore got df there to sabo! Been quite busy the past week, moving apt and buy car.

the maker: oh man this one also got censoring man.. haha..

the maker: haha okok .. 1*beep*2 i just realised i din say anyting abt national day!! sorry ppl :P gg 2 post now! haha

yingying: who is ps? haha... dk! updates updates updates!

ps: nice blog!

kerry: ermm...yah yy, i was in sch waiting for classes so nothing to do...anyway dk, this 1 is ur confirmed blog already right?

yingying: wah kerry u tag at everybody's blog! loL~

kerry: wah...i cannot imagine df actually walking around with his stupid makeup on...oh man! Anyway so fun got xd gathering! I want to go also...so sianz in usa

seb: wah. just found out u've a blog..from yy's links.

the maker: ah bu? haha :P

kerry: dk is the maker arz?

the maker: haha my class outing leh yingz... nvm, i see if next time can! Haha :P

yingying: whY nvR toK abT mE? loL~ jokinG~ haHa... glAd thAt yoU're haviN fuN maN! bo jiO!!!

the maker: haha i also dunno wad siah~ but if got il sure ask u come one!

yingying: blog blog blog

yingying: what retarded things in mind? haha~ i wanna join!

the maker: haha i dun blog very often.. still a little shy lah~ Anwz thx 4 visiting me blog! ill b on yr blog too.. haha!

yingying: so long nvr blog ah...

yingying: me me me again! wahaha!

Death and despair

I've just woken from a long long nap. Why sleep until 2? Haha.. well, I've been over at Ivan's grandpa's wake the whole night.

It was a relatively simple affair.. I suppose its not the day where you have rites to finish the procedure. I'm not sure.. I didn't think so. Well anyway I went there alone, cos a few people I tried inviting couldn't make it, but then not everyone is slacking like me. Hahaha... OK, I understand u guys r busy so not yr fault.
So basically it was a weird arrangement in the end... Samuel came late and brought Joyce along- another xd which I still dunno, haha - and we play dai dee until we happy :P. Ate dinner, talk cock, sing song, wait until Auga + Dfoo come REALLY EARLY ( took them abt 2 hrs after Dfoo first said 10 mins then reach - which ended up abt 10+) and then Sebrina also came. So we continue talk cock sing song play retarded card games, and other retarded orientation games, and of course there was this fun game wiv cards, where you draw a card and can create various forfeits for diff cards... in the end we made the penalty peanuts and Daniel Foo ate most of them. Poor thing... muahahahah ... serve him right for telling us 10 mins ONLY??????
BUT we weren't finished... later he also drink until siao.. I tink 2 full cans of beer ah? Hahaha!! All cos of Indian poker... then Joyce left early and Seb also. ( that is, if u call 1pm early)
Then I see them play mahjong ( lim peh dunno how 2 play mahjong so watch lor~~) and then we play other retarded games until dinner. Had fun lah basically... then go home sleep in MRT and pong in bed. Most exciting part of my life. Haha..

Now let's talk about more serious stuff.

I had a chat with one of Ivan's cousins that day. I'm not gg 2 say his name. If u wan u can ask Ivan, but doesn't matter. He said that he slept next to the grandfather every night, before the man .... left . ( 7th month ok.. dun anyhow say things) He said he could not sleep anymore, not for more than an hour. He still believed, somehow, that the grandfather was still around.. he could't accept the idea that the old man wasn't here anymore. He said that he really regretted that he did not like to talk to his grandfather a lot... at least, now he feels he didn't talk enough to the old man. And even when he passed away, the boy ( yes hes not tt old) thought he was still sleeping...cos somehow, he was in the same position as when he usually sleeps. The boy reflected that you have to cherish the ones you have before you, before they leave.... and you never get the chance again.

Well... in the light of all that, I guess he does have a point. Naturally he's sad... especially when, as he says, the old man used to claim that he loved him more than all the other grandsons. It seems quite obvious, seeing as how the grandfather himself slept in the same room as him... or was it the same house? I dunno... I din tink it relevant to ask. Ivan wasn't so depressed ( at least according to what I saw) but of course he was sad. If he didn't feel sad, that would be odd, maybe even unfilial. After all, he's human. And from what I hear, he was a nice old man.. and a great grandfather.

So ok, lesson to be learnt... treasure those you love, and those who love you. You may not be able to see them at some time... maybe for a long time, maybe forever. It's sad, but that's life. If we come into this world, then we must leave at some time. We should cherish and hold them, show them how we feel, tell them all we want to tell them. For not only is their time limited but ours too.... and especially look out for your family. Often we forget our family, in the rush to meet new friends, socialise, we forget the people who love us the most. We take them for granted, and we let them pass.. soon enough it might be too late for regrets.
Somehow, though I tell that to people, I wonder, can I actually do that? Truly develop some filial piety for all I've forgotten so far? I'm not sure... I think I might have gone into cold dark stasis, into a mindset where I just can't love my family anymore. But I will try... and so should we all.

And if it really is too late to say goodbye, to say " I love you" or to cherish the one who loved you, then if you really cherish their memory, you should go forth and do your best. You say you have disappointed them by not using your potential? Do it then. In their memory, live well, be strong, live on. I believe that even the ... people who have "passed on" can see us, the living, in our entirety. Whether or not they can actually do something is a mystery we are still exploring.
But if they can see you, then work hard for your dreams, for your life. Be happy and well, and show them what you can do. Do not simply break into despair... it would break their hearts as much as yours, and even those with you who love you. Cherish those who have not gone, and in the memory of those who have, strive on and live your life to the fullest.

I saw the sky this morning, when I returned on the morning MRT. It was a beautiful dawn, and I thought.. even when you have gone through the darkest of days, you see such a sky, and you forget all that you have worried about.....

HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!!!

Hello hello everyone.. I've just realised I haven't put anything up for the greatest annual event in SIngapore... which is to celebrate the existence of Singapore itself!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! How old are we now? 41? Wow... tts.. actually not that old, come to think of it... Oh wait! No its to celebrate our independence!! After years of serving different masters ( first the Brits then the Japs and then back to the friendly old Brits... tea anyone? ) we were finally free on 9 Aug 1965!!! So that's the history of our beloved Singapore, for anyone who hasn't already memorised the facts.

So to celebrate this momentous day ( which I'm at least 4 days late for :P) here's the lyrics of the latest song for all Singaporeans to be sick of!!

MY ISLAND HOME sung by Kaira Gong , developed by Joshua Wen


This is my home
She's everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see
My island home

Wherever I may be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me

Chorus ^
And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home
Wherever I may be
I belie~ve ( drag the e)
You will always be a part of me

^ My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be
(This is my future
This is my home)

Repeat Chorus x 2

My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me
A part of me


Hmm.. I'll see if I can post this song up for anyone to hear once I figure how to permanently put music up on my page... meanwhile the rest of Singapore can prob remember how this stuff is sung so go ahead and sing!!!
Hahaha.. I guess it was another momentous mark in Singapore history.. a great day of celebration for most anyway. I spent the whole day at home myself... haha.. see it on TV lor. Me n my sad little life... BUT WHO CARES ITS NATIONAL DAY!!! Oh hey I missed all the fireworks too... but I did see the one on the day itself!! ( On TV)
We should all cherish that we are all part of Singapore, whether or not we are citizens or just are here.. cos it is a beautiful place, not say better than other countries because every one has its ups and downs, but for a tiny island nation we are lovely. Certainly if I wanted to point out our problems we have many- too little space to advance, stuck-up people, a culture of exaggeration, rumoured political problems, etc etc. But there is this peace that we have, that even foriegners may envy. No wars, no mass murders, no rampant drugs and robbery and madness. And much more. So honestly, at least for the week, we should appreciate the loveliness of our island home.

MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!!!!!!

Shunyanz gathering!!!!

Hello everyone..forgot to talk about the gathering on saturday. Haha I better do tt, otherwise YY complain i din talk about her liaoz.. :P

Yepz Sat got mini-shunyanz gathering... supposed 2 be auga + ji en + sam + me+ dfoo gg 4 movie... in the end we *fish-care the movie and end up zhihong + yingying join us 4 dinner at mcdonalds! Haha... but ji en suddenly ps siah, say got sore eye.... AS USUAL!! Dunno him lah... force of habit issit? Hahaha...
Kk so initially i meet yy outside the movie complex 2 wait 4 auga come out toilet.. then she go buy shoes siah.. cant resist the pink bag ah? Hahaha... then we go mcdonalds wait 4 the rest. The first shunyan 2 arrive was.. u guessed it... REN YAO Dfoooooo!!!!!!!!!! Retarded man... yingz give him her flower 2 put on his head and oredy we got that super " nice" picture you see below. Dunno wad he tinking man... say he wan 2 become Gaara ( ok not C Jack Sparrow.. :P)
but wtf... Gaara has diff face leh man, and he wears black not bright green!!! Hahaha wah lao... we had a lot of fun talking about his stupid makeup 4 some time. Ok ok, dun wan 2 talk too much abt this, dunno if he read he will go back n cry liaoz.. :P
So then we had dinner at mac. All go order their meals and eat... and me being cheapskate order the $4 combo- double cheese + small sprite + apple pie. $ 1.95 can take mrt all the way 2 .. anywhere siah!! Hahaha....
Then we take pictures also wiv yy's camera... lazy 2 upload 4 now, later ill put it here :P.
Sam last 2 come but then only left me + sam + yy + zh later go play pool... but later they all also gg mahjong session, n i dunno how 2 play... so nvm lor~ But pool .. ok lah, how much fun can u haf when u r supernoob siah~ haha... yingz most of the time act like singing karaoke into the pool cue ( reli miss kbox so much ah? haha) and then we haf Sam keep betting tt if some1 make a difficult shot he will take out the pocket and EAT!!!!! Haha... cool bunch of guys man... ( + one girl... whos not so noob at pool ok?? haha)

Okok.. then we all take some pictures on the train cos yy wan 2 try sam's specs n zhihong wan 2 try yy's specs!!! ( like i said.. now lazy 2 upload, later then do :P)
Then I zao liaoz... cos the gang gg 2 yy house to play mahjong...
Haiz man... i better learn some social activities man! Or ill all the time b left out siah :P
Next week ktv??? Im gg 2 try 2 organise... see how lor~

WARNING : DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME

Yes that's the sign they put up for dangerous stunts that are performed on TV. Like you know, wrestling, action scenes, even some martial arts shows. And of course stunt drivers!! Such stunts are risky even for the well-trained and is absolutely forbidden to rookies, because they might just hurt themselves badly or ..... worse.

Why am I talking about this? Simple.... I think they should place these warnings at other programmes too. Like with models. There are already too many cases where girls, obsessed with achieving the look of a model, have gone anorexic, starved themselves half to death, or even taken drugs which instead of helping have poisoned them. I really think they should use warning signs like these to warn people of the dangers of following these trends. These models have achieved their looks through years of training, dieting, etc etc.... its not instant and it is always done with the guidance of professionals. Just like with wrestling. Honestly, it's not healthy to try to keep up with them. Or ok, its not exactly impossible to achieve that look... so maybe it should be a disclaimer that goes..
" WARNING: DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME UNLESS ABSOLUTELY CONFIDENT OF SUCCESS. MODELS HAVE BEEN TRAINED AND GOOMED WITH THE CARE OF PROFESSIONALS..... IT IS NOT ADVISABLE TO ATTEMPT THEIR FIGURE FOR FEAR OF PERSONAL SAFETY. ( PS: Unemployed professional available for the job. Flexible with pay, working hours. Results may or may not work, but you have a better chance. Call********* for enquiries) "


OK there... models. Who else? Ah yes... actors. People should have dislcaimers for actors too. Yes, they do have those for action stars... but what about the others? Actors whose actions will compromise public safety... mainly those who flaunt their sexuality too openly in the public, thus causing road accidents, lockjaw, excessive drooling, and maybe even stampedes. And we certainly would not like to see people stripping in public just like that. ( OK, maybe we'd like 2 see some people do that i guess.. but look at the long term view!!!)
Oh, and actors with questionable fashion sense. LIke say, the charismatic Johnny Depp. I have to admit that he's a great actor, and he pulls off any of his roles with excellent depth and gusto, but he tends to take on strange characters who would be quite odd with normal society. Take our friend Capt Jack Sparrow. OK, so as a rocker he would fit in. But to the millions of fans out there who arent rockers, they might still try to imitate him. Which can result in true image disasters. Take this for example..

AAAHHHHHH!!!!!! ( ok the flower was unneccesary but we decided it adds a...nice touch :P)

REN YAOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or maybe it had more to do with my friend's fashion sense? LIke wearing a bright green shirt to go with the eyeshadow? Either way... its a reminder of the horrible things that can happen when you follow trends without professional consultancy. BE WARNED!!!! NOT EVERYONE CAN LOOK GOOD WITH SIMILAR CHANGES TO APPEARANCE!!! Especially if you are not exactly a Johnny Depp lookalike. ( Personally I think he can pull off any appearance he wants and make it look cool... while the rest of us look like fools.. how unfair life is )

Ok, what else is there? I'm not sure... basically dun just blindly follow what you see on TV or movies, or even on performances. It's not wise and sometimes it can be lethal.. either to your health or your social life or even your ego. And above all before you guys put on makeup, SEEK ADVICE FROM OTHERS- others who of course know how to put on makeup, especially if its a guy friend who has done it before, and preferably not out to sabo you.

ZOMBIE

~ To the people who have gone through hell and lived to tell ~

ZOMBIE by the Cranberries

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me,
it's not my family
In your head, in your head
they are fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns

In your head,
in your head,
they are crying...

(Chorus )
In your head,
in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie
What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?


Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken

It's the same old theme
since nineteen-sixteen
In your head, in your head
they're still fighting,

With their tanks
and their bombs,
And their bombs
and their guns.
In your head,
in your head,
they are dying...

(Chorus)

End of the song...



There are a lot of reasons for us to keep fighting forever.. only one pathetic one for us to stop.
How many countries will survive when the dust settles and we finally resolve our differences?
How many when we realise that we can't?

Lebanon: ????- 2006

PRoCRaSTINATION

YESSS I'm a real procrastinator... so much tt I've decided 2 talk abt last wknd right now.. :P
First things first. Friday.. Kenneth's birthday!! Kenneth as usual invited a lot of shunyans 2 come...( no lah just kidding :P) anw he invited practically all the fairfield ppl i still rmb, so haha good 4 him man! We had fun just talking n stuff, pity auga n gang din come man, they r just damn funny guys, n i wld haf liked 2 talk 2 them there. But anw like I said, so many shunyan, also dun tink they will come...haha..
Anw we had a barbeque at Kenneth's super-shunyan condo... and then the real dinner. And after tt we gathered 2 sing his bday song, cut the cake... and throw kenneth in the pool!! haha wooohoooo so fun!! :)

Saturday even more fun! 4C class outing... as usual a lot of shunyans dun wan 2 come... but dunno dun care!! Haha... oh btw Diana came along. I haven seen her since sec schl man!!! She looks.... erm, cant say, I reli cant place her face liaoz. :P
Anw we went sentosa 2 play on the beach... we planned 4 a breakfast b4 tt but ended up eating lunch.. and then it rained!! Hahaha wah lau.. thot cant go sentosa liaoz.. but luckily it ended ard 1pm, n we went 2 sentosa ard 1+, n started playing ard 2 I think. Aiyah dun care timing lah, we play means we play lor~
So we played captain's ball, cos the class wan 2 practise 4 Past v Present this sat..
so long never play but damn fun siah!! Chiong here chiong there and anyhow score goals!!! Hahaha.. initially my team got advantage, then we started to lose like siao. But we dun care, we fight until we almost equalise man!!! ( I think)

" COME ON GUYS ONLY 7 MORE GOALS 2 WIN!!!!" HHAHAHHAhahaahah woooohooooooo

So fun so fun... after tt we play ultimate frisbee, n then we go even crazier. Start calling our team Geylang Warriors, n anyhow hantum.. then Shawn start doing his stupid stunts, haha, throw back the frisbee 2 himself, and we start doing warcry!!
" Lets go guys!!! YYYYAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR- < short breath>- YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAARRRRRM
SSSSEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Wooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! So fun siah, finally got the chance 2 reli go crazy for a while siah~ helps 2 release tension, n dun need 2 tink so much. Well we played another game of captain's ball ( wiv more warcry this time) and my team lost all 3 games. But u know wad???? GEYLANG WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! FIGHT UNTIL THE END!! TODAY WE LOSE TMR WE THRASH EVERYONE!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Siaoz liao.. but tts the mood in the games. Hahha...
After tt we had dinner at Suntec... shawn the super-shunyan as usual dun wan 2 fetch us there, instead go home n then say he'll b late then later during the dinner say he wun b coming liaoz... hahaa anw not tt we din expect tt. Dinner was ok lah, some noodle place.. I had Penang Prawn Mee, so-so lah, a bit better than the usual singapore version of the PP Mee.
SSSSSSSSSSoooooooooo fun man... Im glad my class so onz one, every once in a while got class outing. Love u guys man!!!

IDIOTA

Yes I am one indeed. I've just realised that today.
Somehow after I came out of NS, I thought I was no longer that whiny, pessimistic, sloppy and emotional piece of crap I used to be. That I was now far more immune to emotional breakdowns, whims and pain. That I was some kind of new man.

I guess I'm wrong. I really am. I thought I could help people if I tried this time, and not make a mess of things. But like Zidane ( who was at least a star before he did stupid things) I do things on a whim. I gave up a lot of money on one, I became an army laughing stock on one, and now, I risk losing a friend on one.
She was hurt, yet again, and I thought I could help her. But of all the ideas I could come up with, this one is one of the worst. I was arrogant, thinking I was smart, thinking I was being a good friend. I was self-centred, thinking more about myself, about how I could prove myself a friend if I could do it. I was anything but a friend, the kind she needed, to just be there, to just help take her mind off all this madness. Instead I screwed myself up, and maybe even her. I'm not sure.. but I hurt her again, as if she needed any more. I was paranoid, obsessive, stupid. Clumsy with my words just like I am with my actions. And if anything, I'm sorry for all that I've done. But I fear I might be too late.

I'm not sure what she would make of this. I don't think she wants to speak to me, at least for a while. I don't know if she even trusts me anymore, or if she ever wants to remain my friend. I don't know what to know. All I know is that I'm just as whiny, just as pathetic a human being as I was before, if only slightly more controlled, a little wiser, but not enough. I've hurt too many people in my life, I don't want to do that anymore. But I guess that's not possible, because I'm just me.

If she is reading this, I just want to say.. I'm sorry. I really am. I have no excuses for what I said, but all I can do is apologise. Sorry..

What happens when people get mad

MUST MUST MUST

- Must get driving license asap
- Must confirm whos gg 2 fairfield past v present so i can decide wad 2 join
- Must begin learning basic coding
- Must learn how to draw properly
- Must get back army fitness
- Must learn guitar ( sooooon)
- Must kill something!!!!!
- Must refrain from public destruction
- Must start thinking again instead of stoning my whole life away
- Must do something RETARDED!!!!!!!!
- Must think of other things to write in my blog :P

Friends

Its alright, I'm ok. I think God can explain.....
- Splender, " I think God can explain", album Halfway Down the Sky


Odd that I'm still awake at this time? Nah not reli.. i like being awake late. I get to appreciate things.. and work unhampered, if you can call what I'm doing working.
Lately I've bn talking with several ppl most of the time, and these figures are in my mind these weeks.
One is this nice girl that's kind of my senior in SIM- haha, ironically, I was her senior in sec schl. She's sweet and all, and I guess we're kind of sharing how we feel to each other. I like this kind of friendship- based on trust, you know, not so much on how much fun we're having or sthing. ( Yes I know u can read this, hah.. thx 4 being some1 i can talk 2 ! :) )

Then there's some ppl I'm just not so sure abt...
This one guy.. he's just recently bn addicted 2 gambling. I've known him for some time, but still i dun reli know when the habit started... I guess I'm trying 2 b tough wiv him so he can wake up and smell the roses. Maybe I shouldn't b so tough.. after all, he is talking abt stuff like depression and suicide. Not so much, fortunately, so I'm still gg 2 try 2 wake him up. Still I dun reli know how much I can do...
Another is basically the fren I've bn missing in one of these past entries.. and for long time now. Odd really.. I've just had a dream of her this afternoon. I won't say what its like, just.. I think it means I miss her too much. I haf no idea if I've done anyting wrong, and I'm trying 2 apologise, but its gg 2 take more than tt to bridge 2 years of ... seperation? haha that just sounds wrong, but I dun know what else 2 call it...
Finally, this odd friend of mine.. I dun know if she does regard me as one, haha... I've only met her online so far BUT I'm gg 2 meet her in person! Finally! I hope everything goes well, cos I really want 2 see how this enigma is like. oooOOOooOoo.... As far as I know, she looks good, and she's quite an intelligent person. I hope I dun bore her 2 death or sthing, or scare her off. Hah~

Well thats all I can say for now. Really, I think I've taken up the WC 06 motto for myself this period of time- " A time to make friends", or rather, I'm trying to be one .... to maintain friendships, and be a better friend to all. Well, still plenty of time till dawn, so I got time to reflect again.

SIM

Hah, today I went to SIM for my orientation day. Fun~ lots of games and .. ok, not a lot, but ok lar, got shy ppl u knowz, so dun pressure them too much :P

Anwayz, it was fun but tiring... reli tiring, go home abt 4 and sleep until abt now. Haha.. but reli not happy tho. Why?? It was fun, get 2 talk 2 some ppl, know their names... but for fuck! Now like i din get their contacts.. so we can prob see each other over the canteen? Haha.. wah lau, regret not chatting more wiv the chio bus in our grp, then get number siah... or even my buddy grp in there! ARGGHHHHH sianzzzz... hope my orientation grp leader ( OGL ) will give us the contacts, otherwise reli wasted siah, will see them maybe in 2 or 3 years time.. hah~

Otherwise was fun... lots of stupid little games, but I missed a few cos of stomachache~ dun care, got 2 see my OGL pole-dancing!!!! HAHAHAHA LOLZ... have fun jeremy! ;) Then so fun, watch one guy play TD at the cca displays... hahaha!!! GOT ONLINE PARTNER 4 TD LIAOZ!!! ONZ LAR!!!

Ok jus siannn... haf fun everyone~

End of the World Cup

Tears and smiles and grins and tackles are all over now.. the greatest event of 2006 is finally over. As we bid farewell to the festivities in Berlin, I'll now comment on the player that has changed this whole event.

That player is the one with plans for a grand finale.. our beloved Zinedine Zidane, aka Zizou, aka the Magic Man . Everyone thought he was wasted, gone, old, and archive in history, a legend fading into myth. He proved to them that the legend was far from dead and buried. He particularly taught Ronaldinho , the new Magic Man, that it takes more than a few fancy tricks to be a great player- and that great players never go down easily. It can't be argued that throughout the whole French campaign, he was the inspiration, the leader and the ultimate weapon of his team.
Ironically, it was because of that, that he was instrumental in their defeat.
Why, oh Zizou, why??? The last 10-20 minutes were crucial times to score, break the deadlock. Yes, you saved France with that early goal, but then you did something stupid. Materazzi held you down, and yes, I think he deserved something , but he did not get it. That was no excuse for headbutting him , openly inviting a red card. Forget your temper. This is not about you, it is about the country. Had you held your temper and followed through faithfully, France might have beaten the Italians. You guys might have had Totti and Buffon on a pizza plate. Instead, they now have French toast in the Italian side.
Doing some physical retribution is stupid, and rightly earned you a red card... you can't blame the ref for that. Not only did you take yourself out of the World Cup, you took the French morale and hopes with you. And your honour as a player.. all gone in a flash. Whatever happened to your dream of being a shooting star, sending your brightest flash before fading into the night? Now that is marred by your decision. I really have thought better of you as a player than to resort to this. You really want vengeance, you should just go all out and help the French skewer Buffon, keep up a relentless pace on his goal. Imagine the look on the Italians if you manage a last minute goal. It would be sweet sweet revenge for any abuse you have suffered from them, with sugar icing and a cherry on top. Not just Materazzi, any and all of the Italian players will be wincing even worse than if a bull had gored them. Now, instead, Materazzi will be grinning thru whatever pain you had inflicted with that bald palate of yours. Instead of him, you should have set it against the ball, to set up a killer against Italy. Now, the pain of loss is inflicted on you and your team.

I know I'm mumbling, but it really is too big a shame. Temper has cost a legend his last breath of victory. A valuable lesson to the world, that patience is still one of the world's most valuable assets. That anger can be truly expensive. Zizou has bowed out too early, too foolishly, and France has paid the price.

New Updates: So now he has confessed to why he did that. Cos Materazzi insulted yr family. I say give that ball one of your magic touches and kill Italy's hopes. Then after tt, you can insult his whole freakin' family and he'll b too busy crying to notice.

But no matter what you did, you will always be remembered as a legend in football history. Among the mythos of Pele, Beckenbauer, Maradona. Au Revoir, Zizou!

Farewell To A German Dream

This post, simply put, is dedicated to a team that is now to fight for 3rd place. A team that has fought well and hard for a dream.. a dream that has vanished like smoke.

Of course this is the World Cup.. many teams will return shattered, with their heads below their shins (wow, if that's possible) , tired and facing the disappointment of their country. But Germany, in particular, has been my favourite team this World Cup. And so, since this is my blog, I'll write about them.

Since the start of the watchable matches ( meaning the final 64) they have performed with great gusto. While like any other European team, they boast a robust defence and midfield, now they also have a devastating attack force. They have always been a highly tactical team, and I believe that they can work with even mediocre players ( not that they have any..) . Not like England... put in some of the world's best players and churn out a game that sends everyone to sleep. Honestly, this year the English were pathetic. But the Germans were on a frenzy, going offensive and making every one of their games watchable. And of course, they went on unbeaten, slaughtering every team they met, until they met Italy.
Of course, you could say that's because they were on their home ground, so they will do better. Definitely, they will do better on home ground. In fact, Klinsmann already admitted that the audience is a great booster for the German team. And hence the legend that the Germans will never be beaten on their own soil.
But the last match proved fatal. Why? The answer is simple. Now you have 2 legends fighting each other - one, that the Germans are invincible on home ground, and two, that the Italians have never lost to Germany. It seems that the latter one proved true. The Germans seemed to falter at the thought, and in the first half, their performance was slightly off. But they came back in the second half, only to lose 5 minutes before the game ended.

Now, however, I still admire them. Even in the last match, I feel they were a better team than the Italians. Why? In terms of fair play. The Italians have always been known for playing dirty. And that match was no exception. Players kicked the Germans, dived like pro swimmers, and Totti was a total idiot in one part. He practically flew into a German player with his knees, then fell- and asked for a penalty. What the fuck???? The ref decided to give a penalty against him , but that unsporting act deserved a yellow card, if not a red. Lucky for him, the player didn't get injured enough to be carried out, otherwise yellow would be unavoidable.
The Germans, however, were quite sporting in this game, I feel. They barely asked for penalties, especially when it was obvious they fell on their own. Not with the Italians.. that is why I will never respect them. They lost fair and square, and did not complain. They cried on the pitch, but hell, if you lost in the final 5 minutes wouldn't you? Especially when it is the fight for the World Cup finals. They fought well and hard, and bowed out of the finals with grace.

They lost the match, they lost the Cup, but they won my respect. Germany is proud of them, and I am too. Well done , Germany.. GLORY TO THE DEUTSCHLAND!!!

World Cup

So now I'm going to put my 2 cents worth into the World Cup. This fantastic affair with soccer over one month , where guys' and some gals' lives will revolve around 6 to 9 hours every night , watching some 22 people wage war on the green turf over a deceptively simple-looking ball.

Yes, this World Cup's motto is " A time to make friends" but I think it really is a war out there on the pitch. Of course, some of the teams so far have shown sportsmanship on and off the field. But on some games, it has been nothing but brutal absolute war. Take Holland v Portugal : tension in this match was at an alltime high after the referee personally massacred the teams on both sides for a record yellow cards . It was clear after the match when the handshaking that was supposed to happen failed. Then there is Germany v Argentina- both sides battled so closely for the ball that eventually it came to a penalty, which of course the Germans savoured with that fancy new Berlin wall, Lehmann. The Argentine players didn't even bother with courtesies and protested physically after the match.

Well enough about ruining the game. Let's talk about this whole colourful event. Where to start?
I love the Germans this year. They have always been a strong European team, using unspectacular players to do extraordinary things. This is much unlike the English this year( using great players to do crap) and why I absolutely do not support the English this year. They make every game so boring, so mundane, and if it takes Beckham to perform for them you know they really suck. The Germans have a great war machine going, with both strong offense and defence, and they have Klose and Lord Ballack to finish things off with a bang. They started it with a bang indeed- 4-2 against Costa Rica- and I hope they finish this with a fantastic victory. HAIL THE DEUTSCHELAND!!!!!
Holland has been great as always .. total football defined. But they had a poor finish.. siannn lose to Portugal in the midst of this mad ref... didn't even get their goals rolling. Sad sad.... :(
Italy will forever be remembered this year for their poor sending off of Australia, with that miserable diver and much more...
Well thats all for now. Like I care.... hahahah

AARRRGGHHHH

I have no idea why... im suddenly feeling so frustrated today.
I suppose tts wad happens when i actually lose my obsession with computer games... I find I have nothing else to do!!!! I jus don't feel like doing anything else ... reading? drawing? working? studying for my driving? maybe i should.. but i want to go out with my frens, catch up wiv ppl i haven seen or heard frm for so long... and they dun reply!!! They dun haf time for immature me, no they dun haf time at all... welcome to the mundaneness of adulthood. Hah.. thats wad i get for turning 21. Soon ill b another rhetoric-spouting, obedient little worker in the hive of Singapore's lovely, sane society... soon I will enjoy listening to the great Prime Minister promise more for glorious Singapore.... soon soon soon.

When that day comes, someone please give me a sword so I can commit hara-kiri. Cos Im really nothing without my insanity...... arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, looks like I really dun haf patience after all.... it will soon change, when I grow up and be a wonderful sane citizen of the lovely clean Lion City.......

Yet another song....

Hi everyone.. this is yet another song... cos im bored. Reminds me of someone.. not realy the person I am missing, but also someone i know as a fren. Hah...
( Note: The singer sings EXTREMELY soft... i think it wld b better if u just listened 2 the music or sang it yourself, heh...)

Play this song

The One You Love by Glenn Frey ( Eagles singer)

I know you need a friend,
someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love,
there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do

I heard you on the phone,
you took his number
Said you weren't alone,
but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy,
the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?

When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

( Chorus)
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

( And here comes the jazz....)

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?

Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

(Chorus)

(And the grande finale of jazz music... heh, definitely for jazz lovers..)

Well thats all for now everyone... haha, just feeling in a random unpurposeful mood so...see yall.

So what am I doing?

Haha.. of course I'm writing in my blog! What else could I be doing?

But seriously... nowadays I've been trying to be there for people, try 2 make them feel better...but in the end, I realise that it is me who feels lonely... me who needs their companionship rather than the other way around....
I had a friend whom I've been waiting for some time... someone who has returned from a long trip... she may not remember me ( fat chance, I've bn plaguing her blog for some time.. hah)
and she may not be thinking of me... but I have bn thinking abt her. Not in a romantic sense, mind you... no, not interested in tt. But as a friend, even tho i may not b very close to her, n we havent really done anything memorable together ( tt I can recall) but..... I miss her. I really do.
It's been 2 years.. she left b4 my NS began, and even when it started, I haf bn anticipating the end of it not cos it means the end of my torture.. heh, ok, tts partly the reason. But I wuz really thinking of meeting up wiv her after tt... somehow i thot she wld come back ard 2 years later, just nice for my NS to end.. we cld go out n .. i dunno, do anything. Movies, games, shooping! Anything! Cos wads the point of so much free time when u haf no frens to get back with?
Really, her return marks the end of my NS more than the passing of the ORD form... to me at least.
Hah, maybe I'm just fantasising tt we wld actually click after being apart so long.. tt we even clicked in the first place. Maybe she's outgrown losers like me..maybe she's discovered sthing wrong abt me.... or maybe she just doesnt care. I've tried .. to contact her, ask her 2 call me...
but she hasnt replied. Maybe I should be more patient, maybe she'll remember me soon. Maybe..... maybe not.
Oh well... I do haf more frens than tt, of cos... not saying any of my frens reading this r less important... in my sad little life, frens are always important. But still... I miss her. Maybe this is only because I've been thinking of this for 2 years.. or just a year n a half... but ... ....

Kk... thx to all who've read this. Just feeling sad now...but no worries, Ill forget this soon. Haha...

How not to play soccer

....unless you really want the whole world to laugh at you. Hhahaha lolz...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guKNxIwTRdI&mode=related&search=comic%20soccer%202

This one isn't tt funny n the quality sux.. but for those who like 2 watch ricochets this is a vid of them.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0TIfbMR4as&search=comic%20soccer%202

Hahah, but the best part is the song....credits go to Monty Python. The one and only!


ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE by MONTY PYTHON
Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse
When your chewin' on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle!
And this'll help things turn out for the best!

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the light side of life(whistle)

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And thats to laugh and smile and dance and sing
When your feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps!!
Just purse your lips and whistle
That's the thing!!

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the light side of life(whistle)

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow..
Forget about your sins
Give the audience a grin!
Enjoy it, it's your last chance anyhow!!!

So always look on the bright side of death(whistle)
Just before you draw your terminal breath(whistle)

Lifes a piece of Shit
When you look at it
Lifes a laugh and deaths a joke its true....
You'll see its all a show
Keep 'em laughin' as you go!
Just remember that the last laugh is on you..

And, always look on the bright side of life(whistle)
Always look on the right side of life(whistle)( x6 )

Crazy/ Evil things to do

This is a little ripped off from the " 20 ways to maintain a healthy level of insanity" but I don't care!!!!! Hahahaha

• dontuseanykindofpunctuation
• o.RscreW????uP_YOur/puN"cTuati...on:; liK!e////thi>S
• Dress up peanut shells and sell them as elephant deterrents... see??? it works! no elephants around!
• When the traffic policeman starts directing traffic, get out of the car and imitate his hand signals... in the opposite direction
• When you see people ask for donations, search intensely and everywhere until you find something to give them!!! Like receipts, bills, chewing gum.....
• End every statement with "...in accordance with the prophecy"
• Except for arguments... end them with "...Spawn of Satan!!!!"

Hmmm... cant think of wad in heck i wanted to say... maybe just showing off my talent in ignoring punctuation? haha.... no this has no purpose. Thanks for wasting 5 seconds of your own precious time.... :P

New way to insult me...

Hi everyone.... or anyone who is even reading this.. heh.
Lovely lovely day huh? Well just came in to say I've updated my blog wiv cbox... soo feel free to comment in it. I like listening to comments, especially when i can just delete them.. haha... sooo say anything you want! Cos so will I.. hahaha....

Just an entry..

Hi... this is an entry..
I'm not sure why... I have this weird feeling of missing people whom I dun even know very well... I dunno wad this means. I dunno wad I'm doing . It might mean something, it might not. Oh well....
Bye.

Friends...

Hi.. this post is devoted to friendship...

What is it? A simple bond btw ppl.. a symbol of love tt shld not have any barriers.. oh, but it does. Conflicting interests.... love triangles. religion. politics. money. morals. and even appearances sometimes.... its sad, really. Its much more common btw all people than romantic love, u know, bgr.... and it can be just as noble. But in definition, it has been interpreted as many different times as the Bible, the Koran, and all the religions, combined.

But this is my blog.. so I'll say my definition.
Friends are not always there with you.. not physically, you can't expect that. Like all people, they ae not perfect.. they will conflict with you, they will hurt you, they will hit you even. They bear grudges, show temper, and the list goes on. But above all.... a true friend will never backstab. Never go around spreading false rumours, or even a malicious truth without first confronting the friend about it. A friend will never leave you behind in the darkest of your days, to rot and to lie alone, waiting for death. He will not abandon you even if you both have an argument... or simply glorify you when you are great only to leave you when you are down.
Those are fair-weather friends... as bad as one night standers, its more like casual sex than friendship this way. Family of course comes first, so I dun expect a friend to deny his mother's orders to help me. No... you shldnt expect tt, cos parents have more love for a child than we wld ever know at this time.
Friends will not force you into a decision... unless they believe it is for your own good. Like not to take drugs, to drop someone whom they feel is a bad influence, etc. Sometimes when they do tt they risk your wrath, other ppl's anger, and even splitsville wiv you. But still... tts them. Love is abt sacrifice... and yes, its cruel, but tts life. Personally, though, I'm not that noble... I still believe in freedom of decision, after all, its your life. What you want to do with it will be yours alone to decide.. since the consequence is yours. Even so, it will not be yours alone... because friends help each other bear burdens, don't they?
Friends are not, as I mentioned earlier, sugary sweet. No... not entirely. They will criticise you, point out your flaws, help you correct them. The Bible says you must " pluck out the plank from your own eye before you pull the splinter from your brother's" or something like that.. but what if it is sawdust? You can't reach it, and neither can your friend... you will have to blow each other's eyes. Most of the time, flaws are sawdust... invisible to us, a mere irritant, but it can be a fatal problem in certain situations. To quote another person , " we have 2 bags filled with Imperfections all the time... one in front and one behind... the one in front is our neighbour's, the one behind ( and invisible to us) is our own" This, in short, means we have to help each other see our flaws and correct them... cos our habits die hard, and when we get used to them they remain hidden from us..

So what kind of friend am I?

I think of myself as a dark-weather friend.. I want to be there when you are at your darkest days. When you have to walk thru a desert of despair, I want to be there with you. I may not be able to do much... I am well aware of my limitations socially or physically..... but nevertheless, I will not leave you alone if you wish. I will never backstab you ... if i hear a rumour about you I'd rather ask you first abt it or confirm it with facts and then confront you with it. If not I'll just shut up. I don't want to force people into decisions.. I doubt I ever will. I'll try to influence it but in the end, I recognise that its all up to you. I will not die for friends, family or even lovers... I'm not that noble. I'll live for them... to help them whenever I can, to be there when I have to, to just simply be another irritating fellow to write about in your blog.. heh. Whatever... if you have any reason to care about me, I'll live for you. After all, I'll be of no use to anyone dead.

Hah.. all this is probably some fantasy of mine... like kids wanting to be soldiers or He-Man when they grow up.

Well thats all I'm writing for now... I'll want to update this in the future but i gotta go now...
and my thanks to all my friends who might be reading this.

Sandman

Play this song

Enter Sandman


Say your prayers little one
Don't forget, my son
To include everyone

Tuck you in, warm within
Keep you free from sin
Till the sandman he comes

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

(Chorus)
Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We're off to never never land

Something's wrong, shut the light
Heavy thoughts tonight
And they aren't of snow white

Dreams of war, dreams of liars
Dreams of dragon's fire
And of things that will bite

Sleep with one eye open
Gripping your pillow tight

(Chorus)


Now I lay me down to sleep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
If I die before I wake
Pray the lord my soul to take

Hush little baby, don't say a word
And never mind that noise you heard
It's just the beast under your bed,
In your closet, in your head

Exit light
Enter night
Grain of sand

Exit light
Enter night
Take my hand
We're off to never never land

( Cue demonic laughter)

This is fun isn't it? I like this song, though it isnt really great as a rock song... it is kinda cool, a little sinister, and somehow I like it. Haha.. my closet sadist at work.

Movies..

Now I give my bigoted opinion on the movies I've watched recently. Dun like it? I don't care!!! Hahaha...

What recent movies have I watched recently? Let's see... X-Men 3, Da Vinci's Code, Over the Hedge, and The Omen. I can't comment on Over the Hedge.. it is a nice movie indeed, and since it's for kids ( not some lao ah pek like me.. hah) I won't comment. No.. I think I'll comment on the movies not targeted at kids.

X-Men 3.. hmm... well it wasn't badly done, I'd say. Typical over-the-head special effects, with some cool stunts done by Magneto ( turning this whole bridge.. cooool I wanna do that!!) and of course our hero of the day, Wolverine. Good actors, some eye candy ( Oooh.. Kitty is cute! And of cos Halle Berry always rox ^^) and all the mutants showing off their powers in this final showdown. The last battle was fun...
But!!! It was flawed , always will be to X-Men fans, and a little to not-so-obsessed people like me. For one.. trying to showcase sooo many mutant powers, they sideline the extras who had a pretty prominent role in the cartoon or comics. Or even poor little Rogue.. but then in the movies shes always the damsel in distress, so nvm. But wtf... they killed CYCLOPS sooo damn early!!!! WTF.. he was the leader of the X-Men siah... how can u just kill him off like tt... and u din even give him the least bit of use in the whole movie series. So wasted siah....
And Gambit!!!! My bloody fave X-Man... why in hell u guys din even show him??? Even as the baddie he wld have been sooo cool.. he was one of their team in the cartoon somemore. If theres an X-Men 4 he better be inside!!! He wld make for a really nice fight scene wiv anyone, esp those 2 spiky hairs ( Wolverine n Beast)


Now the Da Vinci Code... it's the mystery of the century! It's enigmatic! Awe-inspiring! Wondrous! Annnnnnddddddd ssssslllllooooooowwwwww.................................. but then wad 2 expect, so was the book, haha. Yes, I read the book before I saw the movie. Bad move... as usual, I ended seeing sooo many flaws in the movie. Inaccuracies , misses, and too early to reveal the identity of The Teacher. And honestly, what is with Tom Hanks and that long forehead??? Freak... they shld change tt horse joke wiv Tom Hanks. You know... Tom Hanks walks into a bar. The bartender looks at him and says why the long face.....-.-
( Oh, but the choice of Sophie Neveu was perfect...Audrey Tatuou n her irrestibly cute face...)
And the ending is also diao.. but the book also wad, so wad 2 say....

Finally.. the Omen. I should say it's very well done.. really looks and sounds and feels great. I'm not going 2 turn Christian and cover my walls wiv crosses because of that, but its a great horror movie with a nice style... not too cheesy or anything. Nice intro, ending, and overall good show. Especially the sound effects.. those r really wad made me jump.
Oh, but the characters were really interesting. Good actors, including tt child satan, tt impaled priest who in other movies is always some mad fellow, the nice and evil nanny, and even tt supernice daddy who loves his wife so much n doesnt just abandon her cos she goes mad. Too nice, since of course they want him 2 kill his satanic devilspawn son. Oops, musn't reveal the plot....
But I'd like 2 say sthing... the little boy shld learn sthing frm psychopaths in real life. They never reveal their identity until they get caught, and try to avoid detection. They go ubernice to ppl so nobody knows wad in hell they really do. The boy shld try tt next time...be nice 2 ppl, stop being menacing 2 everyone so tt when u use yr powers, nobody will know tt the demon doing this is tt perfectly obedient prim n proper boy who cld never hurt a fly...... awww....

Well tts all the movies I've watched recently.. i tink. Ill post when i remember n feel like posting.. heheh.

Before we proceed...

Before we proceed, I'd like to say something > SOMETHING!!!!! Hahahaha... kidding :P

I'd just like you all to know some things about me.. if you wish 2 become or are already my friend....
- I'm more than a little impatient
- I can't make chatter out of nowhere... and I'm generally quite a boring person
- But when I go crazy, I get criminally insane... heheh
- I can't make up my mind
- I'm a noob at most things

And that is the good side... I'll let you guys find out wad my bad side is. Hahah..

Sooo if you dun mind all these, then I'm going to start my entries soon. Read on, comment, and say whatever you wish. It's my blog, if you don't like it leave. You can comment whatever you want, haha, cos if I dun like it I'll just delete it.

Hi everyone..

Hi all. This is a blog. A simple one. I'm sick of all that imaging to make myself look cool or weird or something... or anyone else. I'm going to make a blog to make a blog. Maybe I'll put my life in, maybe not. I don't know. And maybe I don't care.... Hah!
Nothing special about this.. no blog skin or anything. None. No.. I'll just post wadeva I want.